moonsandfairies

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I was literally fwb with a guy and I told him in the very beginning that if he had someone in mind then inform me the very second so that I don’t feel like I am a side bitch or wtv AND GUESS WHAT HE LITERALLY DIDNT TELL ME THAT HE WAS TALKING TO A GIRL AND YESTERDAY RANDOMLY POSTED ON HIS STORY THAT HE HAS A GIRLFRIEND?????? HE DIDNT EVEN TELL ME ??? I am so heartbroken I don’t even know what to feel I am so miserable I hate men

#wtf is going on #like wtf #who does that #omg #i hate men

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I genuinely don’t understand him like what does he want how does he feel ????? Does he even care about my texts???? Does his heart not pound like crazy when I don’t text him???? Does he even look at me the way I look at him ??????????

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oh god kill me

Nicole W. Lee, from "Even the Dust"

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i've got seven missed calls and eight apologies in drafts and the thought of anyone wanting me makes me so afraid that i ask them to leave even when i want them to stay. inside my mind i am begging; please don't go— please love me anyways

grit, a poetry collection/ in image/ mayakovsky by frank o'hara/ sue zhao/ unknown / Ruth Madievsky, All-Night Pharmacy / gone girl, gillian flyn/ Cotton Candy on a Rainy Day, Nikki Giovanni / supernatural season 12 ep 22 (thanks @count-woe-laf) / I Put The Coffin Out To Sea by Lisa Marie Basile/ Sorry by Halsey/ Sorry by Halsey / unknown

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I am going crazy i hate myself wtf is wrong

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“The dishonesty of diary-writing — this voice you put on for supposedly no one but yourself — I found that idea so depressing. I feel that life has too much artifice in it anyway without making a pretty pattern of your own most intimate thoughts. Or maybe it’s the other way round: some people are able to write frankly, simply, of how they feel, whereas I can’t stop myself turning it into a pretty pattern.”

— Zadie Smith, “Life-Writing”

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once I get over my seething desire to accept horrendous behaviour and downright unavailability from crusty men in return for even some crumbs of love it’s over for you all.

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when Anne Sexton wrote, "it doesn't matter who my father was; it matters who I remember he was"

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i thought eventually my hunger for love would paralyse on its own but the more i live the more i am reminded of how unloved i feel and how i terrifyingly want to be loved the way i love.

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i lied i do have jealousy issues

#gaslight gatekeep girlblog #girlblogging #tumblr girls #this is what makes us girls

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i can't do this anymore! i mean i can, and i will, obviously. but i can't fucking do this anymore!

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when john berger said “men watch, women watch themselves being watched” i felt like a bad woman, like someone not worthy of being applauded.

#writing #girlhood #aesthetic #literature #female writers #john berger #writers and poets #writers on tumblr #something #unhinged #angel #this is what makes us girls #women

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i bought a candle for someone special but I ripped it open and lit it myself. My hands are coarse and my face is wet but I really did choose myself.

#writing #girlhood #writer things #poetry #blurb #lords of chaos #art

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glass, irony and good, anne carson // margaret atwood // enough, suzanne buffam // linnea paskow // in conversation: kathleen turner, david marchese // haunted womanhood, heather havrilesky // where to begin, sue zhao // the stream of life, clarice lisepector

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Thanks for the tag @brokenpiecesofthesky

Last song I listened to - Sullen girl by Fiona Apple

Currently reading - Animal by Lisa Taddeo (I literally started this book last month but couldn’t finish it cuz of my exams but I will try and finish it this week, so far the book has some very annotate-able lines which I love)

Currently watching - I am kind of taking a break from series so I just watched Happy together and it’s such a beautiful and conflicting queer story I loved it. I also watched Valerie and her week of wonders that genuinely made me feel both terrified and weirdly peaceful.

Currently obsessed with - Corsets, black laces, ribbons, BUTTERSCOTCH EVERYTHING, Wong kar-wai movies and maybe heart shaped lockets ?

People I’d like to know better-

@oh-those-barricade-boys @adored-by-angels @joytri

Thanks for the tag @ravenclawdirectioner and @freyaforestafay !

Last song I listened to:Only the Brave by Louis Tomlinson

Currently reading: I’ve finished crooked kingdom(I know 😍) and I’m starting The Myth of Sisyphus by Albert Camus, but if my brain will not brain enough I’ll DNF it and read Howl by Allen Ginsberg

Currently watching: literally just finished Shadow And Bone season 2

Next on my watchlist: rewatching Heartstopper for the third time✨

Currently obsessed with: Heartstopper, Louis Tomlinson, Harry Styles, Six of Crows

People I'd like to know better🩵: @brokenpiecesofthesky , @louh28 and @nailleronedirection

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I was put on earth to read books about the horrors of girlhood and women becoming insane and eat fruits while swallowing the sun, not study for a degree.

#girlhood #writing #coquette #lana del ray aesthetic #lana del slay #female rage #gaslight gatekeep girlblog #girlblogging #coquette community #dark academia #sadgirl

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I don’t think I have ever experienced the sadness of the lost girlhood, grief of the upcoming adulthood I will be inevitably thrown into and the sheer amount of joy from all the patriarchal+witty+smart remarks/jokes all together from a 2hr movie.

I love Greta Gerwig.

#barbie #movies #greta gerwing barbie #writing #girlhood