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Coming in strong with number one: HELL YES! Everything I've heard about young H makes me think I would've had a pretty major crush on her if I had been born the same year as her. Also, her personality was probably fairly similar and it's her personality that made me fall in love (although the fact that she's smoking hot doesn't exactly hurt)

30 random tc questions for when you miss them ♡

i'm yearning and i love these sets of questions that people make, so this is the result :> feel free to use these, and you can ask me some as well!

if your tc were the same age as you and studied in your class instead of teaching it, would you still have a crush on them?

what overused romance trope would you use to describe you and your tc?

pov: it's your tc's birthday. what are you giving them as a gift?

did you become a teacher's pet to get close to them?

what's the most embarrassing thing you've done in front of your tc?

have you ever been on a school field trip with them?

what are they like as a teacher? are they strict, laid-back, passionate, etc.?

do you find it difficult to hide your crush on your tc? have you ever done anything around them that made it obvious?

what do you think is the first thing that goes through their head when hearing your name?

if your tc saw you crying, how do you think they would react?

do you prefer their looks or personality? which made you fall for them first?

have you ever been jealous because your tc spent time with another student?

can you picture yourself staying in contact with them after graduation? if you are graduated, is this the case?

do you have a favorite outfit that your tc wears?

has having a crush on them had an impact on your grades?

what do you have in common with your tc? are your personalities similar, or are you polar opposites?

do you think you're their favorite student?

has your tc ever done something that made you upset or angry?

if your tc wasn't a teacher, what occupation do you think they would have?

has your tc ever given you a gift?

is there a color that you associate with them?

do you know if any of your classmates like your tc as well? can you see this being the case?

if you could call your tc a pet name, what would it be?

what's a song that you would use to describe them?

have you ever done something dumb to get their attention?

what are your interactions with your tc like? are you teasing with each other or strictly professional?

if you saw your tc outside of school, would you go up to them? how do you think they would react?

has your tc ever done anything that made you wonder if they knew about your feelings for them?

what do you think is their biggest fear?

if you found out that your tc was leaving your school, how would you feel? would it be easy for you to get over them?

#i'll add to this post randomly and just reblog my own versions #i miss her and i love her so much #<3

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Chatting with my tc can even turn a shitty day into a good one♥️♥️

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— The Laundress by Yehuda Halevi, Spanish-Jewish philosopher and poet

#wow #dear gods that's beautiful

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reblog if you’re a teacher crush blog!! i need more people to follow :)

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some thoughts.

I’ve kinda had enough of people saying that when you crush on a teacher, it’s a fetish. Yes, to some people that might be the case, some fantasy that is uniquely focused on a sexual manner. But to others, and most I might add, it is the occurrence of actual human feelings, raw emotion.

If there’s something I’ve learned over the years is that love happens, especially when you least expect it. I, for once, am more than aware of what stands between me and this crush of mine, of the consequences, of everything that makes it so “weird” to other people. But I did not ask to fall for anyone, I did not force my feelings, I did not wake up one day and decide I would have a crush on my teacher.

And sparing myself of any heartbreak or consequences on both ends, I have tried to get over him, just as I’ve done with my previous crushes and I’ve failed. It doesn’t get any easier just because “it’s a teacher” and you know why? Because I see him as a human being.

Take away his job, his title, his position, his authority. He is a human being that breathes and walks and speaks and dreams and feels and thinks. I’m not saying that his profession should be dismissed had I thought of “making a move” — which I will not, — but what so many people forget is that that person is a regular human being. Is there an age difference? Yes. Is it big? Small? Depends. I’m not condoning or encouraging anyone to put themselves or their teachers in dangerous positions, mind the circumstances, I’m just saying that those feelings aren’t always seen as a fetish or a joke. Those feelings are valid if they are pure.

And a crushing majority of us in the TC community know boundaries, know limits, know what to do and not to do. In this community we are not looking for people to tell us that we should go after it, that they love us and we should take the jump. We are looking for support, for a sense of belonging, for understanding. Being able to talk to people about something you have to keep for yourself most of the time takes a huge weight off your shoulders. To know that someone out there understands makes it a lot easier, because not a lot of people do.

I’m trying to say that our feelings are valid, just as everyone else’s are. I am not one to shame someone for the type of person they go after. I have my preferences, I find some things odd too, but it’s not my place to put someone down for anything. People need to understand that having a crush on a teacher DOES NOT mean we want to have sex with them, hurt them in any way, jeopardise their personal and professional lives. That is a generalisation and if I’m correct, we’ve been fighting pretty hard to put a stop to those.

You may not understand it or agree to it, and that’s fine, but I’m just asking for respect. Because having someone tell me that my feelings are “disgusting”, “a joke”, “stupid”, hurts a hell of a lot more than people think. These feelings are not something we take lightheartedly, it’s something that weighs heavy upon us most of the time. And I can tell you, nobody in the world would willingly want to put themselves through the hopelessness and the blur that we feel sometimes.

It is not a choice, please know that. A choice, however, is how we deal with it. And as I’ve said, most of us do not act upon what we feel because we respect both ends and don’t want to hurt the other person in any way. We know our limits.

