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Last year I had the highest grade in organic 1 by 0.1.

I like the teacher I like the lesson. I wanted to do good in organic 2 as well. I studied not as much as I could but a lot. I got 8,5. A girl got 10. I was so so sad and so disappointed in me. Like the girl she studied her ass off I know that. And I just couldn’t be happy for her. I was over reacting and I actually cried and I get so fucking dissapointed. I was so sad that I had dissapointed my teacher. She said she was expecting better. And all I could think about was you are not good enough you will never, you will just keep failing and you won’t make true any of your dreams.

But I did good. I did what I could at that moment and a test doesn’t define me. A grade doesn’t define me and just because I didn’t meet expectations doesn’t mean that my teacher hates me.

#mental health #burnt out gifted kid #academic validation #tw depressing thoughts #burnout #school #academicism #high school #dark academia #teacher #organic #chemistry university #chemistry #chemistry major #organic chemistry #bad grades #grades #i am not okay #i am not enough

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Absolutely amazing

Thinking about the idea of the justice league reading gossip articles about Bruce after they find out he’s Batman and I’m losing it.

“Bruce Wayne makes a splash Friday night, drunkenly takes swim in fountain”

“Bruce Wayne third rendezvous this week??”

“Another messy night escapade for Bruce Wayne”

“Tipsy Bruce Wayne takes spill into cake, wears it well”

This is the guy that redefined fear?

It gets even better thinking about after Bruce starts adopting, cause now that entire family is in the headlines. Somehow the league has to align the mental image of the Wayne’s with the Batfamily.

“Dick Grayson, eldest Wayne boy, sails through air on chandelier at charity benefit” this guy filled in as Batman on numerous occasions

“Jason Todd caught leaving ‘kick me’ sticky notes on a drunken Bruce Wayne’s back at Saturday’s Wayne gala” like, that’s the red hood??

“Bruce Wayne’s boy Tim Drake asleep in salad next to partying billionaire” the dude who hacked the watch tower last Tuesday?

“Youngest Wayne, Damian, and sister Cass seen mimicking stumbling father as loyal butler intervenes” …The league are still terrified of these two

Like, how are they supposed to wrap their heads around the fact that these guys are somehow the scourges of the underworld who haunt Gotham.

#batman #dick grayson #jason todd #red robin #damian wayne #batfam #bruce wayne #justice league

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The Villian Wrangler

Edit: Borrowed from original post on Redit, not original content.

I wonder if, in superhero universes, the villains ever get contacted by those “Make a Wish Foundation” and similar people.

I mean, the heroes do, of course they do, kids who want to meet Spiderman or Superman or get to be carried by the Flash as he runs through Central City for just thirty seconds.

But surely there are also the kids, who because they are kids and sometimes kids are just weird - decide that what they really, really want is to meet a supervillain. Because he’s scary or she’s awesome or that freeze ray is just really, really cool, you know?

Oh, man, that would absolutely be a thing. The heroes would be so weirded out by it. The villains with codes of ethics would totally band together to force the villains without one (should they be the one requested) to do their part for the cause.

But imagine the person who has to track down the villains and organize everything? Like, the first time it happens, no one actually thinks it’s possible, but one of the newbies volunteers to at least try. They get lucky, the kid wants to meet one of the villains who is well known to have a personal code of ethics (eg one of the rogues), and it takes them weeks to track the villain down to this one bar they’ve been seen at a few times, plus a week of staking out said bar, but they finally find them.

So they approach the villain, very politely introduce themselves and explain the situation, finishing with an assurance that, should the villain agree, no law enforcement or heroes will be informed of the meeting. The villain, assuming it’s a joke, laughs in their face.

At this point, the poor volunteer, who has giving up weeks of their time and no small amount of effort to track down this villain, all so a sweet little girl can meet the person who somehow inspired them, well, at this point the employee sees red.

They explode, yelling at this villain about the little girl who, for some unknown reason, absolutely loved them, had a hand-made stuffed toy of them and was inspired by their struggle to keeping fighting her own and wasn’t the villain supposed to have ethics? The entire bar is witness to this big bad villain getting scolded by some bookish nobody a foot shorter than them.

When the volunteer is done. the villain calmly knocks back their drink, grips the volunteer’s shoulder and drags them outside. The bar’s patrons assume that person will never be seen again. The volunteer included. But once they’re outside, the villain apologizes for their assumption, asks for the kid’s details so they can drop by in the near future, not saying when for obvious reasons. They also give the very relieved volunteer a phone number to call if someone asks for them again.

