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We got another angle of their reaction to that question!!

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Charles Leclerc x APM Monaco (BTS)

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Complex trauma from abuse can cause chronic exhaustion, and chronic pain. This means the recovery, aside from being filled with guilt, shame and rage, will include long time spent in bed, feeling to exhausted and pained to move, or do anything.

This is happening because trauma is hard on the human body, and your body will spend all energy just trying to fight it, or repress it, or process it. The emotional pain of trauma being processed is enough to cause physical pain, chest pain, pain in all of your joints, headaches; your body will be so tense you can end up in chronic back pain and muscle pain just from all the tension and inability to relax. Your mind will be re-living the past and your body will react accordingly, getting terrified, shocked, tense, and finally showing all the damage you couldn’t feel when the abuse was happening. Even if you felt nothing while it was happening, there was no way to avoid this, your body can’t keep the trauma hidden inside of you forever.

One thing common for recovering victims is to feel intense shame for resting, for spending so much time in bed, feeling sick and worried about their future because they can’t get it together enough, or can’t get their tasks done due to pain and detachment from reality. You’ve all experienced being shamed for resting, being blamed for your own pain, and told you have no value if you’re not productive and hardworking. However, none of this applies to you right now. You need to rest. This rest is for survival. This is comparable to recovery from life-threatening injury, you cannot be expected to function or shamed for being lazy if your body is broken and barely hanging onto life. You are surviving, and you need rehabilitation and care, not feelings of inadequacy or shame for still daring to be alive.

It’s alright for you to exist just to rest only. In rare moments you do manage to get up, it’s okay to just do soothing non-productive stuff. There is no limit to how much care you need right now and you are obliged to give that to yourself. If the chronic exhaustion is caused by trauma, it will get better, not fast, not all at once, but slowly, during months and years, your body will let enough trauma out to allow you to use some of your energy for yourself. It’s vital you rest and let the trauma do its thing, and then eventually you will get your body back.

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Ok, here’s the thing. YA fiction features child and teenage protagonists because it is intended to be consumed by children, teens and young adults. If you’re going to browse the YA shelf looking for a rebellion against an evil empire, or superheroes in training, you just have to accept that the protagonists are going to be of a similar age to their intended audience. The genre they are in is literally called the Young Adult genre. It’s that simple. And the genre is not designed to support an adult’s recognition of the danger these young protagonists are facing when they go on their respective adventures.

If you find yourself going from ‘yeah! Fifteen is totally old enough to take on the evil empire!’ to ‘Oh my god who let these kids out on a school night they should have a curfew why aren’t adults handling this battle’, then you might want to look into adult fiction. If you feel like holding up a YA work and declaring that the mentors or guiding forces in the story are evil because they are training children for dangerous situations, then congratulations! You actually are ready to graduate to adult fiction! Where there might also be child soldiers, but that will be treated as a seriously bad thing. 

Don’t get me wrong, sticking with YA fiction as an adult is fine! The genre is easy, fun, features delightful adventures, and can offer a very relaxing and comforting escape. But when you find yourself recognizing that ‘kids’ handling large adventures means the adults around them have failed, take that as a sign that you’ve matured. The YA protagonists won’t, they’re going to stay young. And they’ll continue to have adventures at young ages, because kids younger than you are coming up behind you now and want to have their fun reading stories meant for them. If you find yourself reading YA and getting angry over how young the protagonists are, you might save yourself some stress by browsing the adult fiction shelves.

#important

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Someone: hey, if you’re a writer, why don’t I ever see you writing?

Me, a writer who’s been daydreaming about three characters, two unwritten chapters, some scraps of dialogue, and a partial plot that still needs to be heated up in the microwave before it’s usable:

#writing tag

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If you keep punishing yourself for missing a writing session, you’re teaching your brain that creating = negative, bad feelings.

Next time you miss a writing session, try to frame it in a positive way instead. Did you take any notes? Did you do any daydreaming? Did you think about your story at all? Did you rest and recharge your brain?

#gotta channel this vibe u__u #nts

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you know how "there's no rules to writing"? that also applies to how you get the writing process underway! I have the microsoft word app on my phone, but I heavily use tumblr (via a private side blog) and a notes app called CUMO (cute memo). why? because my brain associates writing on the word app as Serious Writing Time which psyches me out of actually writing!!! whereas CUMO generates random cute stationary for each new note which appeals to my adhd brain by avoiding the monotonous backgrounds of most word processing apps + I can easily post random sentence snippets and drabbles to my private tumblog that I can organize and come back to later with a tag system

tl;dr you don't have to write in microsoft word or google docs or even the default notes app on your phone, but if spreading your writing across all three and then some works then why not!

Hello, I hope you are doing well! Thank you for the time and energy you put into this blog!

My “ask” is personal and specific, so I don’t know if you will have much in the way of feedback, but if you don’t maybe folks who follow will 🤞🏾

Early last year (squints at calendar) I discovered I have Inattentive ADHD. Retrospectively this makes a lot of sense, but I’m also an in my mid 30s so it’s kind of a lot to process a whole new understanding of yourself.

As this relates to fic it makes sense. As a teen I would hyperfocus in writing mode all evening after school. As an adult with responsibilities exchanges have worked well for me as far as deadlines producing results… but they aren’t as good for the ol’ Plot Bunny farm. I got ideas that could be enrolled in high school, okay? I want to get them out!