Don’t make us seem like helpless little girls who quote Lolita for fun and draw “Future Mrs. _________” in their notebooks. Validate our feelings and don’t turn someone’s emotions into a couple of laughs.

#An addition: how come it's always the older man and the younger girl? This kind of adds to the sexual-power-dynamic perception some people #have and honestly it's just disappointing. #We see them as human beings which is how we get feelings for them in the first place. There's a difference between thinking someone #is a tilf and crushing on or falling in love with them. #I am in love with H for her personality and her mind. #NOT because I think she's sexy or I desire her in that way #(the romantic feelings came first and the sexual ones a little later) #but because of how she is and how she makes me feel. #I agree with the top post 100%. I do not have a fetish. I'm not something to laugh at. Because the truth is: #I'm in love <3. #I'm in love with H and whether people do or don't understand and whether they judge me or not - that doesn't change.

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How it went <33333

So when I saw her (she was beautiful as always but especially then) we said hi and talked about our summer plans before we got to the classroom. Also, turns out her bday was recently so I'm going to ask when it is when we're back in September :)

When I was venting, she told me she talked about me to her other friend who was recently at the local trans pride (to gain more perspective) and he knows a bunch of charities she's gonna email me about. It was really nice and she comforted me a lot. I gave her tea and homemade biscuits and the card, and idk why she seemed surprised that I made her biscuits when last week I asked what her favourite was, but it was so goddamn cute!!!!!!! We had more to talk about though, so I asked to return at the end of the day.

At the end of the day, I talked about my crippling dysphoria and she was very lovely and understanding, especially considering she's never been through this. She talked ab how her partner gets self conscious so doesn't go shirtless even though he has no tatas (unlike me) and said "you won't be the only boy wearing a shirt this summer" which kjvjybjvhybgknhh how fucking cute! and the validation as well! She also told me that almost as soon as I left she ate a biscuit that I made for her and said it was really nice.

To top it all off, she gave me some scrabble letters which spell out my name and said it was because I wouldn't be hearing it much this summer and when other people won't say it I can make it myself! You guys!!!! Literally so sweet. I love it so much. I'm gonna keep them forever and I will look at them when I feel like shit. Also, we talked about Scrabble and we both love Scrabble so maybe when it's the last day or so I can ask her for a game at lunch or something? :)

Sad news though: she's not gonna be a teacher next year. She's definitely working at my school, but as some kind of teaching assistant type role because her illness has made her so unreliable. It's really sad. She's so amazing at her job and I know she loves it so much so it sucks balls that she can't do it. She won't have a classroom either, and at the moment teachers get paid jackshit so being on a low pay grade won't be doing her any favours. But, I'm really hopeful about the academic year after that. I will have left (and will still be in contact with her I hope) but she will hopefully be a teacher again and have a classroom again and can tell me all about it.

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Things I'm gonna try to do tomorrow if they're not too sus

Tell her she's pretty or if not then compliment her outfit

Ask her for an arm wrestle (aka trick her into holding my hand and getting to see her competitive side)

Give her the gifts and maybe say some cringy stuff about how she's really helped

Some normal stuff I'm gonna do is:

Vent about my crippling dysphoria

Ask for her advice on whether or not to come out in the workplace

Vent and ask for advice about dealing with being stuck at home with my parents pretty much all summer

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Was going to give H her gift today but she had to stay at home and look after her son (side note: aww). This means that I'm seeing her for the last time on Wednesday. I emailed her and asked if she'd be okay to look over my poetry earlier today (wouldn't choose the ones that are obviously about her ofc). No reply as yet.

My friend had a really bad experience with racism in the workplace during our work experience week. H is going to talk to her about it at lunch, which is just peak her and peak perfection. I love how helpful and amazing she is to other students.

However, this makes me insanely jealous because what if she gets a close relationship with my friend as well and I'm not special or different? These feelings have obviously made me really guilty. I shouldn't envy my friend who's in a shit situation and is turning to H for help and support. These feelings are irrational and I'm not going to act on them (except when I cried earlier but it's okay). This friend knows I'm in love with H and keeps reassuring me that I'm different and stuff, which is nice. I've tried to support her in any way that I personally can, which is not a lot, but I hope it does something.

Overall, I'm trying to be positive and find this just another trait ab H to appreciate. The jealousy can get to us all at times but my friends reassure me and tell me that I'm her favourite, I'm different to other people etc.

I'm really sad about not seeing H for 6 weeks but I just need to take stock and remember that I'll be going on holiday, working a job I really enjoy and H will be getting a much needed break. Also, I get irrational fears and jealousy when I don't see H, but seeing her on Wednesday is really going to calm me down, and I can give her this really heartfelt card I wrote.

Will give a full update soon. Have a good day/night!

