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HOME ALONE (1990) dir. Chris Columbus HOME ALONE 2: LOST IN NEW YORK (1992) dir. Chris Columbus

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You know what sucks? Having a bunch of female friends that you're attracted to. Why tf did I do that to myself lolol

Like, for the most part, I'm fine, but there's one... LAWD have mercy. If she gave me even 5 minutes, I swear I'd lay down pipe like a professional plumber. I'd knock them ankles loose. I'd massage her from the inside. Funniest thing is, she's never gonna know because I'm never gonna try her like that. I know better and that she ain't into me like that so I can respect that and never cross that line.

However, my brain? Hella disrespectful and for that, I apologize. Degen Kimbo working overtime this week in my head so apologies for any future horny posts lmaoooo

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"I don't know what's better, getting laid or getting paid, I just know when I'm getting one, the other's getting away." - a quote I used to live by.

It was actually super true for me for a hot minute. But then came a point in my life where I was consistently broke and maidenless, and I had enough lol. Like I was fine being broke if that meant I'd have some... companionship but my love life trash lol

So imma just use these paychecks to keep me warm at night. Hopefully, I can eventually get that companionship but even then, who's to say it wouldn't be because of the money I have in that moment? So much to think about lol

But we stay positive, over here. I know where my next meal is coming from, I have a consistent paycheck, and I don't have to worry about securing a place to live at the end of the month. Life is good...

I want some cheeks dammit.

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This is top flight security. We ain’t no rent-a-cops

FRIDAY AFTER NEXT 2002 | dir. Marcus Raboy

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WHY IS THIS SO FUNNY

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My surface pro came in today and shit is CLUTCH. Other than to charge, it's gonna be hard to keep me away from my art now!

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Twitter is on fire

IG is trying way too hard to be TikTok and is actually suppressing images.

TikTok don't give a FUCK about creators of color

Facebook's algorithm has always been trash for artists

And now DeviantArt is putting up everybody's art to be used in AI art.

Where tf can visual artists even go to grow anymore? Social media fucking sucks now. It's just all media, no social.

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I might actually start using this again, it's been a minute and a LOT has changed lmaooo I'm reading some of my old posts and cringing but seeing my own responses years later cracks me up. Like I was deadass calling out College Me for being hella cringe and a hopeless romantic lol

We bag chasers now. I have my eye on ONE woman. But she's all the way in GA. So part of the money I'm saving up is to definitely do something for her. Because like I REALLY like her. Not the idea of her. Not who I think she could be. But who she is.

Now lemme stop gushing before I relapse into my old ways, point is, I'm fed, I'm paid, I'm high and I'm loving life again. Now I just want her to be by my side as I tackle the rest of this life bullshit (if she'll have me of course lol) but we'll get there... baby steps lol

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Thankfully not in the hole anymore but I am still taking commissions. Email me, [email protected] for more information or just visit artofkimbo.com/commissions

Hail Mary

I’m about $900 in the hole and my last commission just backed out on me last second. And I’m trying not to get evicted. So idk if anyone even would be interested in art from me, but I’m taking commissions. (I really dislike just asking for money) if anything peaks your interest, PLEASE EMAIL ME [email protected]

If you just want to help out, please consider donating, ANYTHING helps.

Cashapp - $KimboHenry

Venmo - @Kimbo-Henry 

Paypal - Paypal.me/KimboHenry

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So hard babysitting this baby chick 

(Source)

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Therapy. That's what it was, it was therapy that was missing.

Something's wrong...

…but I’m not sure what. I feel as though something’s missing in my life. Like a hole in my heart or something dumb like that. What doesn’t help is people kind of pushing me towards getting a girlfriend. Like as if I haven’t been trying to do that since I was 6. It doesn’t help that I’ve been seeing a certain girl around everywhere this weekend. You know, the one I fell in love with a while back. The one that cut me off a while back for no reason. So naturally, my immediate thought is that SHE is what’s missing. But that’s too easy. It’s definitely someONE who’s missing though. I guess I just want to fill that void. It’s just one of those days. 

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Damn.....I owe this girl an apology.

The Girl who was Puerto Rican

Era: Summer of Sophomore Year (College), 2012

Boy gets dragged to some graduation party by Best Friend

It was for Old Friend from church.

Boy went inside to get a drink and saw a bunch of random females sitting at the table inside. 

Females he had not seen before.

But one in particular caught his attention. 

This was Girl.

Later on a bunch of old church friends, Best Friend, & Boy went inside.

However, they noticed a segregation. 

