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The Indidiousness of Depression: Past, Present, Future

One of the problems inherent with depression is its absolute insidiousness.

There is the blood/brain barrier, but as far as I am aware, and maybe you could consider memory loss or the placebo effect as being "defensive"...but the brain (where the mind resides) has no natural "immune system" like our physical bodies do.

When a virus or threat or harmful pathogen is introduced to the human body, it will do its absolute best completely on its own to rid it of that threat. We seem to forget that, with modern medicine, it's easy to take our own physic healing capabilities for granted---it is planted within us to keep us alive/to survive.

The mind is also different in the body in its absolutely amazing neuroplastic abilities---the ability to CHANGE itself into a brain more suited for our environment.

This amazing ability of the brain is also a key reason why depression (especially chronic) is so insidious: it takes advantage of the brain's "changability" and uses it for disadvantageous, irrational purposes. We condition ourselves by how we respond to our environments...for the positive or negative. The brain does not judge: it functions.

So when you're depressed, for example, your MIND is totally up for grabs for whatever maladaptive coping mechanisms that happen to fly your way. And it gets stuck inside your mind: and it CHANGES it.

Depression does not just affect the present moment: it seeps into your past and drains it of all the feelings you're not able to feel anymore. It takes the color from your memories until they're not even really distinct memories anymore...just a mess of brown/black once-images.

Not only does it drain your past and your present of color, but your entire future, too. You literally cannot see the colors anymore...those colors that most people use as guiding lights to follow through their lives. Colors like joy, pleasure, grief, suffering. All of the hues, on all the spectrums. Sometimes you're left with only one color to see through: like anger...but then sometimes it's just black and white. The future is not as jumbled as the past but it is JUST as unclear/unable to be discerned.

I guess I'm just saying I hope everyone who reads this has color in their lives, and can see clearly through the blobs and once-colors that are now indistinguishable to me. Dont let anyone tell you you are selfish for relishing in those colors: because that's what life is for, and people like me desperately need more good colorful examples to look up to.

That is all.

#depression #mentalillness #mentalhealth

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Whoever needs to see this:

there is a difference between saying "I'm sorry I made you feel that way" and "I'm sorry you feel that way."

There is NOT much difference between "I'm sorry you feel that way" and "I dont agree/validate that you are feeling that way because of something i directly said/did to you to cause you any kind of pain."

Apologies should accept responsibility. Anything else is just lowkey manipulation.

#apologies #sorry #imsorry #beingsorry #apology #communication #communicationtip #relationshiptip #relationships #mental health #gaslighting #manipulation

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Hating being an INFJ

Everything makes so much sense in my head. But why can I not seem to convey what is actually in my mind to the external world?

I dont just think things, I think BIG things, ir millions of tiny things that pile up to make a HUGE MOUNTAIN. How do you speak mountains? How do you cram something so large into something as little as letters in sentences.

I wish so much that I didn't care so much...either every single person I've ever seen is an incredible actor, or I am the "crazy" one.

Most of the time "crazy" just means "not popular/likable." Sheep make up the masses. Masses aren't smart.

Think for yourself and be independent. I wonder if YOU did that, how much an impact it would have on the lonely people out there truly thinking they are crazy when in reality, it's the others who dont have open enough minds to think any original thoughts.

#infj #mbti #bpd #mental illness #depression #life #infj problems #hatinglife

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INFJ Ode to ENFP

I miss you.

I miss the way you used to glance at me from your desk when you thought I wasn't looking. I miss how you would look down and blush when I caught you and made eye contact. I miss how eventually you stopped blushing and looking away, and how you met my gaze directly and appreciatively, with that silly, confident grin that always got you out of anything.

I miss your child-like enthusiasm, and the way your face lit up when you were happy. I even miss how easy it was to tell when you were upset, from the clouds behind your beautiful brown eyes. Your heart wasn't even hidden enough to wear on your sleeve...it shown through your eyes and was obvious on your face.

