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Reblogging would be a great help, but don’t feel pressured to

#2 and 3 need love #more 3 than 2

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You wouldn’t think that flamingoes are extremophiles just from looking at them. It’s like somebody tried to build the vertebrate equivalent of that fungus that lives inside nuclear reactors, and ended up with a gangly pink dinosaur with a spoon for a face.

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C'mon don't be losers, instead of doing Watcher subscription giveaways just literally buy esims for Gaza or donate to non-profit charities like Care for Gaza, which actually help affected Palestinians and deliver food and other necessities to them. There's also a bunch for Sudan like the one set up by the ICRC. Don't give $6 just for a man to eat expensive shit on camera when that $6 can do so much for an entire nation of starving people.

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“I don’t care about dumb weed jokes,” I said naively, before I saw this

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i feel like i'm losing my mind why has the AI debate pivoted away from material/labor concerns back to debates about Real vs Fake Art. cannot express just how little i care about relitigating Art and high art and low art and skilled vs unskilled art. what i care about is the treatment and compensation of workers, the power corporations are exerting over intellectual property and creators, the continued extraction of resources, and the omnipresent glut of spam and disinformation with few or no regulations/resources that filter out the SEO AI generated nonsense

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i’ve noticed lately that i’m not really a person to other queer and trans people anymore. ever since i started openly identifying as a trans man, people have been much less likely to consider my experiences as serious or worth talking about, less likely to give me any sort of benefit of the doubt when discussing queer issues or gender, and much less likely to care if something they’ve said was hurtful to me. i've watched as people went from viewing me as a complex human being with deep thoughts and feelings and a complicated and traumatic past whose voice was worthy of hearing, to just Man.

and i really want to get across how serious this is, bc i know a lot of you will read this and just go “ugh another man complaining” and i would ask if you’d react this way to a trans person who wasn’t a man, but i know you wouldn’t. because i identified as trans nonbinary for years and wasn’t treated this way. people took my experiences with misogyny, fatphobia, transphobia, etc. seriously, didn't try to claim i hadn't experienced it or that it wasn't as bad as i was making it out to be. it was specifically when i started to use the label 'man', not when i went on testosterone or came out in my real life or had any sort of large meaningful change in my life or who i was. it was literally in response to the word i used to describe myself. that one word was all it took for the queer and trans community to decide i was no longer worthy of being treated like a person. and of course, this shift was happening when the rest of society was also deciding that because i was more visibly queer i wasn't deserving of humanity anymore to them either. it was an absolute mindfuck to be experiencing a significant increase in queerphobia and transphobia in my real life while simultaneously having the queer and trans communities deny that that was happening and start to dehumanize me.

and i really wish this was an online only thing, but it's not. there has not been a single trans event or rally or protest i've gone to in the last year where issues that primarily affect transmasculine people have been directly spoken about. it's rare to even hear the words 'trans men' at these events. at a rally i went to last week, one of the speakers said that "all the signs that say 'protect trans kids' should say 'protect trans girls'" meanwhile out of the approximately 10 trans trans people chosen to speak, only two of them were trans men. numerous mutual aid resources for queer people explicitly exclude trans men. when speaking to the parent of a trans boy the other day, they had absolutely no idea that trans men could be denied coverage for gynecological care if their gender marker is an "m", which their child's is. this erasure and dehumanization of trans men, even within the queer and trans community, doesn't just 'hurt men's feelings lmao', it puts us in danger.

so yeah. it's really bizarre to go from the world denying my trauma and experiences because i'm just a stupid deranged woman, to the queer and trans community denying my trauma and experiences because i'm just a whiny entitled man. because in neither situation am i treated like a human being in need of compassion. i'm just a blank slate for whatever gender stereotype people need to project onto me.

rules of engagement:

-do not tag this with "q slur" -do not insinuate that i'm making any sort of statement about trans women/femmes. i'm literally just talking about me and my experiences. we're not on a goddamn oppression seesaw. -ra/df/em lite rhetoric gets an immediate block. i'm tired of dealing with ur bootlicking asses.

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A comic in tribute to everyone who's life was changed by that "don't trust your brain past 9pm" post

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Every single time I see a take that amounts to "if you write about X happening, or like fiction where X happens, you like X" I'm reminded of this one time I was at a casual friends house as a young kid. We were in her room, pretending to "be orphans" escaping from an evil orphanage and having to take care of each other and fend for ourselves. It was all very Little Orphan Annie/All Dogs Go to Heaven and based on the 80s pop media.

And this girl's mom comes in, hears what we're playing and gets all MAD and UPSET. She says that if we play act something, it's because we want it to happen. So her daughter must WANT HER TO DIE.

First off lady, we were 6 year year olds, so take it down several notches. We barely had a concept of mortality for fucks sake. She made us feel so guilty and ashamed, because she was taking our game personally.

Now I have a 5 year old. And sometimes she looks at me and says "pretend you're dead, and I have to -" Whatever it is. Some adult task she's assigned herself.

And it's just so transparently obvious that she's practicing the idea of having to do things on her own. Which is exactly what 5 year olds are supposed to do. I actually find it very flattering that the only way she can envision me not being available to help her is to be literally deceased. Otherwise, obviously, she wouldn't have to do scary hard things alone.

It's a natural coping mechanism. She's self-soothing about what would happen if I wasn't there by play-acting independence in a perfectly safe environment. She's also practicing skills she needs, and making up excuses for practicing them on her own, without taking on the responsibility of being able to do them by herself all the time yet.

Humans mentally rehearse bad this in their brains all the time. We can do that by ruminating- going over worries over and over again, which tends to lead to anxiety and helplessness and depression. Or we can do it with a sense of play- by recognizing that the fiction is fiction and we can dip our toe into these experiences and expose ourselves to bad things without actually being injured.

My daughter does not want me dead. And I don't want bad things to happen in real life. But fiction and pretend help me face the horrors of the world and think about them without collapsing or messing myself up mentally.

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yall get ur bfs video games, and I get mine Legos😂

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I think when gay people discovered Jung a new religion was born where they burn sandalwood next to some crystals and flex to each other over some lacroix about how much they go to therapy and how many queer dnd podcasts they listen to.

It’s a sexless new age enlightenment pseudopsychological therapeutic social justice language pissing contest. Who can present themselves as the most sterile poised guiltless “intuitive tarot reader”.

It’s queerness with the edges ground off, magic without blood, psychoanalysis without ugliness, art without disturbances, smoke without fire

It’s like corporate pride meets new age wicca meets self help bullshit meets fandom meets empath nonsense and let me tell you it drains the fucking life out of me

Can we please just have the Radical Faeries back? Please?

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"You're not the main character" also applies to thinking that you're so uniquely horrible that everyone you meet is deeply invested in judging and hating you. That's just as much of a cognitive distortion as believing that you're the center of everyone's admiration. I promise you that other people got their own lives to live and their own struggles and flaws to cope with.

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He pounced at them like a kitty hunting a laser pointer

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every two months taylor swift is like i’m going to make another album of me saying ooh aah baby your love was like a knife but i’m a flower and thanks to you i can now take in more water. and everyone goes crazy over it