Iām kinda getting anxiety going to Burlington. (My stomach pains) I think itās because I kinda forced myself to come I didnāt really want to. I just told myself maybe I should just go lol Iāll just mind my business. Also I think itās my cousin is with us. Heās not that talkative.
Anxiety for me starts with sweaty palms and thatās what was happening. Iāve been popping my anxiety meds left to right just because it does a little something. I probably need something stronger. Iāll tell my psychiatrist that. I finally found my style back. Turns out I feel a lot more confident in more comfortable clothes. Not so girly. I only am girly looking with Iām wearing less clothes lol but other than that more tomboyish style. You see the bleached heart? However since Iām typing this out, Iām having less anxiety going.
Lol I remember I was having the worst panic attack and you. You the one person started yelling at me, got so frustrated and just told me to stop. I canāt believe someone could treat me like that durning a time so hard for me. I cry just thinking about it made me think Iād never ever be normal. Mentally fucked me up even more. I canāt stand when someone asks me to go out. It brings me to tears.