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missnobody33 · 2 years

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Who am i??

Sometimes the one's that i miss is myself, but i don't know which one's.

I don't even know who i suppose to be, my old self have been buried.

Sometimes i dont know who "the old" me and "the new" me.

When the last time i be "me"?

When the last time i feel like "me"?

And wonder what i need to be "me",?

Did i need to feel "happy" to describe the old "me"?

maybe i don't need to find myself,

Maybe all i need is just to "feel" me to be myself.

-k 18:45 p.m 21 March 22

#dead poetry #spilled thoughts #history #depressing quotes #writing #art #poetry #novel #love poem #anxious #reality #real life #reading #love peoms #rainbow #books and novels #beautiful quote #original poem #no hate

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missnobody33 · 2 years

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I need somebody..

But, are you?

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missnobody33 · 2 years

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In Between

Two way, one path.

One future, different story.

Its like knowing what will happen, but not ready to go through.

Crying over the punchline, but know all the storyline.

Being scared and worried at the same time, but still searching for the right time.

Confused!

Scared!

Crying!

Trying!

Struggling!!!

But you!!

Please breathing..!

Reality comes too fast,

Just want to walk but already getting pushed,

Just want to smile but already need to crying,

Just want to talk but already need to be silent,

Just want to think but already have to act,

Its not because you act too slow, but its about you already "learned" too far.

Being teenager is hurt,

Being adult is hard.

Even when you confused or scared,

Even when world are waiting for you,

You can't say you're not ready,

Because you just stuck in between.

- 26.1.22 (23:50 p.m) - k

Edited (3:19 a.m)

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missnobody33 · 2 years

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I wonder how people are so good at living a life while they're broken.

Don't you have a limit?

How you handle it?

#dead poetry #spilled thoughts #history #depressing quotes #writing #novel #anxious #poetry #love poem #art #anxienty

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missnobody33 · 2 years

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When stranger make you fall in love.🍁✨

When you fall in love with stranger, all you can do is be careful because you just don't want to make them hate you.

Fall in love with stranger doesn't make sense for some people, but only the ones who feel it know that it is real.

Fall in love is another way you know that your heart is still alive, loving you makes me realize some beautiful things are happened to me.

But you must remember, just because you are in love and want them to be with you doesn't mean you are allowed to be angry when they not give what you want.

The reality we must accept even it is hard and hurt.

I can't make you feel the way I fell for you, the only thing I hope is that you will let me to keep loving you.

-love is hurt and hard sometimes 🍁✨♥️

-kn 28 Nov 21 3:55 a.m

#love peoms #real life #reality #spilled thoughts #writing #love poem #poetry #novel #anxious #art #history #depressing quotes #dead poetry #anxi4ty #in love #rainbow #your smile #confession #happy thanksgiving

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missnobody33 · 2 years

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The saddest thing

I thought the sad thing was when i know i lost myself,

But the worse saddest thing was when I realized I can't find me anymore,

The worse thing was when I realized that I will never be myself in the future.

I just live with people expectation,

I just live in pretending to be what others want to see,

Because i can't found me anymore.

Sound sad or pitty?

Both didn't really matter anymore,

Because I just live to survive for tomorrow,

Confused and numb with my own thoughts and feelings.

-1:59 23 Nov (k-n)

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missnobody33 · 2 years

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How are you today?

#dead poetry #history #spilled thoughts #depressing quotes #writing #art #love poem #anxious #poetry #novel #sadvideos #sad aesthetic #my video #video #real life #reading #no hate

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missnobody33 · 2 years

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BROKEN

What you do when you are broken

What you do when you feel broken

Sounds same but different.

I can go outside and fix what broken,

I can smile, i can laugh when i see my friends.

I know what to do to make me feel better,

I feel real when I'm go home,

i don't lost me when I go home,

But i don't know what to do when i FEEL broken

Everything around me feel free, and saved,

Everything around me look fine and perfect,

Everything goes well and great,

But i feel like im the missing piece in this world.

I'm at the place where I am,

I want to love me but i don't know myself,

I want to know me but i can't find myself,

I want a lot of things but everything is like illusion,

Then i just lost "me" when i feel broken.

-kn 00:42p.m 8 Nov

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missnobody33 · 3 years

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Direction

I used to left someone before i fell in love , i used to avoiding to love someone too much.

Just like I hold something for a long time and never want to let it go.

I have two directions but only can choose one, both of them will hurt me again.

make me wondering if i do the right thing,

make me wondering if i can handle all of this,

but what i feel is hurt and confused.

I wish i could reach them,

I wish i could hold them,

I wish i could hug them,

I put bridge between us,

Just because i afraid to lose you.

Is it all of this sound sad and selfish or just annoying?

(comment below for ur opinion) 😇💫💞

-kn 1:47 a.m 11 Oct

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missnobody33 · 3 years

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I miss you

If only I could ask you to stay,

If only i could ask you to wait,

If only i could ask you to come back,

What i feel is so real, and my feelings are so crazy,

Sometimes i can handle it,

Sometimes i can ignore it,

Sometimes i can deny it,

But sometimes i can't fix it,

Fix it to be more strong and calm.

I can hate you,

but i can't handle the pain of missing you.

