“So the doc said I have ____ Seizures. What does that actually mean?” An Updated Cheat Sheet
So you’ve been diagnosed with epilepsy. Great… what does that even mean?
“Epilepsy is a seizure disorder,” meaning you’re brain is more likely to send off mixed signals, than the next guy. But that’s alright, ‘cause I’m going to lay down the basics of what you need to know. Lol.
First, let’s get this straight: everyone is capable of having a seizure. You stick lil’ Timmy infront of a high speed strobe for long enough, sooner or later his brain will say “What the hell am I looking at? I can’t keep up!” And he’ll wind up on the floor.
Folks who have Epilepsy, like you and I, are no different. We see things, hear things, feel, and taste, just like any other human being. Okay? What I’m trying to get at here is you are not a freak of nature. You are not a mutant. Sadly, no, you do not have special powers to set objects aflame. (I know. That bummed me out too.) No! Instead, you’re just a normal dudelet - just chillin with the rest of the human race.
But what does makes us different, is that we have a lower seizure tolerance than most. That’s it. I know right? When you say it like that, it doesn’t sound like a big deal. That’s cause it isn’t. What is a big deal, are the seizures themselves, which I’ll get to in a hot minute.
So what IS a seizure? Great question. “… a sudden surge of electrical activity in the brain,” says The Epilepsy Foundation (epilepsy.com). Another, but equally scientific, definition describes it as, “the workers in your brain going, ‘What the actual fuck are we dealing with here?’ And proceeding to lose their shit,”
Pretty much, something - be it lights, lack of sleep, stress, booze, high pitched beeping, the sight of toast, whatever - will set off this seizure. This is called a Trigger. Triggers are things that our brains don’t generally enjoy. They tend to me things that could give a person headaches, or migraines; or make you feel out of sorts if you have to deal with them for too long. It is possible for some to “delay” a seizure, or even stave it off completely. Not everyone can do this though. I know someone who’s been able to prevent her seizures by sleeping with a foot on the floor. I (sometimes) can push one off if I feel one coming on, by either her being physically active or focusing on something solid, to remind myself im not floating away. But as I said, not everyone can do it. It depends on what type of seizures you have, and how in tune you are with your body. I only figured out my method after years of experimenting.
Anyway, so we got the basics. Back to….
Seizures! There are two major categories from which we have a variety of flavors.
There’s Focal and Generalized. The main difference between the two is how they start. Easy enough, right? (I’ve heard tell of a third classification “Unknown Onset”, but we’ll get into that later)
First we have Focal Onset: Focal seizures happen in specific parts of the brain - Sort of like a controlled mob.
Focal Onset Aware (aka Simple Partial): Im gonna be frank with you here. There are like a million types of Simple Partial Seizures. I probably won’t hit every kind, and I apologize if I’ve skipped someone out there. Ya know. My bad. Nonetheless I’ll do my best.
Simple Partials are pretty cool is that you are awake for them. Oh yeah. That’s right. You can have a seizure and be totally cognizant. These are the ones many refer to as “Auras”. Yeah, you know that “warning” you get before blacking out? That my friend is most likely a simple partial seizure. They’re like little seizures. Aw cute, right. No! They’re a pain in the ass! (Ehem. Apologies) anyway, as I said before, they can come in a whole bunch of types. To save time, I’m just going to give you a list of the effects:
Some people experience Deja Vu, out of body experiences, weird tastes in your mouth, (there’s emotional/psychological kinds) that’s make you have intense sorrow, or a sense of impending doom, others make you randomly filled with a god-like rage.
Others make your hands, fingers, toes, legs, etc twitch.
Some make it IMPOSSIBLE to find the right words/understand words/even read, and you suddenly feel illiterate and as if English is your second language despite being brought up in the US. (I’m not emotionally invested or anything).
Honestly, for these, you really should look it up yourself. I’ll be doing a separate post just for them, but nonetheless. It’s too important, and it’s one that truly is unique to the person.
Focal Onset Unaware (aka Complex Partial):
These are like simple partial seizures, but you’re NOT awake. Apparently many experience lip smacking during it. I wouldn’t know, because I’m out for the count. The one thing I do know is they can go into Generalized Seizures. This is not common however, that’s just the case for me.
MOVING RIGHT ALONG
Next we have Generalized: “Generalized” Seizure are seizures that effect both sides of your brain. *Imagine a stray cluster of teenage neurons are having a house party, and EVERYONE shows up.*. [Neurons are the little electric dudes that’s race around your head and make everything work/tell different parts of your brain what’s going on]
Tonic-Clonic (Motor): This is the big nasty one that people believe all seizures look like. The person loses consciousness, and convulses (shakes).
What It’s Like: They don’t hurt while it happens; but I’ll be honest with you, it can feel like you’ve been hit by a bus coming out of it. Basically, you’ve been clenching up and releasing muscles you didn’t even know you had over and over really really quickly. It’s like being super out of shape, and then made to do a triathlon athlete’s complete workout circuit in 2-5 minutes. At a weird angle, so you probably get dinged up along the way. So yeah. I’d describe it as waking up to limp noodles for tendons and joints, and fiery rocks for muscles. It’s sorta like how you’d imagine the hero of an action film would ACTUALLY feel like if the scenario were real.
Absence: these are super quick, but can happen MANY many times a day. They’re so quick that they’re almost impossible to notice. You stare for a few seconds, and snap out of it. I know, not very scary. What sucks is that you can lose time with them. So one second you’ll be lovin life, and suddenly, black, you forgot what you were saying, and a whole bunch of things that happened recently. This all comes back though, eventually.
