motherthebutter

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Finally logged into Tumblr after who knows how long. After a thorough inspection of my reblog history, I have no idea how my younger self didn't see how queer they were.

#the closet is glass

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Found rough drafts of the boys designs and I must say the final artworks are quite an improvement,, some underwent a lot of changes while others mammon barely have any modifications.

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umm i don’t think it’s really spoken about much but i think we should normalise bisexuals being inexperienced with a particular gender. we don’t have to ‘keep it even’ to be bisexual and it’s okay if you haven’t experienced anything with a particular gender :)

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it’s like I DO want to be feminine in the way a man is feminine. if I’m performing feminity I don’t want it to be read as an inherent reflection of my gender and who I am. I don’t want someone to call me ma’am or be called a girl. like. it’s drag. only it can’t be drag for me, because it’s not actually subverting anything, is it? so I’m in this spot where I either cannot allow myself any femininity or I do and accept the consequences of perception. my wearing eyeliner isn’t a subversion, a quiet rebellion, it’s perceived as fulfilling an expectation. somehow I can never be masc enough to be percieved as I want to be, so any introduction of femininity feels like a defeat. and yet sometimes I want to wear the pretty things that are still in my closet! or play around with makeup. but it isn’t a young boy getting into his mother’s vanity and heels, it’s growing up into the fulfillment of the wants of the mother and the rest of society as a blank whole.

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Hm. *debunks you*

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in case you haven’t heard it today, or don’t fully realise it yet: i promise you that most people in this world are kind, loving and understanding. the people around you want you to succeed, they do not want you to fail. your friends don’t hate you, they love you, and they want to see you grow and prosper. 

the world is not as bad as it seems. don’t forget that.

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when i die i want u all to come to my grave and put stickers on it

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No Simp September but the demon brother failed miserably.

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maybe no one cares that much but this shit is happening here in hungary

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the suite life finale

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Dumbass in the streets.

Dumbass in the sheets.

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LETS FRICKING GOOOOOO

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The beginning steps of friendship

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Me in 2022 when the pandemic hasn’t ended yet because people don’t know how to act right and I’ve been holed up in my house for three years acquiring a new flavor of crazy, going to open the door for the guy in the hazmat suit that’s come to deliver my groceries

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The police pull my lifeless body from a lake but I’m wearing the funniest hat they’ve ever seen and they can’t stop laughing and keep dropping me back into the water