Tenderness, joy, anger, frustration, sadness, guilt, love: it was all there on your face. I just had to look.

I miss the ease in which I fell into your arms. Your big arms and your strong chest where I could easily rest my head and hear your strong heart beat. A heart that shouldn't even be beating anymore, but by the grace of angels has continued to stay strong no matter how much your self-destructive bad habits had hold of you. I miss the strength of you heart, your ability to remain, even after so much pain and suffering.

I miss the tattoo of the rising Phoenix that spread across your entire strong back...its wings extending towards your broad shoulders. The way it fiercely rose from the ashes that made it into the stunning creature it turned out to be. The stunning creature you turned out to be, for a time.

I miss the way you left me little notes...I miss your endless sticky notes of “lists" of things that I kept telling you you needed to do, but you never managed to get done. I miss how you managed to get so much else done other than what was written on your yellow sticky notes, with your terrible handwriting. I still find them hidden in the crevices of my old car you used to drive me around in. It makes me tear up everytime I see your child-like scrawl and remember all the little messages and love notes I read through that scrawl, that I knew perfectly how to decipher.

I miss the little pictures you drew. I'll never forget the way you first asked me out...when I said I was busy. The way you sketched the Panera exactly all in pencil, and in the sign that should have said “Panera,” you wrote, “lunch with me?” And it was just so sweet...the way you snuck it over to my desk when I was gone for a second...I couldn't help but smile from ear to ear.

I miss how excited you were about us. How you wouldn't take no for an answer, and how you finally wore me down to move in with you, even if it was a little soon. I miss the blissful nights we spent looking into each others’ eyes passionately making love...and the mornings where I'd wake up to your beautiful eyelashes on your sleeping face and your strong arms around me.

I miss getting ready in the morning to your loud-as-could-be country music. I miss the way you talked about the country. I miss going to the country house with you...fishing at the lake, making sure the dogs didn't jump in and scare them away. I miss driving out to the lake with a couple beers and some pillows, and opening up the SUV’s back door, putting the back seats down, and laying on the pillows watching the beautiful country sunset, completely isolated and alone together, in the most beautiful and peaceful and serene setting I can remember.

I miss the way we could laugh and talk and be completely SILLY together for hours. I love how you let me rant on and on and then had something to contribute when I was actually done talking. I love the wild, wacky ideas we came up with, and the hours of belly-laughter we spent smoking and talking until late in the night, only to wake up so tired the next day, just to do it all over again. I miss how absolutely comfortable you made me feel being myself. I miss even having someone to be myself around at all.

I miss you. More than your arms and your back and your eyes and your kisses and your tender touch...I miss the way you looked at me, like you were the luckiest man in the world anytime you were in my presence. I love the little things you did for me, even when we didn't have much money, that just lit up my day. I love how you had a way of bringing me down from my high stress world, and how I brought you up to a certain level of responsibility. The way we balanced each other was like a helium balloon with a weight on the end...it didn’t fly away, but it was still light and airy and fun.

I miss the little things that made up the biggest, best relationship of my life, before it turned sour. I miss you. I miss us. Most of all, I just miss the feeling I had when I was around you...and how I always knew you felt it, too.

#infj #enfp #mbti #lostlove #memories #romance #past

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I wonder how many gallons of water I've spilled by dropping the water bottle off of my nightstand 🤔

#infj #infjproblems #inferior Se

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INFJ be like

#INFJ #MBTI #introvert #introvertprovlems #infjproblems #adultingishard

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How I flirt as an INFJ 🙃

#INFJ #Flirting #introvert #infjproblems #introvertproblems #awkward #awkward flirting

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MBTI and Friedrich Nietzsche’s quotes