Clonic Seizures: Unlike Tonic Clonic, these big and nasties happen while you’re awake. (Fun fact: Tonic is the part of the seizure where you stiffen and fall unconscious. Clonic is where you convulse). So needless to say, these can hurt. Actually, they do hurt. A lot. I’ve only had a couple in my time, thankfully, but it feels like everything’s described earlier for Tonic-Clonics, except you are wide awake the entire time to enjoy every bump, scratch, and uncontrolled spasm. Oh, and it feels like there are electric shocks going through you. At least it did for me. These tend to last a few minutes.
Tonic Seizures: these tend to happen in your sleep, but they don’t have to necessarily. The muscles in your legs, arms, or abdomen tense up for about 20 seconds. It’s relatively harmless, but can mean for some serious loss of balance if it happens while standing up. (Also they’re just a pain, and can wear you out, honestly)
Atonic: These I’ll admit, can be spooky. Basically your muscles go limp for about 15 seconds at a time. So you might now be able to hold your head up; or suddenly you drop everything cause your arms go out. It’s not fun. It’s actually less than 15 seconds, but some people can have a bunch of these in a row. If its bad enough, some may consider wearing a helmet, if a fall hazard arises.
Myoclonic: Muscles will jerk as it electricuted. Apparently these seizures can start in the same part of the brain as Atonic, and many who have one have been known to experience the other.
So that’s what you missed on Glee! Any questions, comments, moans or groans, shoot em up my way! If anyone has any knowledge of Tonic Clonic Seizures, id love to hear it! And if I missed anything, please let me know!!
Hope this can be of some help for you newbies out there, (or for you other folks like I who never got the full story on their diagnoses til much later lol)
And don’t worry friend. I know Epilepsy is rough. I know it sounds scary, but you’re going to be fine. You’ve got an entire community who has your back :) So hang in there Kiddo!
Sincerely,
Captain Fantastic Spastic
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It hit me.
June 5th, 2017. It has been 18 days since I have had my seizure.
18 days since my whole life changed.
I feel so corny when I say that because it was my first one and I have felt totally fine ever since physically.
A lot has changed mentally. I have always been a very anxious person. Every little thing I over-analyze and think the worst. Now, any slight feeling in my body I have to stop and think if Ive ever felt that before and if its normal.
I have gone back to work, but I'm still nervous to be there.
What has really messed with me mentally is the whole no driving thing. I am 21 years old. I have had my license for about 5 years. My freedom has been taken from me. It also doesn't help that I have no friends that I hang out with here in North Carolina. Im from Long Island and all of my friends are still there.
I am going crazy. I can't drive anywhere. I can't drive to work, I can't drive to the bank, or to the store, or just go for a joy ride.
My freedom is gone. This war inside my head is so tiring. I need to breathe. I need a change. I need to DRIVE.
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Life goes on.
I am terrified to go back to work.
My seizure happened at work. Im not saying it will happen again at work, but the chance still being there is so scary to me.
I have always been a home body and when I moved from Long Island to North Carolina it was really hard for me to go out and explore and get a job.
I have always loved working with kids. I am the 3rd child out of 6 and there is a 6 year age gap between me and the next set of 3 siblings. I have just been surrounded by younger kids for forever and always helped my mom with the babies.
Ive babysat ever since I can remember. I volunteered at my church daycare, I nannied right out of high school and I have always just babysat for everyone.
When I moved, I didn't get a job right away because we were constantly going from NC to LI all the time. My dads friend who he knew from the NYPD had retired and moved to our town in NC and he brought his child to this daycare/preschool and knew I loved children and they were looking to hire so he recommended I go there.
I went and applied in December and basically left with the job but I asked that I not start until January because we were constantly going back and forth. I started and instantly loved it. I started with small hours and now, a year and 4 months later I'm the manager. My boss is like an aunt, she is family. I love her. She held me during my seizure. She stayed with my dad mom and I at the hospital.
I am allowed to go back to work but I have limitations. I can not be a lone with the children and I can not pick them up.
My boss is willing to let me do just behind the computer stuff and only come in 4 hours once a week.
Why am I SO SCARED? I need to get past this. Someone please give me advice ASAP.
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Seizure girl.
Thursday May 18th, 2017.
All day I felt super spacey. Im looking at you, but I totally forget what we are talking about. Im at work all day. I work at a drop in play facility (daycare) Around 4:05 PM, I’m clocking a family out and everything goes black.
“You had a seizure you are okay you had a seizure.”
Black again.
I’m on an ambulance and I see my dad walk on.
“I’m right here Katie, your’e okay don't worry I’m right behind you.”
Spacey moment’s from that ride. My tongue hurt really bad. I bit it up pretty badly.
Black again.
I’m in the hospital and my mom dad and my boss are there. I have an i.v. in my arm & I feel like I can sleep at any second.
I was severally dehydrated, but that didn't cause my seizure. I need a cat scan. I have 5+ earring on both ears. You can't wear those when you have a cat scan. All of them come out.
I get the cat scan and get wheeled back to my room. I wait about 10 minutes for the results.
Results are in: All clear.
Why did I have this seizure? So many questions. No answers.
I’m released and go home. My mom stops and gets me ice cream for my tongue. It is cut up badly. I go home to my puppies and siblings.
My phone has a million text. “I’m okay” I say and turn it off. This is hard to process. I just had a seizure at work. I just had a seizure.
Will I ever have another one? I’m tired.
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