Feels like i stuck in the past,

I Want to let go but don't want to forget,

I Want to forget but i don't want to stop missing you.

I put hopes even knowing i could hurt myself again,

I put hopes even i know we can't be the same again,

This is me when i miss you.

-kn 22:18 6okt 21

#dead poetry #spilled thoughts #depressing quotes #writing #history #love poem #anxious #poetry #art #novel #real life #reality #reading #written poetry #poem #writter #no hate #much love #rainbow

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missnobody33 · 3 years

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HONEST

What you know about honesty?

What HONEST mean to you?

Is it just when you need to tell truth to every words you say?

Is it just when you have to tell the truth?

is it just when you want to tell the truth?

Did " HONEST " just happen when we talk?

Did we forget that we needed to be honest with our feelings,?

Did we forget that we needed to be honest when we do something?

Just like waiting for the rain when sun is so bright,

You know it will never happened but you keep waiting,

"denied everything just to calm your heart".

Just like when you pick rose but you love sunflower,

You found the thorns of the rose is beautiful,

But just because its dangerous, you choose sunflower,

"you choose sunflower not because its beautiful but it's make you feel safe"

Just like the pictures,

You want That butterfly but you forget to unlock your hands,

"You always want the best but you forget to be honest with everything"

K-n 27 SEPT 1:46 A.M

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missnobody33 · 3 years

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Empty.

Just like walk through the alley,

Its was dark and empty,

Its was scarry and lonely,

But you still walking.

Its not because you're not scared,

But its because you don't have a choice.

Sound sad or sound sympathy?

Will ask or just walking?

Will help or just looking?

Will talk or just assuming?

Will cry or just laughing?

Will cry or just smiling?

Is this reality or just fantasy?

You can't answer but you will thinking,

Not because you don't have mouth,

But you lost your voice.

K-n 22:23 20 Sept

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missnobody33 · 3 years

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MOOD

I wonder what kind of a person I'd be if i didn't have anxiety

#Spotify

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missnobody33 · 3 years

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MOTHER.

When i in my mother's arms,

Just Like lying in the sands of a beach,

Eyes looking at the sky,

Reflecting on its beauty,

Light so bright,

Bringing one peace of mind.

Just one hug, can makes me feel saved,

Just one smile, can makes me happy,

Just one words, can makes me calm,

Mom, You are my angle.

But mom, you just come in my dream,

You only can meet me in my dream,

I only can hug you in my dream,

And without you just like Speaking of words,

But not in line with the heart.

Talk that's so hurting,

Told through the eyes,

But it makes the heart blind.

The exact move I thought was right.

But forget the compass I brought.

K-n 21:26 p.m 17 Sept

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missnobody33 · 3 years

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SUFFERED

I know loving someone can makes me hurt,

But i never know it's can makes me suffering,

If you know..

I can tell you i miss you,

I can tell you i love you,

I can tell you to stay,

But i can't ask you to be same like before.

I spend my day thinking what should I do,

Do i suppose to forget about you,

Do i suppose to run away,

Do i suppose to change my number,

Or do i suppose to delete your number.

Just like a stone in the sea,

I'm freeze and let all the beautiful thing past around me.

I'm awake when i lost both,

I lose you and people around me,

I never regret anything except one thing,

I never regret to get know you,

I never regret to love you,

I never regret saying that i miss you,

But i regret when i say i need space from you.

Two words and one letter

Im DYING but I'm ALIVE

If only you know...

When its gonna grow, when its gonna shine,

What's will end, what's gonna die,

Will you stay and be there for me?

K-n 16 Sept 19:44 p.m

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missnobody33 · 3 years

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Is This Just A Mask?

I wish I was able to forget my past,

Because it hurts.

But that's all the memories I have

Destiny is written,

I must accept.

I try to walk and continue this life,

The Weight i carried make me fall.

But ones for sure

Because of the past,

I'm still standing Today.

-30.10.19

Or Am I A Clown Of Myself?

Walking through the people and pretend.

Wishing i would find the real me,

Hoping i would laugh without faking,

Saying without faking.

Searching for love or craving some hug,

Waiting for love or looking over someone.

Looking for some sympathy or waiting for caring.

Im Thinking or I'm wondering,

is this fakes or just part of me.

Is this the thing i used to do or the thing that i needed to do?

Or maybe.. I just a clown who's wearing a mask....

K-n 15 Sept 21 00:27a.m

(i thought i don't want to write or posting today, but writing is my healing soul )

#dead poetry #history #art #writing #depressing quotes #spilled thoughts #poetry #novel #love poem #anxious #written poetry #writter #anxi4ty #clown.txt #no hate #real life #much love #miss you #i'm broke

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missnobody33 · 3 years

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I am in the forest that my mother

Calls her garden

My bare feet are dirty

There will be thorns to pull out

When I return.

The grass is dewy and I think

This would be the perfect place to

Hide a body.

Then I play with the touch-me-nots.

I am back seven years later

There's no one to call it a garden now

My feet are clean and covered

I cannot bear to pull out thorns

Anymore.

The grass is still dewy and I think

This would be the perfect place to

Find a body.

The touch-me-nots aren't there anymore

But now I know of the ghosts living there.

-Niranjana

Tagging: @paulsmash @she-nuwanda @missnobody33

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