ENFP - We love life, not because we are used to living but because we are used to loving. ENTP - All things are subject to interpretation whichever interpretation prevails at a given time is a function of power and not truth. ENFJ - There is always some madness in love. But there is also always some reason in madness. ENTJ - He who has a why to live can bear almost any how. ESTJ - On the mountains of truth you can never climb in vain: either you will reach a point higher up today, or you will be training your powers so that you will be able to climb higher tomorrow. ESTP - To live is to suffer, to survive is to find some meaning in the suffering. ESFP - Undeserved praise causes more pangs of conscience later than undeserved blame, but probably only for this reason, that our power of judgment are more completely exposed by being over praised than by being unjustly underestimated. ESFJ -  In individuals, insanity is rare; but in groups, parties, nations and epochs, it is the rule. INTP - The individual has always had to struggle to keep from being overwhelmed by the tribe. If you try it, you will be lonely often, and sometimes frightened. But no price is too high to pay for the privilege of owning yourself. INFP - Thoughts are the shadows of our feelings - always darker, emptier and simpler.Without music, life would be a mistake. INTJ - The man of knowledge must be able not only to love his enemies but also to hate his friends. INFJ - Whoever fights monsters should see to it that in the process he does not become a monster. And if you gaze long enough into an abyss, the abyss will gaze back into you. ISFP - Hope in reality is the worst of all evils because it prolongs the torments of man. ISTJ - He who would learn to fly one day must first learn to stand and walk and run and climb and dance; one cannot fly into flying. ISTP - You have your way. I have my way. As for the right way, the correct way, and the only way, it does not exist. ISFJ - When marrying, ask yourself this question: Do you believe that you will be able to converse well with this person into your old age? Everything else in marriage is transitory.

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new years resolutions for each type

to be taken seriously

intp: sleep at a proper time jesus christ istp: give a shit enfj: stop making aesthetics. we have enough. s t o p istj: do something fun for once esfp: stop spending impulsively smh isfp: needs!! more!! self-confidence!!! estj: stop :)) wanting to fight everything :) infp: s t o p avoiding responsibilities enfp: stop screaming estp: become a contributing member of society intj: learn to love esfj: stop spending money on scented candles. you have enough. entj: be less Edgy infj: follow your own advice lmao isfj: go out more entp: stop making shrek jokes (please we’re begging)

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Accurate

From 16personalities on Instagram

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mbti as ways they say “i love you”

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istp

“stay over”

“you might like this”

“i was just in the neighborhood”

estp

“i want you to be happy”

“you look like you could use a hug”

“i’ll wait”

isfp

“you didn’t have to ask”

“i’ll meet you halfway”

“i’ll be here when you’re ready”

esfp

“i saw this and thought of you”

“i’m worried about you”

“i like your laugh”

istj

“don’t worry about me”

“i’m proud of you”

“that’s okay, i bought two”

estj

“you should take a break - you work too hard”

“take my jacket, it’s cold outside”

“you’re important too”

isfj

“i made this for you”

“we can share”

“i don’t mind”

esfj

“it reminded me of you”

“i made your favourite”

“i want you to have this”

infp

“listen to this song - it reminded me of you”

“i’m happy you’re here”

“i saved you a piece”

enfp

“well what do you want to do?”

“i picked these for you”

“stay there, i’ll come get you”

infj

“you dont have to say anything”

“i’ll help you study”

“i noticed”

enfj

“do you need any help with that?”

“call me if you need anything”

“it’s no bother”

intp

“i’ll do it for you”

“i really want your opinion on something”

“wow”

entp

“you can have the last slice”

“what do you want to watch?”

“do you want to come too?”

intj

“is there anything i can do to help?”

“it’s okay, i couldn’t sleep anyways”

“take mine”

entj

“i appreciate what you do for me”

“you just made my day”

“we’ll figure it out”

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Good advice!!!!!

Note to Self

Little reminders for when you are overindulging a function:

Se: you don’t have to react to everything that happens Ne: not everything you imagine is worth the attention Te: not everything you see as a “problem” is a problem Fe: not everything someone does has something to do with you Si: what you think you know is not all there is to know Ni: believing something is true does not make it true Ti: if it only makes sense to you then you’ve got a problem Fi: what you feel does not always tell you what is real

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MBTI types and what happens before a flight

ESTJ: arrives 6 hours early and relaxes in the premium lounge (while taking full advantage of the buffet)

ISTJ: arrive an hour early so they compulsively check the time of the flight while theyre waiting

ISTP: was going to be well on time but ends up getting distracted but still gets on the plane (literally one of the last person on the plane). also sneaks into the premium lounge and doesnt get caught.

