musesmischief

[musesmischief]

🎶 Come with me and you’ll be in a world of pure imagination. 🎶

[musesmischief]

🎶 Come with me and you’ll be in a world of pure imagination. 🎶

[musesmischief]

🎶 Come with me and you’ll be in a world of pure imagination. 🎶

[musesmischief]

🎶 Come with me and you’ll be in a world of pure imagination. 🎶

#whoreticulture #magic 🍄 #psilocybe cubensis #golden teachers #too proud not to share #pure imagination #me #ginger #now back to my fae hollow with my wizard

[musesmischief]

Oh no! I'm sorry to read this.

Have a good break and take care of yourself.

Hopefully, you will be back soon enough.

😘⚘️

Thank you for your kind words.

I think that’s the biggest struggle for me in this honestly. I’m checking out because I don’t feel like I belong here and it’s hard for me to imagine coming back to find a new community I do belong in (because it feels like after 7 years on tumblr I would have found it if it was out there for me).

Something inside my brain would have to completely change for me to feel good feels here again. While I admit I struggle with black and white thinking this pain has been deepening for 6 months and is not getting better.

It’s really hard on me to keep coming back to see if I can kick it only to have to face that I can’t. It hurts just as viscerally as it did in the beginning and despite my logical brain trying to will my hurt out of existence I have to accept I made choices that altered the path I was on and that I don’t like the new path. As much as I hope the path will change in my absence, I’m really struggling to see it changing in a way that I’ll be able to return and thrive.

#thanks for all the kindness and loving words about my hiatus #maybe it will be a sabbatical and not a hiatus #but my head and heart are telling me I burnt it to the ground and should walk from the ashes now

[musesmischief]

On indefinite hiatus

May I highly recommend not shooting your shot with the person who leads a beloved network you are a part of because if and when they don’t feel anything for you (but they do with more than a few of your mutuals) it might crush your ability to exist within said network at all.

#not that anyone cares but… #I tried to be chill and strong and not hurt… but it hurts anyway #not good for my mental health here anymore #don’t shit where you eat #what the hell am I doing here? I don’t belong here. #rejection sensitive dysphoria sucks #congrats to the moots who made the grade #never would have tried if I didn’t think I had a shot the risk was calculated but man am I bad at math #muse’s musings

[musesmischief]

True or false, your favorite plant to grow produces something potentially edible to humans?

True

#*potentially edible is the key here #you have to decarboxylate first… then eat away #true or false #I can only answer true or false

[musesmischief]

T/F

You've been Poison Ivy for Halloween before

False

[musesmischief]

T or F?

you prefer coffee over tea but cocoa over coffee

True but False

[musesmischief]

True/False game. Make an assumption about me in my ask and I’ll tell you if its true or false. Go.

[musesmischief]

Naked garden update - 07.01.23

[musesmischief]

Naked garden update - 07.01.23

[musesmischief]

Friend: Do you want a whole square or half a square of chocolate?

Me: Oh, a whole one! *inhales chocolate* Edibles don’t do anything to me. I’m a weed rhinoceros.

Friend: That wasn’t THC, it was psilocybin...

And that’s the story of how I went to a wine tasting while microdosing mushrooms.

#muse’s musings

[musesmischief]

Hi! I don't know if you have shared before but what's your story with maestro-eros? How did you meet? And how was your journey of submission with him? Sorry if it's too personal

Hi there, Nonny! 👋🏻

I know I wrote about our story on my original blog that tumblr axed, but I don’t think anyone has ever asked on this blog. So thanks for asking! Saddle up, it’s kinda long.

How we met.

We met 20 years ago (this month actually! Our first date was August 3, 2003) when we worked together at theme park near our hometowns. He had just graduated and was working as a cook before leaving for college; I was a seventeen year old cashier that was lucky enough to be assigned to the same restaurant he worked in.

It was sorta like the movie Adventureland if it was filmed from the food service side and they had a water park. It was a pressure cooker of hormones packed with sixteen to eighteen year-olds working ten plus hour days at $5.50/hr with no overtime, and everyone was trying to hook up with everyone.

