Ever feel so blank? Like yeah you’re hurting but you don’t care anymore. They say things behind your back and just go “well, whatever”. When someone you love and treasure just stopped talking to you but you’re just there shrugging then turning away. And when something happy and fun comes one day you’ll be like, “this will go away after a while” and when it did that’ll be the time you’ll laugh. When you’re emotionally in pain but you can’t cry anymore.
Man I dunno what’s happening to me wth :/ am i going through another emo sht phase? Hopefully not
I overdosed when I was 14 because I had depression and wanted to die. It’s been over ten years since then, and while I still have depression and anxiety, they’re much more manageable now. While I use to think I didn’t have any future, I now see myself with a fulfilling job and a good life. In short, suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. There are so many amazing experiences I would have missed if I’d died that night, and so many people I would have hurt. Don’t give up, my dude.
Update: Omg I didn’t think this will move so fast lol. We did hug each other the next day and he made me feel loved and told me all that he felt for me and that he’s been hiding this for the past two years. He’s such a really sweet guy for a once shy boy lels. And now he asked my mom if he could court me and now we’re here lol. This is my first time and I couldn’t be happier. And yeah, things happened so fast loooool
FAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHKKK
Okay okay wooooooh *deep breaths* *chokes*
So, uhm, I’m having a problem right now. *AAAAAAAAARRRRRRGGGGGHHHH*
Well, you see, one of my best friends is currently confessing to me. Like dude… Why? Why me? Of all people *facepalms*
I don’t think I can reciprocate his feelings. He actually has a girlfriend, but this girl just chains him up and he said that he’s hurting because of that. It kind of abuses him mentally. He said I’m the light that he had seen for the first time. You see, this guy is kinda eccentric. And I admit, I am too. And we understand each other’s pains, and we’ve been through same problems in the past. So we really get each other.
I dunno but… uggggghhh
Also, we’re meeting tomorrow and he had one request. To hug me. Just a hug. Yeah, this boy’s shy and I am too. We’re both introverts. I really want to ease his pain but really, I can’t give the love he’s given to me.
So yeah, i don’t know what to do right now and I’m panicking. I mean, I don’t mind him hugging me. He’s my friend after all (though it’s really ooc of him and us in general), but, I just, I dunnooooo
So, uhm, I’m having a problem right now. *AAAAAAAAARRRRRRGGGGGHHHH*
Well, you see, one of my best friends is currently confessing to me. Like dude... Why? Why me? Of all people *facepalms*
I don’t think I can reciprocate his feelings. He actually has a girlfriend, but this girl just chains him up and he said that he’s hurting because of that. It kind of abuses him mentally. He said I’m the light that he had seen for the first time. You see, this guy is kinda eccentric. And I admit, I am too. And we understand each other’s pains, and we’ve been through same problems in the past. So we really get each other.
I dunno but... uggggghhh
Also, we’re meeting tomorrow and he had one request. To hug me. Just a hug. Yeah, this boy’s shy and I am too. We’re both introverts. I really want to ease his pain but really, I can’t give the love he’s given to me.
So yeah, i don’t know what to do right now and I’m panicking. I mean, I don’t mind him hugging me. He’s my friend after all (though it’s really ooc of him and us in general), but, I just, I dunnooooo