A week later, the little girl’s room is covered in villain merchandise, several expensive and clearly stolen gifts and she is happily clutching a stack of signed polaroids of her and the villain.

The next time a kid asks to meet a villain, guess who gets that assignment?

Tums out, the first villain was quite touched by the experience of meeting their little fan. and word has gotten around. The second villain happily agrees when they realize it’s the same volunteer who asked the other guy. Unfortunately, one of the heroes sees the villain entering the kid’s hospital and obviously assumes the worst. They rush in, ready to drag the villain out, but the volunteer stands in their way. The hero spends live minutes getting scolded for trying to stop the villain from actually doing a good thing and almost mining the kid’s wish. The volunteer gets a reputation among villains as someone who can not only be trusted with personal contact numbers but who will do everything they can to keep law enforcement away during their visits.

The volunteer has a phonebook written in cypher of all the villain’s phone numbers. with asterisks next to the ones to call if any other villains give them trouble.

Around the office, they gain the unofficial job title of The Villain Wrangler. The heroes are genuinely flabbergasted by The Villain Wrangler. At first, some of the heroes try to reason with them.

Heroes: “Can’t you, just, give us their contact details? They’ll never even have to know it was you.”

The Villain Wrangler: “Yeah sure, <rollseyes> because all these evil geniuses could never possibly figure out that it’s me who happens to be the common thread in the sudden mass arrests. Look, man, even if it wouldn’t get me killed, it would disappoint the kids. You wouldn’t want to disappoint the kids would you?”

Heroes: “… no, but…”

The Villain Wrangler: “Exactly.”

Eventually, one of the anti-hero types gets frustrated and decides to take a stand. They kidnap the Villain Wrangler and demand that they give up the contents of the little black book of Villains, or suffer the consequences. lt’s For the Greater Good, the anti-hero insists as they tie the Villain Wrangler to a pillar.

The Villain Wrangler: “You complete idiot, put me back before someone figures out that I’m missing.”

Anti-hero: “…excuse me?”

The Villain Wrangler: “Ugh, do I have to spell this out for you? Do you actually want your secret base to be wiped off the map? With us in it? Sugarsticks, how long has it been? If they get suspicious, they check in, and then if I miss a check-in, they tend to come barging into wherever I am just to prove that they can, even if they figure out that they’re not being threatened by proxy. Suffice to say, Auntie Muriel really regretted throwing my phone into the pool when she strenuously objected to me answering it during family time. If they think for even one moment that I’ve given them up, they won’t hesitate to obliterate both of us from their potential misery. You do know some of the people in my book have like missiles and djinni and elemental forces at their disposal, right?”

Anti-hero: “Wait, what? I thought they trusted you?

The Villain Wrangler: “Trust is such a strong word!”

Villain: “Indeed.”

Anti-hero: “Wait, wha-” <slumps over, dart sticking out of neck>

The Villain Wrangler: “Thanks. I thought they were going to hurt me.“

Villain: “You did well. You kept them distracted, and gave us time to follow your signal.” <cuts Villain Wrangler free>

The Villain Wrangler: <rubbing circulation back into limbs> “Yeah well, you know me, I do whatever I have to. So I’ll see you Wednesday at four at St Martha’s? I’ve got an 8 yo burns unit patient recovering from her latest batch of skin grafts who could really use a pep talk.”

Villain: of course. Yes… I… yes.”

The Villain Wrangler: “I just think you could really reach her, you know?”

Villain: <unconsciously runs fingers over mask> “I… yes, but, what should I say?”

The Villain Wrangler: “Whatever advice you think you could have used the most just after.“

Villain: <hoists Anti-hero over shoulder almost absently> “…yes.”“

The Villain Wrangler wasn’t lying to the Anti-hero. They know that the more ruthless villains would not hesitate if they thought for one second that the Villain Wrangler would betray them. But this is not the first time the Villain Wrangler has gone to extreme lengths to protect their identities. Trust is a strong word. The Villain Wrangler earned it, and is terrified by what it could mean.

Okay but this whole concept actually makes a lot of sense, because villains are a lot more likely to be disfigured/disabled/ use adaptive devices (the ableist tropes), so of course, say, a child amputee is going to be more interested in the villain with a robot arm who almost destroyed New York than the heroes that took him down.

Also, imagine one of the kids gets better, and a few years down the line becomes a villain themselves, except their crimes are things like smuggling chemo drugs across the border for families that can’t afford treatment. or stealing from corrupt businessmen to make donations to underfunded hospitals (idk this turned into a Leverage AU or something) and every time the heroes encounter her, they’re like “oh no. she’s getting away. curses. Welp, nothing we can do.” Though it isn’t that she can ’t take them on; be of course once the villain from way back when found out what she was up to. he started helping/ training her.

