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Goal weight

My goal weight for now is 62kg (136lbs) or lower.. (I am 172cm tall (5′8 maybe??)) If I was that weight my bmi would be 21. If I get lower than that I’ll be happy.

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Reblog this if you promise to never go back to your start weight

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Reblog if your weight, diet, and daily calorie intake is the first thing you think of each morning.

Didn’t expect to be called out like this but ok

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Food intake

My two days of fasting ended today. I had a few spoonfuls of chili con carne... don’t know how to feel about it.

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✨ reblog if ✨

You have an eating disorder but it doesn’t look like you do.

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Fainting?

I just fell to the floor because I felt so dizzy. Haven’t had this happen to me in a long time... Fainting has been like a goal for me which sounds crazy but I remember thinking that “I am too fat to faint.. I eat too much.. I am not doing enough” and tbh I still do think that. Now that it is actually starting to happen I feel sort of proud. I know that I am not prone to being dizzy and I can put my body through  a lot before I get a reaction out of it, but still not fainting always bothered me. Ig I see it as a validation or something.

 Sick, I know. But that is how my brain works for some reason.

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Scared

So, I will go shopping with my friend today. These past few weeks I have really just been on my own cause I haven’t had the energy to hang out w my friends or anything like that. I feel really anxious cause there is a change that she wants to eat out or something.. I hope it’s not the case tho.

 I won’t eat anything today, just to make sure that if I have to eat something with her I can still control it. if she wants to eat out it will probably be mcdonald’s I assume... Such a scary place lol. I figured that if I am forced to go there I’ll probably get few chicken nuggets and a diet coke. I hope it doesn’t come to that but as much as I feel scared I don’t wanna ruin nice moments for others...

 Today might the day that I fast but I might also get the food. Tricky situation.. I wanna do things and meet people but I don’t have the energy or the nerves for it atm. I feel like I have to be so aware of everything in order to stay away from food.

Has anyone got any “safe food” suggestion to get from mcdonald’s? I figured that chicken nuggets have around 200-400cals so that seems like the “safest” option rn.. if you can call it safe:(

#anorexia #disorded eating #restricted eating #ed #proana #proanafriend #binge #restrictive #mcdonald #safefoods #anxiety #promia #bulimia

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wow... made me realize a few things

Just a reminder:

Feeling invalid and like you’re faking your disorder is PART OF YOUR DISORDER

Wanting to starve yourself but not actually being able to do it is PART OF YOUR DISORDER

Recovery does NOT come easily

Constant binging is PART OF YOUR DISORDER

Being able to eat normally without guilt for periods of time is PART OF YOUR DISORDER

Being able to restrict easily one day and not the other is PART OF YOUR DISORDER

Please treat your minds nicely

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Tired

Today has been bad. Been having all the worst feelings.

#anorexia #disorded eating #restricted eating #eating disorder #proana #proanafriend #promia #mia #ana #mental illess

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Why...

No weightloss today. But why tho? I think I will start a “food diary” and post it here. I do track my calories and food intake, but I kinda wanna make sure that I don’t overeat at all. My daily goal is 500cals, but i am considering eating less and fasting for some days.

 Idk am I the only one who is also scared of the mass of the food. Even when I know that the calories are low the amount of food I am eating scares me. For example if I eat a plateful of soup that has 120cals I find it very uncomfotable cause it makes me feel like a failure even when I stay in my daily calorie goal. Does anyone else feel like this?

#proana #anorexia #disorded eating #restricted eating #eating disorder #promia #mia #ana #proanafriend #binge #bed #weightloss #eat #eating #food #restricting #purging #unhealthy #struggle #hate #caloric intake #bulimia #fat #mentally ill #mental illess

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Food diary

Breakfast:

Rye cracker x3  (93cals)

Ham  (38cals)

mustard (24cals)

Lunch:

Pea Soup  (90cals)

Rye cracker (31cals)

Snack:

Rye bread (68cals)

Ham (14cals)

cucumber+lettuce, red onion

Total: 358cals

#anorexia #restricted eating #eating disorder #proana #proanafriend

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Struggling

Past few days have been alright, but I gained weight yesterday. I do know that it’s whatever but the dissapointment I have for myself is unreal. I realize that this is not supposed to be serious but I can’t help how I feel. I literally eat 500 calories a day and this still happens?? What am I supposed to do..

#eating disorder #proana #proanafriend #anorexia #bed #binge #ed #restricted eating #disorded eating #weightloss #mental illess #ana #anxiety #body dysmorphia #sick #tired #food #eating #eat #purging #hopeless #the strugge is real #struggle

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Supportive friends?

Hi lovely people!

I have been struggling with an eating disorder for years. I am here to find friends who share the same “issue”... ED really sucks ass but I usually feel like it is the most important thing in my life. I am not ready to recover so please do not contact me if recovering is your intention, as it should be! I also don’t wanna promote ed, i just wish to have someone who shares the struggle. If you’d like to get to know me, please contact me here... i just sign up so i think it is possible:D All the best for ya’ll <3

#proana #anorexia #eating disorder #disorded eating #anxiety #promia #binge #ed #thin #weightloss #sick #mental illess #eat #eating #restricted eating #purging #proanafriend #ana