ESTP: what do you MEAN I CANT BRING THIS COGNAC ON THE PLANE wait actually i have an idea (ends up boarding the plane very drunk)

ESFJ: was meant to arrive 4 hours early but ESFP slowed them down so they end up arriving 3 hours early *gasp*  Spends their time doing some shopping with ESFP

ESFP: slows down ESFJ bcuz they feel incredibly carsick and cant possibly go all the way to the airport. their nausea is magically cured once they browse the shops and cafes at the airport.

ISFP: is the one taking pics of the view while the plane is taking off. ‘ma’am please put your phone away while taking off’ ‘but my aesthetic’

ISFJ: the little old grandma/grandpa who is asking everyone to help them but nobody minds cuz theyre so polite! gets there one hour early and spends the rest of the time trying to find the gate

INTJ: gets there 3 hours early and spends the rest of the time complaining about how inefficient the whole system is (while stuffing their face full of food)

ENTJ: has all the fast passes and other various things so they get there 5 hours early. spends the rest of the time in the premium lounge while talking about how the planes could be made faster.

ENTP: gets there with 10 minues to spare. somehow gets into premium lounge and was talking to ENTJ when they realized they missed their flight.

ENFJ: arrives with 3 hours to spare. feels bad for the ppl who cannot go in the the premium lounge. 

INFJ: has 2 hours to spare. loading their plate in the preminum lounge when they’re ambushed by ENTP and ENTJ and has to spend 1.5 hours listening to ppl talk abt jet engines. save them.

INFP: gets there with 45mins left when they see someone clutching several platters from a buffet while trying to run away. films it. their video goes viral. they are internet famous.

ENFP: 15mins to spare. is kicked out of the airport for trying to steal the premium section’s buffet. INFP’s video goes viral. they are dead with embarrasment.

INTP: zones out at home and forgets that they had a flight. they do not get a refund.

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the types as | disney gifs

ISTP

INTP

ESTP

ENTP

ISFP

INFP

ESFP

ENFP

ISTJ

INTJ

ESTJ

ENTJ

ISFJ

INFJ

ESFJ

ENFJ

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mbti types as their 10/10 skills

ENTJ: 10/10 jackassing skills

INTJ: 10/10 ignoring you skills

ENTP: 10/10 sending you memes at 4am skills

INTP: 10/10 sleeping skills

ESTJ: 10/10 giving too many fucks skills

ISTJ: 10/10 pretending to care skills

ESFJ: 10/10 Pinterest board making skills

ISFJ: 10/10 guilt tripping skills

ESTP: 10/10 making stupid decisions skills

ISTP: 10/10 going to parties for the food skills

ESFP: 10/10 talking a fuckton skills

ISFP: 10/10 crying skills

ENFJ: 10/10 quoting Mean Girls skills

INFJ: 10/10 brooding skills

ENFP: 10/10 dying inside skills

INFP: 10/10 MBTI shitposting skills

😂😂😂😂😂

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The Functions and "Experiences"

Fi: I trust my feelings/principles to guide me through each experience. Ti: I trust my objectivity to make the the right choices for each experience. Fe: I can use this experience to better connect with other people, ie, understand the collective human experience. Te: I have a template for how I handle each experience that usually is the most effective way of doing things. Ni: How does this experience match up with any future possibilites/ideas, and how can I use it to be better in my next experience? Ne: What if I combine this thing and that thing, and I could create a whole new experience? Si: How do my past experiences match up to this one, and what can I take from my past experiences to appropriately apply to this one? Se: Just the experience. 😂

#mbti #ni #fi #ti #si #se #fe #te #ne #cognitive functions #infj #personality #types

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Yep, stop the stigma