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misshappilyfading·5 months agoText

As you can see, I’m really not active on this blog anymore but this is the best place for me to post this! References this post from last year : )

2019: not as bad as 2018, but not that great either. I have a lot of good memories though.


  • Dyed my hair for the first time and it looked great 
  • Finally got to experience having a good roommate
  • Made lots of friends!
  • Made lots of great memories with a*ko ppl
  • Successfully worked 4 jobs while taking 5 classes
  • Drank alcohol for the first time!!
  • Had a great summer working and hanging out with my friends
  • TWICE concert!
  • Went to NYC for my birthday
  • Saw the Dear Evan Hansen musical in Boston
  • Started collecting enamel pins
  • Binged some reaaaally good anime over the summer
  • Got drunk for the first time
  • Met a seiyuu for the first time(!!)
  • Popeyes spicy chicken sandwich 
  • Took the N3 and (probably) passed

lol I only completed one goal from last year oops


  • 今年こそ、日本! I will get to Japan come hell or high water.
  • I want to pass the N2
  • I want to eat better and get back to the gym
  • I want to go all year with a great A1C and no DKAs
  • I want to start my thesis and finish my majors smoothly
  • I want to get my driver’s license 
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misshappilyfading·10 months agoChat
anyone: *says something to me*
me: haha yeahh
me in head: what did they just say
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misshappilyfading·a year agoText

Well, it’s finally my last day as a teenager. I’m not sure if this should go on my sad post blog or not, cause it’s taken a long time for me to somewhat make peace with this. With all the stuff that’s happened over the last two years, and even before then, I kind of romanticized being a teenager and dying a teenager (i.e. by 19). 19 was weird since you’re in your late teens, but not quite an adult just yet. I like being young. I’m scared of getting old. The kinds of things I agonized about were whether I’ll still be able to call myself a girl instead of a woman and whether I can still wear double puffs and obsesses over juice. 

There’s this one section in 堕落論 where Ango talks about his 21 year old niece committing suicide and how he was unwillingly moved by her decision to end things early while she was still beautiful. This whole “preservation of youth and beauty” is something I was and still am hyper-aware of. For me, the prime age was and always will be 19 and under. After that, my mind categorizes you as “old”. Not the same way a 40 year old is old, but still, nonetheless, it’s own low-tier category of old. 

Over the past 6-months, as my birthday has drawn closer and closer, I’d tried all kinds of methods to soothe me anxiety. If I were in Japan right now, as initially planned, that would’ve helped a lot. I thought about my best friend who’s birthday is 2 months before mine and I thought of people like Jeongguk who must exit and enter ages with no thought, just grace. All these things temporary helped me, but now, on my last night, it feels hard to breathe. I’m still worried. I’m still scared. Logically, I know nothing drastic is going to change tomorrow, but I’m still…scared. 

If I think about goals I wanted to absolutely reach by 19, the only one I had and failed was going to Japan. I wanted to go while I was still a teenager. In the end, it all boiled down to a money issue. So I didn’t go. 

Nevertheless, tomorrow I’ll be thrust into a new period of my life. I hope lots of good things come with it. 

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