The Old Friend’s church friends on one side and the Old Friend’s friends from school on the other.

Best Friend had a plan though. 

So he found a way to persuade Old Friend to merge the groups together.

At first, Boy & Best Friend only got the females’ names.

Later on, everyone finally got outside, but the two groups were still a bit segregated.

Luckily Boy is quite hilarious.

Boy got everyone cracking up.

Especially Girl.

Now at one point, Girl & Her Friend were standing by themselves. 

Boy & Best Friend looked at each other deviously.

Best Friend: “So I'mma need you to take a bullet on this one.”

Boy: “Bullet? That’s the one I wanted. You can have Her Friend, she’s too scrawny for me anyways, I’d snap her in half lol”

So Boy & Best Friend proceed to get Girl & Her Friend to dance.

Boy & Girl are having a good time.

Everything’s going great. 

Boy & Girl barely danced with anyone else.

Until Girl’s Best Friend came into the picture.

She was cool.

However Best Friend wanted Her Friend, not Girl’s Best Friend.

Best Friend was a little upset because he stopped seeing Her Friend around.

But Best Friend, Girl, Girl’s Best Friend, & Boy still kinda bonded that night before it was over.

(Fast Forward to later that night)

Best Friend got a message from Girl on facebook saying “:))) Tell [Boy] to friend request me!”

Boy was right there when he got the message.

Boy was GASSED.

Gassed /adj./ - To think too much about yourself; when someone thinks there better than they actually are.

Boy was happy. 

But Boy noticed something.

Girl was in a relationship.

Boy was confused.

Almost everyone Boy talked to could tell that Girl was into Boy.

Boy decided to continue talking to Girl.

But Boy made it clear that he wanted Girl as more than a friend.

Thus Boy avoided Friend-Zone.

What Boy didn’t know was that Girl & Boyfriend were on the rocks already.

(Fast Forward 3 days)

Girl & Boyfriend break up.

Word.

So Boy liked Girl & Girl liked Boy.

And both were now single.

So what was the problem?

Well…considering that Girl JUST got out of a 9 month relationship, she kinda wanted to be single for a while and have her “fun”.

Boy understood.

She IS just getting out of high school and still wants to experience what college has to offer.

So Boy was willing to wait.

He thought maybe, she’ll realize how many douches are out there and come back to Boy…you know, the RIGHT choice.

But instead of going away to have her fun, she kinda….stayed.

Boy & Girl were acting like they were in a relationship.

Little cute texts, Late night phone calls.

Sometimes, Girl would show Boy an outfit that she was gonna wear.

Boy would compliment her, until he found out it was for a party.

Boy would get a bit worried and Girl would always find it cute how Boy wanted her all to himself.

On this same note of jealousy:

Remember how Boy & Girl’s Best Friend also bonded during the party?

Granted, it wasn’t as much as with Girl, but still there was some friendship there.

Now Boy WAS NOT falling for Girl’s Best Friend. 

Which shouldn’t matter because Girl told Boy that she didn’t care if Boy was “talking” to other girls.

She didn’t want to “hold him back”

So Boy said he didn’t care if Girl was “talking” to other boys.

Boy lied.

It didn’t really matter because Girl didn’t talk to other boys and Boy didn’t talk to other girls.

However, Girl got jealous when Boy stayed up on the phone all night with Girl’s Best Friend.

It was a pretty intense conversation. And Boy kept bringing up Girl’s name in the conversation too. Just to further make it clear to Girl’s Best Friend that it was a platonic conversation.

But Boy doesn’t think that was too much of an issue.

However…

Girl tried to call Boy that night.

Even after she said she wouldn’t be able to talk that night.

But Boy got off the phone with Girl to continue conversation with Girl’s Best Friend.

It WAS messed up….but the conversation was pretty intense lol.

So Boy & Girl had their little jealous moments, even though they were never together.

They always kept talking about being together, but it just never happened.

Because Girl just wanted to have “her fun”.

One time, Girl compared Boy to one of those perfect guys from the romance movies.

That made Boy feel great about himself.

But Girl had a feeling that she’d be the girl who usually screws over the perfect guy like in the movies.

(Fast Forward about 2 Weeks.)

Boy was feeling some type of way.

Boy posted a status on facebook.

It read: "Now it’s getting to that point. Where the conversations are getting shorter. The little hearts and cute stuff is stopping. Now I’m lucky to get a smiley face. The connection’s slowly starting to fade….like usual. SMH. I hate when this stuff happens. Oh well…. can’t dwell on it.

¯\_(ツ)_/¯"

He hoped it would get Girl’s attention.