“I thought they just hired someone to dress up and pretend to be you,” she says, amazed. when he reveals himself. “I didn’t think they actually got the real you!“

Every year the Villain Wrangler gets a very expensive gift basket from the pair. And for the kids who don’t get better, the villains are there too. They show up to every funeral, they bear too small coffins on their shoulders and the heroes stand aside they are fierce with grieving families assuring them that their child will not be forgotten, and they don’t balk at negative emotions, they don’t tell people to be strong or “celebrate their child’s life,” because these parents have every right to their grief and anger and the lost children are never forgotten. Flowers appear on graves during birthdays and anniversaries, heroes find pictures of those kids and they carefully take them down and ensure they’re delivered to the villain’s cell. A few villains can be seen with friendship bracelets wrapped around their wrists the cops have learned not to try and take them off.

And then one day, one of the evil geniuses who happens to specialize in inducing bizarre genetic mutations meets a young fan who was born with a rare genetic disorder that is slowly killing them, and realizes that they can help.

Another, who created their own exosuit, talks to a young fan and suddenly understands how much the technology that they have built for themselves could revolutionize the quality of life for people with muscular dystrophy, or paraplegia, or other disorders that confine people to wheelchairs with little mobility.

A third thinks of a way that their nanobots could be used to detect and remove cancer cells when their fan, who had been in remission. writes to say that the doctors have found a new metastasizing tumor. Then shortly after. an evil genius specializing in cloning is contacted by an old colleague asking if a suitable heart couldn’t be grown for their young fan with a congenital heart condition who needs a donor.

Suddenly, a pattern of villains offering (and marketing) their insights and resources to improve medical science starts to arise. Many who had previously been operating on society’s fringes are shocked to receive public accolades, research grants and job offers from major companies because of their work.

A grassroots movement arises advocating for imprisoned villains with appropriate qualifications and/or experience to have access to resources to conduct research for the public good. The Second Chance Rehabilitation Project launches.

It is an open secret that only people who have been vetted by the Villain Wrangler are allowed to join because the Villain Wrangler has by now a meticulously set up method and intelligence network to run background checks and character references through ensuring that none of the children wishing to meet their role models get hurt.

Being able to say that one is involved with the Project begins to look really good in parole hearings. The Villains involved perform their own quality checks on one another, because if one of their kids got hurt, then all of their kids could potentially lose out, and the ones that are serious about the Project are not having that. Also, the ability to collaborate with other geniuses is the most interesting thing to happen to most of them since losing to various heroes, and most consider the intellectual stimulation to be worth putting up with the ridiculous egos and inevitable personality clashes that arise.

Reformed Villains come out of the woodwork to advocate about better mental health care, and support systems. Savy universities and private labs quietly take their advice, setting up better mental health supports and laboratory safety standards to prevent the Brain Drain caused by losing their less stable scientists to the Costumes.

The Villain Wrangler watches all of this develop with a smile. Their plan succeeded beyond their wildest dreams.

Okay, this part caught my attention: …the Villain Wrangler has by now a meticulously set up method and intelligence network… to ensure that none of the children… gets hurt.” Which led me to the heartbreaking realization that one DID. Get hurt, that is, by the villain they idolized.

And all I can think is that the Villain Wrangler didn’t call in the heroes. They didn’t call in another heart-of-gold villain. No. The Villain Wrangler rolled up their sleeves and went after this person themselves. This project is their baby, after all. If they get the accolades for the successes, they must also shoulder the burden of the failures.

The Villain Wrangler hunts down the villain that crossed the line. Their punishment is swift and horrifying; no hero would have the stomach to mete out justice in such a way, and no villain would have the desire to get quite that much blood on their own hands.

And there’s so much blood.

The Villain Wrangler never forgets. They increase security, increase the hours and background checks, they increase the graveside visits to the child they failed.

Just the one.

But one is one too many.

@we-are-nemeses @we-are-rogue @wearepaladin @weareadventurers @we-are-lawyer 

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Professor!Andrew AU

So I saw this post about Andrew being a criminology professor a long time ago, and I have not been able to get it out of my head ever since. This is the result. It may be a little unrealistic but only very slightly. There will be more parts. Presenting to you – a messy fic.

Part 1, Part 2, Part 3, Part 4

After winning a gold medal in the Olympics with Kevin and Neil, Andrew decides he's done. He's achieved whatever he wanted to (not that he wants anything) and exy isn't going to give him anything more

Neil plays for a few more years. ("Junkie.")