I understand that common writing advice is to have a routine and write regularly etc. But scheduling, planning, organizing… these are skills I have such a nonexistent grasp on right now? I’m starting to learn skills for ADHD management, but meds aren’t an option yet. So I’m trying to be patient and compassionate with myself… but I would also really like to be writing? 😅

I’m not sure what I’m looking for now that I’ve typed this out. Advice? Affirmations? Commiseration? It certainly doesn’t help to be in a lonely ship/fandom. I guess I’m hoping I’m not alone in this experience too?

You're definitely not alone! I could have written this ask myself. I fully understand what you're going through and I suffer with the same issues.

Scheduling, planning, and organizing are things that I'm able to do in a work context because I've built up a lot structure in that space. In my free time, though? No way. I've used all of that part of my mental energy at work and I don't have any left to pour into my hobbies.

What I do have is chaotic creativity.

For me, rules around writing every day or finishing one story before I start the next just don't work. If I have an idea for a thing, I need to write that thing immediately. Betas? I can't use them. I'm too impatient to be done, so I forgive myself the typos and correct them when I notice them later.

Another thing that helps is remembering that not every story needs to be a multichap. You've got a small idea, but that plot bunny just won't go away? Write a oneshot. Put the context in the summary. Drop the handful of scenes you have in your head. Move onto the next story before you forget what you're even thinking about.

I'm such a chaos gremlin that I actually write all of my fics and chapters directly into the work posting form on AO3. I do this despite knowing that if a glitch happens or the site goes down while I'm writing or I accidentally navigate away from it that all of my writing is lost. I would much rather lose 3K but have it out of my head than wait the extra time it takes to write it out in google docs first and then copy/paste it over.

Let yourself be messy. Let yourself be disorganized or distracted or chaotic. Write five different WIPs at the same time and update whichever one is making your brain sing in that particular moment. Fic is your free time activity, so let yourself be free with it, and whatever ends up working as a way to get the words out just do that.

Don't force yourself to follow rules that aren't working for you. ❤

#i developed a better relationship with my writing process by comparing it to how artists work #and in this case #artists have tons of sketchbooks #this is the same concept!!! #also i really like the tumblog method because i can retry writing a scene multiple times without deleting anything #i can't do it in word because i haaaate deleting chunks that aren't working out #but i also don't like to keep it on the same word doc #but i also hate having to copypaste into my scraps doc #BUT i like that on my side blog each snippet is its own post that can easily be referred back to #the only thing it's missing is a word count but tbh that's probably what appeals to me about it too

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HELL WORLD OH MY GOD

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Welcome home Jyn

I finally finished my Rebelcaptain drawing. It was an endeavour but I am happy with the final project

#rebelcaptain #cassian andor #jyn erso #love both of their soft smiles here!!!

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ATTENTION WRITERS

Google BetaBooks. Do it now. It’s the best damn thing EVER.

You just upload your manuscript, write out some questions for your beta readers to answer in each chapter, and invite readers to check out your book!

It’s SO easy!

You can even track your readers! It tells you when they last read, and what chapter they read!

Your beta readers can even highlight and react to the text!!!

There’s also this thing where you can search the website for available readers best suited for YOUR book!

Seriously guys, BetaBooks is the most useful website in the whole world when it comes to beta reading, and… IT’S FREE.

#resources #writing tag

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the best part of the hunger games is when prim gets called and katniss is screaming about it NOT MY SISTER and then peeta gets called and he has like 50 brothers and they’re all just like sucks dude…

#thg #the fact that they all die is still really sad #but man peeta's family sucked!!!

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This is for the slow writers out there. Those who take weeks to write one chapter. Those who take years to finish one manuscript. Those who regularly write only 100-300 words in several hours. Those who take months to put out a new chapter. Those who haven’t touched their stories in years but it’s still a WIP because they can’t stop thinking about/taking notes for scenes/etc.

I see you. You’re valid. Keep up the good work!

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— ju’niyah palmer on her sister breonna

it’s now been over a year since breonna taylor was callously murdered by the LMPD while sleeping in her own home. although we’ve all come to know breonna as a symbol, her family knew her as a sister and a daughter whose light and love can never be replaced. if the system refuses to charge the cops who killed her and then falsely arrested her boyfriend, let them never know a day of peace again.

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zZ

#cassian andor #k2so #them!!!!!!!!!

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There need to be less "ten years later married with kids" endings, I honestly have never seen a single one that I liked. We don't need a flash forward to them being boring stereotypes, just end it with the promise of good things to come and leave the rest of their lives up to our imaginations.

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does anybody else remember when the h*nger g*mes movies were big and there was that really dark, haunting song in them about a man getting lynched and people watching it because that kind of violence was so normalized in their world (that “are you are you coming to the tree, they strung up a man, they say he murdered three” song), and then in real life they made like a club version of that song to play on the radio

#hunger games #yeaup that was real fuckin weird

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‘THE X-FILES’ clyde bruckman’s final repose (3x04).

#i don't x files but #i know this show is old because the implementation of self snubbing cigarettes came way after this time #nowadays that cigarette would've gone out before the whole thing burned to ash #anyway!!! #tv shows