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I just want a friend who cares about me. Who actually wants to spend time with me. Who doesn't see me as a nuisance. I hope that's not too much to ask, but I guess this whole rant just proves I don't deserve one. I'm sorry.

As a hairy brown trans girl, it's so obvious that even within the trans and queer community, trans girls are only ever cared for and cherished if we are beautiful and conventionally attractive. All the other trans women in my town (mostly white and thin) hang out with each other all the time, but never me. We say hi whenever we run into each other, and are friendly when I message them, but no one ever initiates conversation with me. I'm not even an afterthought to everyone, I don't exist until I scream for attention. No one would even know if something happened to me and I'm gone.

I'm probably just nattering about nonsense, I should be grateful to at least be seen as an acquaintance, there's worse things to be. And in the unlikely chance that anyone I know sees this, I'm really really sorry you did.

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Did I say or do something wrong? I'm really sorry. Please just tell me what I did so I won't do it again. I'm so so sorry.

As a hairy brown trans girl, it's so obvious that even within the trans and queer community, trans girls are only ever cared for and cherished if we are beautiful and conventionally attractive. All the other trans women in my town (mostly white and thin) hang out with each other all the time, but never me. We say hi whenever we run into each other, and are friendly when I message them, but no one ever initiates conversation with me. I'm not even an afterthought to everyone, I don't exist until I scream for attention. No one would even know if something happened to me and I'm gone.

I'm probably just nattering about nonsense, I should be grateful to at least be seen as an acquaintance, there's worse things to be. And in the unlikely chance that anyone I know sees this, I'm really really sorry you did.

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I'm also terribly boring, with the most boring interests, so it's really my fault. I wish I could be someone else. I wish someone would please notice me. Please.

As a hairy brown trans girl, it's so obvious that even within the trans and queer community, trans girls are only ever cared for and cherished if we are beautiful and conventionally attractive. All the other trans women in my town (mostly white and thin) hang out with each other all the time, but never me. We say hi whenever we run into each other, and are friendly when I message them, but no one ever initiates conversation with me. I'm not even an afterthought to everyone, I don't exist until I scream for attention. No one would even know if something happened to me and I'm gone.

I'm probably just nattering about nonsense, I should be grateful to at least be seen as an acquaintance, there's worse things to be. And in the unlikely chance that anyone I know sees this, I'm really really sorry you did.

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As a hairy brown trans girl, it's so obvious that even within the trans and queer community, trans girls are only ever cared for and cherished if we are beautiful and conventionally attractive. All the other trans women in my town (mostly white and thin) hang out with each other all the time, but never me. We say hi whenever we run into each other, and are friendly when I message them, but no one ever initiates conversation with me. I'm not even an afterthought to everyone, I don't exist until I scream for attention. No one would even know if something happened to me and I'm gone.

I'm probably just nattering about nonsense, I should be grateful to at least be seen as an acquaintance, there's worse things to be. And in the unlikely chance that anyone I know sees this, I'm really really sorry you did.

#transgender #trans #transfem #trans girl #trans women

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Ok, so I was watching Peppa Pig and well……this is one of tHE BEST MOMENTS EVER. I CAN’T STOP LAUGHING 

SHE JUSST HANGS UP ON HER

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Mathematicians, especially topologists, making the most intricate and beautiful shibari with their knowledge of knot theory, as well as being experts at where to cut the rope to untangle when needed.

STEM people are wayy more sexually fucked up than say, humanities or business people. business majors are usually vanilla with a chance of a relatively mainstream authority-based kink. a literature or philosophy major is probably into BDSM with fairly minimalistic equipment involved. engineers on the other hand, let me put it this way: the guy who died getting brutally fucked by a horse on camera was an engineer for Boeing. engineers wear chastity cages to work. software devs go crazy for gelbooru and deviantart. some of them may die from an accident involving an arduino-powered home built fucking machine. im in this sort of category myself, so let your freak flag fly. never let neopuritanism win. fuck it, show up in your dronification getup at the mall, society be damned.

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To date I dont think there's ever been a terf interaction quite as enlightening to their mindset as the one blog where the lady talked about feeling unsafe around a woman who did her a kindness. A woman this terf met online offered to help her go to a show or convention or something since she was going too and the terf couldn't transport herself there. And the online friend shows up and the terf is so very sure she's trans, though never gets any verification and from the terf's own account the woman never did ANYTHING bad. She drove her, gave her a place to sleep, helped her all along the way, never was predatory or bad or annoying or anything, by this terf's own account this person was kind and helpful, but the terf goes on and on about how she felt soooo unsafe just breathing the same fucking air as this woman. And its like, yeah, thats terfs, man. A woman she doesn't actually know is trans or not does a kindness that she literally asked for and yet! Its violence upon her apparently!

The only terf story that could be a better than that is when the terf went to a bar, started shit with a trans dude, the trans dude knocked her out, and online terfs decided it was trans women's fault.

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Trans women who really need affirmation are like the most easily manipulated people and it seems like everyone, including other trans women, know on some unconscious level how to use them for sex, moral absolution, social climbing, the list goes on. And it's very easy to make them go away when the game is up. Maybe this is why trans women talking about transmisogyny always makes people go apeshit, nobody wants to lose such a useful tool

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Hello, Mr. Gaiman!

As known from Ars Goetia, Shax is a Great Marquis of Hell, "with power over 30 legions of demons on evil horses", and Furfur is an Earl of Hell, ruler of 26 legions. But by 1941 they both are mere receptionists at the Admissions, although Shax retained her connections in the Council. Was there something that caused them to be demoted, or did they have no titles at all in this version of Hell?

Thank you!

Things like the Ars Goetia get written by credulous humans. If you were Furfur and you'd wound up talking to some humans, are you going to tell them you're working a desk with little opportunity for advancement, or that you're an Earl of Hell and ruler of 26 legions, and wishing that you'd also thrown in the evil horses?

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the moon is a lesbian and she hates terfs

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fuck it *transfems your luka*

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It’s such a blessing to have somebody who backs you when your identity is challenged. I am so grateful for the people who have shown me the incredible strength of their own confidence, and for those who believed me when I told them who I am. #TransVisibility

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Spoilers for Barbie I guess

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No, Crowley forced a kiss on him. You know what kissing someone on the lips without their consent is called? Sexual assault. And I'm sure Aziraphale only "forgave" him for that because he's supposed to be an Angel. He was so clearly traumatised by that. Not liking being sexually assaulted is not homophobia.

what really hurts about aziraphale saying "i forgive you" is that it makes it sound like what crowley did was wrong. like crowley choosing to finally kiss him after 6000 years was a mistake. and you could just see crowley's heart getting crushed to pieces after hearing that. even a "i'm sorry" would have been better.

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she-ra is still so so funny to me like. as a concept

dreamworks/netflix/mattel: ok mr. stevenson, we’d like this reboot to be a fun kids show with a good story for the whole family and lots of nostalgia to bring in revenue for the franchise etc. sound good?

nate stevenson, planning a story in his head where pop culture icon & beloved 80s childrens hero She-Ra is a brainwashed christian imperialist soldier who has a sexuality crisis over her gay arch enemy for 5 seasons then kills god by kissing her: mhm yes absolutely

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did not think i would be coming back here but okay so heres the two things one i am alive for now two i am sorry for calling neil gaiman babygirl thats on me guys

#Thanks! You made my day!