He gets a PhD in criminal justice just so he can call himself Doctor Minyard and annoy Aaron

But he gets a good job to teach college students Criminal Justice at a nearby University, and he accepts because he wants to teach kids because he's bored

On his first day, he walks into the classroom and asks everybody to stand up and introduce themselves. After giving them his name he starts off

"Unless any of you want to be standing outside the classroom you will not talk about exy, you will not lie to me, and you will not utter the words "I'm fine"". (I like to think he's moved from murdering people when they say please or misunderstanding, especially after he and Neil spend time with the foxes' kids)

Nobody knows that he's the Andrew Minyard – exy legend, has one of the best goalie stats in the world

His voice is impassive and his face is bored but when he explains something most students listen with rapt attention

His aim is scary good and whoever doesn't listen gets a well aimed chalk thrown to their head

They quickly figure out that his memory is near perfect

"I'm sorry I didn't attend class last week mister Minyard, my cat died"

"How many cats do you have Marcus?"

"One, sir"

"That's interesting, because I remember you saying the same thing for missing class on 4th September as well"

*shocked silence*

"Uh...sir—"

"I also remember something about not lying to me unless you want to stand out of the class. You not attending class is your problem, but do not lie to me again. If you do, I will know"

And true to his word, he spots every lie a student makes

"I read that extract yesterday professor"

"Sure you did"

"I left my assignment at home"

"Is that the new code for 'i didn't do it'?"

"I don't know what happened to the chocolate on your desk professor, really!"

"And I'm the tallest man on earth"

Anyway they realise that he cares less about incomplete assignments and missed classes than he does about being lied to so they stop (it's not like they could get away with it anyway)

He constantly calls them idiots and says he hates them but contradicts himself by doing something caring

It's one of his students birthday, and he lets her choose the case they will be working on, and distributes cupcakes for the whole class

Students are shocked that he remembers her birthday (does he EVER forget ANYTHING!?!?), and that he did something about it

"That was very sweet professor, I didn't know you cared"

"I don't, you're all idiots and I hate all of you"

They just smile knowingly. Andrew is annoyed. He throws peices of chalk at their heads

Andrew bringing cupcakes for each students birthday becomes sort of a tradition

Sir gets sick, so he and Neil have to take him to the vet in the morning before school

Then they're running late, and don't have time to go home and then to their job. Neil can't take Sir to practice so Andrew agrees to take him instead

He's sitting on his desk correcting papers and Sir curling and purring around his feet when his students walk in. As they filter in the cat is rubbing her head against Andrew, jumping on the desk, walking on his papers, jumping down to his lap and walking in circles before curling up there and closing her eyes

His students are surprised by the gentleness and patience with which he handles his cat.

"Professor is that your cat"

"No". He's rubbing her head now and they see through him, they know it's his cat

"What's its name?"

"..." *sighs* " Sir Fat Cat McCatterson"

*shocked silence* None of them are able to contain thier smiles. The only reason they haven't burst out laughing is that he's glaring at them

"Professor, did you just say your cat's name is Sir Fat Cat McCatterson?"

He mutters "Not my cat...I call her Sir" They smile. Andrew is annoyed. He throws pieces of chalk at their heads

He lets Sir walk around in the class and cuddle up to his students. He leaves them 15 minutes early, and some of them stay back to play with Sir

They know that despite being bored and grumpy he really cares

One day he enters class, and raises his hand to silence the students, the ring on his left hand clearly visible

Dead silence

"... Professor Minyard, is that a ring on your finger?"

"Really putting those observational skills to work, aren't you"

Another student exclaims "You're MARRIED!?"

"Excellent deduction, I can see you flourishing in a future of crime and justice" his voice is amused, but his face is blank as always

He continues teaching as if nothing happened

(So this is completely self indulgent. This was just an idea I had and I wanted to share it. I hope you enjoyed!)

#aftg #all for the game #andrew minyard #andrew minyard is a teacher #proffesor!andrew #neil is a junkie #nora sakavic #aftg fanfiction #aftg headcanon #aftg au

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Uni is fucking hard.

Trying to make and keep friends is fucking impossible.

#mental health #burnt out gifted kid #academic validation #tw depressing thoughts #burnout #school #academicism #high school #dark academia #chemistry university #university major #university #uni student #frienship #friends #friendship

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One year later.

I am on my second year in university studying chemistry.

Never let anything hold you back.

