merulanoir

[merulanoir]

Also when it comes to those "happiest countries in the world" studies, it's good to remember that different cultures have different definitions of what counts as "happiness". To some people, being "happy" as a general thing is interpreted as feeling happy most of the time, being thrilled and excited about things at the same rate and frequency as small children are. That's not usually realistic, so naturally a person who considers that as their definition of happiness is going to answer "no" when asked whether they're happy.

And to some, being happy with something is a neutral state, of having no complaints of the thing in question. Your car isn't flashy but it's functional so you say you're happy with your car. Your job isn't glamorous but you'd rather drive to work than into a tree, so you say you're happy with your job. Your life isn't fancy but there aren't any particularly distressing threats terrorising you every day, so you say you're happy with your life.

You can imagine the dissonance that happens when someone with that kind of a definition says "I just want to be happy", meaning that they would simply prefer a life that wouldn't involve as much emotional anguish and suicidal idelation as it currently does, and someone with the former type of definition of "happiness" tells them that it's simply unrealistic to expect to always be happy.

[merulanoir]

Grief

ref photo by @jawsstone

[merulanoir]

It's utterly magnetic when a character's rage is quiet and precise. When they don't scream and throw things but they just b r e a t h e and very very calmly aim their fury like an arrow shooting inexorably towards the target of their wrath. It captures my attention, I lean in close, I wait for the hit. It never disappoints.

[merulanoir]

[merulanoir]

[merulanoir]

sound on

[merulanoir]

#elden ring

[merulanoir]

#dnd

[merulanoir]

it's just wild to me that most people didn't learn that the entire middle east wasn't always arab. that egyptians, turks, persian iranians, moroccans, etc are not fully ethnically arab and were colonized and mixed. that their original indigenous languages were not arabic.

(i mean also that jews are from judea but you know)

it's so depressing that this ignorance is so deeply prevalent.

[merulanoir]

#angry sigh and hit reblog

[merulanoir]

You, a heroic paladin have successfully slain a fearsome dragon. But the dragon warns you that death is but a door, and dragons don’t die, they reincarnate. You paid it no mind….until your son was born with golden, slitted eyes.

#dnd

[merulanoir]

as an autistic jew, passover is objectively the best holiday because it’s a dinner party with a script that everyone has to follow

[merulanoir]

Oh yeah that’s Elijah. Yeah he’s a ghost. Don’t worry about him he won’t cause any trouble. Yeah we invite him every year.

[merulanoir]

First carriage ride of the year 🐶🌼

For anyone new, Holly Mop is a rescue dog who spent the first few years of her life in a cage. When we first got her she was terrified of being outside and would become ill with stress when we tried to take her on walks. We got her a stroller to see if that would help and it became her favorite thing. Three years later she’s able to walk on leash in quiet spaces, but still loves the elevated view from her carriage.

The flowers are left over from renfaire last year:

[merulanoir]

Um, actually it says in the rules that if Moses doesn’t come down from the mountain in 15 minutes, you’re legally allowed to make a golden idol. :///

[merulanoir]

#every dnd campaign i have ever run

[merulanoir]

Shipping fictional characters isn’t representative of your moral values. It’s representative of your particular psychic damage and the themes and motifs that haunt you. Hope this helps.