i want to be the dainty bambi-eyed heart throb you see at the cafes, delicately spreading butter over half a toasted fruit bun just to take one bite and discard it because i have such a small appetite, leaving lipstick stains on my coffee cup, just sitting their looking pretty, skinny, loveable.
me completely naked freezing my malnourished ass off in the bathroom standing on the scale for the 6th time that day expecting to see a dramaticly lower number than what i saw an hour ago and instead seeing that id gained 0.1 pounds
• lunch : pizza (cuz forced to eat in front of my bf) , immediately threw up after = didn’t calculate anything so i would say as an estimation : 500cal
• dinner pasta with white sauce, mushroom and chicken, estimation : 500cal
• 1000 calories consumed today as an estimation 😢 but on a positive note i drank a looooot of water today.
Mood : sooooo bad but happy bc ill get the indoor bike for exercise 👍🏻❤️
I’ve eaten pizza with my boyfriend and now he’s gone for work and i immediately threw up felt better after, don’t forget to drink water 💦, he also gave me money to buy an indoors exercise bike, can’t wait to use it alllll day long to burn the evil [email protected]!es