My chemistry progress this year :

October Exams : 58/100

May Exams : 68/100

#dark academia #chemistry university #university #uni student #university major #chemistry #chemistry major #high school #grad school #school #chemistry exams #exam stress #exams #exam study #exam season #final exams #competitive exams #bad grades #grades

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*through gritted teeth* you are not a child taking a test with the purpose of getting the highest score, you are an adult trying new things and finding ways to enjoy your life, make mistakes, be a beginner, be mediocre, be where you need to be, be unlikeable, just. be.

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I read.

I’ve read so many books about friendship and found family and people having people caring for them no matter what.

That’s all I ever wanted. My own found family. Someone to call best friend. My best friend and I would be theirs. Someone who wants me in their life and they try and I try and maybe we fight but at the end we are a we and best friends are there for life.

Maybe I’m not good enough for that.

It’s okay.

Feeling alone it’s okay.

In the end you are going to read a books and get lost in other lives where what you so desperately want exists.

#mental health #burnt out gifted kid #tw depressing thoughts #toxic parents #friends #friendship #reading #books #found family

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Just talking to me friends and them being like « stop nagging! »

I just want to talk without feeling like I annoy everyone.

#mental health #burnt out gifted kid #academic validation #tw depressing thoughts #burnout #school #academicism #toxic parents #friends #friendship #toxicity #sad boi hours #feelings #my feelings are hurt

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I don’t want to be a doctor.

But I do want to study so I can be a doctor just so I can show to people I was not useless and I made it! Even if it was not on the first try I did it! I got a degree in medicine.

Now can I be enough?

#mental health #burnt out gifted kid #academic validation #tw depressing thoughts #burnout #friends #friendship #school #academicism #strict parents #toxic parents #high standards #never being enough #i want to be enough #why is is so difficult ?

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Went with my friend to the bathroom and she left me.

The betrayal.

#mental health #friendship #friends #betrayal #betrayed #i feel betrayed #frienship #bathroom

[mikrhsnobara]

What is feels like to have friends?

#mental health #burnt out gifted kid #academic validation #tw depressing thoughts #burnout #alone with my thoughts #feeling alone #friendship #toxic friends #friends

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I just a family that loves me..is it too much to ask for?

#mental health #burnt out gifted kid #tw depressing thoughts #burnout #gifted burn out #family #found family #toxic #toxic parents #my feelings are hurt #feel alone #never feeling enough #someone to talk to #i want someone to be proud of me #someone love me

[mikrhsnobara]

Ever feel like it's too much? Just walking up its too much that you can't handle anything else?

#mental health #academic validation #burnt out gifted kid #tw depressing thoughts #burnout #academicism #school #dark academia #high school #gifted burn out

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Feeling stupid because you didn't understand something you didn't study...

#mental health #academic validation #burnt out gifted kid #tw depressing thoughts #burnout #school #academicism #high school #dark academia #gifted burn out #because if it isn't perfect is it worthy

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When you go to uni and at the same time start working, but your parents can't know, so you're stressed because you have to study and stressed because you have to work and stressed because you have finals and stressed because you have to keep all this stress a secret.

Go me!

#mental health #academic validation #burnt out gifted kid #tw depressing thoughts #burnout #school #academicism #high school #dark academia #gifted burn out #parents issues #parenting #stress #finals #study hard #workfromhome #working #while #studying

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Kili and fili joining the fellowship it's a hilarious idea for multiple reasons that have nothing to do with merry and pippin specifically (they would be chaos together but let's focus on all the other possibilities)

-Fili and Boromir bonding over the shared eldest sibling experience

-the inherently awkwardness of Legolas and Kili being together in a quest

-the awkwardness being made considerably worse by Aragorn talking about arwen making Kili go on a rant about his perfect good elven lady wife Tauriel

-they join Aragorn and Boromir in the " I am aware of the fact that the hobbits are adults but this will not stop me from calling them my children" club

-Them being overprotective with frodo

-gimli being not very happy by having his elders with him in this quest because he secretly just wanted a time to be badass and now have to endure them still acting like he is a dwarfling

-kili wants to make a joke when gimli only asks Galadriel for a strand of hair but he doesn't when he realizes how happy he is with his gift of the lady

-I don't think they would have problems with the horses in Rohan and one of them would offer to carry gimli

-gimli ignoring the offer and getting on Arod with Legolas

-they slowly realizing that "oh shit is gimli in love with the elf? "

-followed by also realizing it's probably reciprocate

-followed by either they playing matchmaker or attempt princeslaying

#Kili fili and gimli #legolas #the fellowship #gimleaf #kili #fili #gimli #gigolas #lord of the rings #LOTR