Another cook discovered I had a crush on @maestro-eros and promptly told him such. One night I was closing solo in a candy hut called the Sugar Shack when Maestro decided to stop by to ask if I had any plans for the night. Except I wasn’t actually alone, another coworker that had a crush on me had come to chat and was in the middle of giving me a foot rub. When I told Maestro I was free for the night our coworker knew he lost the game and slunk out the door like Homer in the bush.

When we got off work it was close to midnight on a Friday which meant everything was closed, so I had him drive us out to my favorite secluded trailhead in the woods where we spent the night in his car. I convinced him we should both call in sick to work and we spent the day at an art show in a park by the lake before having dinner. He’d just had his wisdom teeth out and couldn’t actually eat anything but he put on a good show for me. After dinner he asked if I wanted to go back to his place to which I happily agreed. 

We drove an hour deep into the woods (where I thought to myself more than a few times I’m either going to die or have a great time) to a town I never knew existed in. We snuck into his house since his Mom was asleep (and overnight guests weren’t welcome) and I’ll never forget looking up to see a large poster with all the names of God on it only to wonder if I’d made a huge mistake. We crept down to his room in the basement and he left to freshen up for fucking. For like 45 minutes and I almost fell asleep. Thankfully I didn’t fall asleep and we ended up having some really great sex before he drove me home at 4 in the morning.

We ended up banging like rabbits any chance we could get as he was moving away for college in two weeks. Managed to date on and off through college where we both went through the Greek system then lived together when it was time to get off campus.

How we got kinky

Elements of kink and BDSM were present pretty much from the get go even though we weren’t labeling it that way until our early 20s. When we met I had handcuffs, vibrators, and a dildo in my toy box so bondage, anal, and what we now would call forced orgasms were an easy gateway for us. One night close to the end of his freshman year after we’d been drinking I got bold and asked him to get rough with me. We found a fouton on the floor in a room of his Frat house and he held me down and fucked me hard. It was incredibly hot and then he slapped me for the first time. Hard. It shocked the both of us when I started crying and we took a bit to figure out how we wanted to explore that aspect of our dynamic. We were kids in Idaho with zero bdsm or kink resources so it definitely took some trial and error.

We really found our BDSM groove after we got married and had kids. Suddenly him being a dad unlocked this whole new Daddy side of him where being firm yet loving just made sense. We found tumblr, started playing more with impact and rope, and started connecting with other kinky people. In everyday life I am a very strong-willed, independent person so most of my submitting to him happens in specific moments of time and space where I can let all the other parts of life drop away. It’s not a 24/7 thing although we have little elements here and there to remind us that there is power exchanged between us. Our dynamic ebbs and flows as the seasons of our life take us along and we are always learning about ourselves and growing together.

Whew! Should have known this would be a long one. Congratulations if you read all of this and I hope it answered your ask!

#send asks to keep me company #asks #asked and answered #our stories #muse’s musings

[musesmischief]

Naked garden update - 07.01.23

#me #ginger #smile #whoreticulture #naked gardening #do stuff naked #naked garden lady #the tomato and fig are taller than me now! #my potatoes are flowering #peppers be pepping #need to spray for thrips tho 😒

[musesmischief]

What's your favorite thing to do if you have free time?

The act of creation.

Either by sewing, crafting, baking, calligraphy, , gardening, music, or dance. Taking the raw pieces of life and turning them into things that are greater than themselves feeds my soul.

#asks #asked and answered #send asks to keep my company while I’m flying solo for the weekend

[musesmischief]

If there is any way to be remotely objective about this ask: thinking strictly of tumblr (or similar equivalent sites you have tried) how are you different now (if all all) than you were than the day you first discovered tumblr?

“I'm so alone, Feel just like somebody else. Man, I ain't changed, but I know I ain't the same” - One Headlight, The Wallflowers

That line just was the first thing that popped into my head. The core of me is who I have always been, and while that is constant, I am always evolving and changing. My content style has gotten more refined, I’ve gotten very good at posing, and I have a confidence now that I didn’t hold in the same way when I started my tumblr. The alone part has to do with how many mutuals I’ve seen come and go and this place doesn’t feel like it used to, so that’s changed for me somewhat as well. I’ve grown a lot in my kink journey here as well, when I started my tumblr I never would have imagined threesomes, foursomes, and kink parties, but here we are!

#asks #asked and answered #send asks to keep me company