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okay can the TCC reach consensus that handwriting compliments are insanely sweet and adorable?! happened to me and I have never been the same lmao

thinking about the time he told me that my writing was very nice🦋🦋🦋

#and H has beautiful writing too #I simp over her writing sometimes #especially the letter 'a' #teacher #teacher crush #teacher crush community #student x teacher #female tc #tc community #tcc #tc blog #tcc blog #mlw tcc blog #mlw tcc

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How it really went <3

So we talked about quite a few things, but a highlight was when she said "that's sweet" when I said I was scared about something. I shared that I wanted to be an English teacher and that I would just steal all her tricks that I liked and she said she thought I would be great as long as I could "try to be as insane as possible". :)))

Urgh she's so gorgeous. After school, I walked past the English office and found out her favourite cookie (which I'm going to make her as an end of year present) and she smiled at me :D I love her so much. She always knows just what to say to chill me out somehow and I love everything she does :))))))

I'm sure the whole English department is sick of me poking my head through the door, interrupting their conversations and deliberately breaking the one way system to look in there and see *sighs dreamily* someone.

Sadly, I won't get to see H for the rest of this week AND next week, and the week after is the last week. I'll try to see her because I'm lowkey dreading being with my family for 6 weeks, and to say goodbye for the year as well. I'm not looking forward to 6 weeks without her WHATSOEVER, but I've dealt with 13 weeks before so I won't be out of my depth.

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How it went

So I saw H sitting in the English office at various points during the day, which really motivated me for my exam (which I'm predicting I aced)! She's so beautiful.

Sadly, she left early because she was exhausted from the week (which I get). This meant that I couldn't see her. At first, I didn't know why and had a massive cry in a field. However, I sent her an email asking to reschedule and went to a cafe for an end-of-exams celebratory latte (which is where I did summer work last year and will do this year). That cleared my mind. Went home, made tea and did other stuff.

I opened my school email just in case and guess who had emailed me? She said to come find her at break or lunch on Monday and explained why she wasn't there. She also said she hoped my exams went well. I was fucking ecstatic and I have a really shitty weekend, which this will help me deal with. Will give you all an update on Monday.

Here's my reply to her, verbatim (except a name censor):

Hello,

Thanks for the clarification and going home when exhausted sounds like a good idea (controversial I know /s). Hope you can have a restful weekend. I'm glad Monday works.

Thanks very much, L

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seeing H tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!

Okay so I emailed her on Wednesday asking for a catchup and she said tomorrow. I've had exams but they end tomorrow just before the school day ends which means that I can mentally relax (although I may act a lil crazy around her from exam brain). Because it's a French exam, hopefully I can convince her to talk some French around me (she speaks French *moans*)

I'll be seeing her at the end of the day and afterwards I'm going to a lil cafe to treat myself. Will give you all a full report :)

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I just want it to be hot

because I'm best

when I'm in love

and I'm in love with you

#G.U.Y. by lady gaga #thirst hits different when you're in love with them #mood #teacher #teacher crush #teacher crush community #student x teacher #female tc #tc community #tcc #tc blog #tcc blog #mlw tcc blog #mlw tcc

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the person you can spend endless hours with and still never get tired of >>>

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you remind me of sunsets and stars and moonlight

#okay but this is the gist of my poetry #she's otherworldly in every way: her beauty; her kindness; her intelligence; i could go on but i should stop this tag somewhere

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saw H today and she was amazing :D

So I asked her earlier this week if I could see her, and we decided today at break (right after my maths exam oof) but she forgot due to Long COVID Brain. When I saw her walk past on the way to a lesson, though, we decided to do it again at lunch <3

She said to meet outside the English office and we'd walk to her old classroom (where she had to be next). On the way there, we just talked about nothing, I asked about how she was doing. I saw some people from my classes though (which was embarrassing bc she reminded them of the one way system and I stood there like a dumbass).

When we got to her classroom, I summarised what was going on (feeling anxious and weird about my parents' wedding). She's obviously had this happen twice, and was able to help me and provide some comfort/reassurance. Some tumblr-worthy moments are:

she told me that I was important and that she only forgets me bc of brain fog and she would never otherwise

I made some light banter about her chewing gum

she was perfect as always

I made a comment preceded by "it's probably the autism" and she said "I love how you were just like 'it's probably the autism'" and then said something about how it's a massive part of me and shapes my life. that was an OMG moment because I pass as neurotypical very well (in school at least) so people underestimate it's effect and tell me I'm making a big deal out of it. she's one of the only people I know who understands this

my teachers have been banned from using my name + pronouns but she still did <333333333

Full timeline of everything that's happened since she returned is in the works! Exams are on rn though, so pls be patient.

Love y'all :)

#also im thinking about where to go to college (which isn't the same as us college) and she gives me advice when i ask which i love #teacher #teacher crush #teacher crush community #student x teacher #female tc #tc community #tcc #tc blog #tcc blog #mlw tcc blog #mlw tcc

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help

so I keep walking past the English teachers' lil office area and she's usually in there, sat at a computer, and really fucking adorable aaaaaaaaaaa

also I was walking past her today with my 2 friends, and one of them literally ran after her and was like "please return to us! please teach us again" and honestly I think she said she doesn't get a say in that but dear godddddddd I hope we have her again and I was not expecting my friend to do that lol

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