It did.

She wondered why exactly Boy posted the status.

Boy told her: "Well tell me I’m wrong and that’s not what’s happening between us.“

"You’re not wrong” she said.

Boy: "Yeah I was afraid of that.“

Girl: "I’m sorry”

Boy: "Nahh I am. Wasted your time.“

Girl: "Wasted my time? How?”

Boy: "Idk, I mean, what’d you get out of this?“

Girl: "Kimbo, Kimbo, Kimbo. I care about you, I just dint wasn’t anything serious, which is why I’m pulling myself back”

Girl: "Don’t*“

Boy: "Well, you pulling yourself back, makes me walk away from it altogether. because I’m gonna feel like you don’t care. I can only wait if there’s something to wait for. And you pulling away isn’t helping”

Girl: "Then fine.“

Boy: "Fine…..what?”

Girl: "Do not wait.“

Boy: "Oh. Ummm okay?”

Girl: "I can not promise you that there’s something to wait for.“

Boy: "That’s real”

Girl: "What’s that supposed to mean?“

Boy: "That’s just me wishing it wasn’t true when it was. So I had to reassure myself that it was real.”

Girl: “You’re making me feel like the worst person..”

Boy: "It’s not your fault, it’s mine. I just picked the worst time to enter your life. Right after a 9 month relationship. My bad lol"

Boy: "Maybe later in life we’ll see each other again, and who knows what could happen?“

Girl: "I hope we can have something one day, you’re a rally great guy, like i’ve told you before.”

Boy: "Yeah I know, and you…well go have your fun lmaoo"

Girl: "Why am I having so many typos…and you’re not correcting me. :///“

Girl ALWAYS had typos. Boy ALWAYS corrected her. It was just a thing they did. It was kinda cute.

Boy: "Idk, guess it just wasn’t necessary, I mean, I knew what you meant lol”

Girl: "All the other times you knew what I meant too. I guess shit’s different now"

Boy: "I just didn’t really notice them is all. It’s not a big deal lol"

Boy didn’t hear from her for the rest of the night.

Boy decided to apologize the next day because he felt like he came off as a jerk.

Girl said it was fine. 

Although Boy’s not stupid. 

Clearly it wasn’t fine.

But if Girl doesn’t want to put in any effort, neither will Boy.

After all, they were never actually going out….right?

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No. No I could not. I actually haven't spoken to her since that day on campus when we "broke up" for lack of a better term lol. It was for the best though.

So....

…I had a dream about The Girl with Spirituality last night. You know what we were doing? Talking, and sharing laughs. Like a couple of friends. And I’m supposed to pass up a good friend because some group told her? Fuck that. Yeah, I had my “feelings” for her, but I’ve grown up. I’m just trying to live. I already know I couldn’t be with her because the real me and her are just WAY too different. Not far to either of us. But anyways, that’s not the point anymore. I just want my friend back lol. Seriously. No need for some “time away because someone’s gonna catch feelings” lol sounds foolish. Can I just have my friend please?

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Not sure when I wrote this. Don't even remember running into you at a hotel but.... I think I was just being dramatic. I was so desperate to be loved and feel love, that I essentially always acted like I was starring in a romance movie. Not on purpose, but it was definitely a thing I did. I've gotten much better with that nowadays (despite still being desperate to feel romantic love) and I've learned to actually pay more attention to the woman I'm infatuated with. Not the IDEA of the woman but the actual woman. It's as the old adage says, when people show you who they are, believe them.

So long story short, I still got love for you, but I ain't IN love with you. Honestly, I'm not even entirely sure I know what that means at this point.

Dear...you know who you are.

First of all, I’m sorry. Years ago, I made a comment to you about you not being fit for the role of ever becoming a mother and yet here you are with your precious baby girl. I was wrong, I was young too, but that’s no excuse. My sincerest apologies. 

But let me explain why I truly decided to write this. I need to get something off my chest. Hopefully, no one gets offended, but if they do, I still won’t give a damn. Also, don’t feel any need to have some sort of response to this. You don’t have to say it back or anything. That doesn’t matter. What DOES matter is…you. That’s all that’s mattered to me is you, all these years. I mean, sure, I was doing other things, my life didn’t revolve around you but every time I seemed to have felt a little happier is when something reminded me of you. And ever since we ran into each other at the hotel, everything just came BACK. EVERYTHING. Although I don’t think it ever left. What I’m trying to say is…I’m still in love with you.

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Two black people starting singing and soon every black person on the train was singing.

Hwhites thought a slave revolt was underway.