Playing the first song I could memorize for my new Kalimba. Song of Time from Legend of Zelda: Ocarina of Time
I am so surprised by the fact that just I hit 101 followers. It boggles my mind, honestly.
In other news, I will not be posting for a little while as my mom has suddenly passed away. She was the kindest and strongest woman I was so blessed to have as a mom. She was my best friend. We had been through so much together along with my brother. My older cousin had told me today that we three (mom, bro and I) were such a self sufficient unit. We had each other.
I wish my mom knew how much of an impact she had on this world. Her friends, who had not stayed in touch over the past year due to their own lives, have contacted me and told me how much they loved my mom and they are devastated, shocked, and so sympathetic and supportive. Her friend and former director sent us multiple gift cards and her current place of work’s board sent a gift card too. We received flowers (which is not a typical Jewish tradition but my mom was never traditional). My friend even sent me money after she felt an urge to message me.
Our family has been so supportive as well. My 88year old grandfather is going to be burying his youngest daughter soon. My mom was 51, almost 52 next month. My mom came home on my aunt’s fourth birthday, just four days after my mom was born. This year will be tough. I am grateful to have had the time that I did with her. Had I known the last three weeks I was caring for her at home were the last, I would have done things differently. I wouldn’t have studied as hard. We have at least always told each other ever night and ever phone conversation that we love each other, it was simply true.
I was holding her hand in those last moments, my aunt in my room, my brother and uncle outside trying to eat and care for themselves. I think my mom knew it was me brushing her hair back, telling her I love you. I don’t regret that moment of being there, neither does my aunt. My brother does wish he was but I think my mom wanted to spare him that. I am also spiritual and I had asked my grandmother and great-grandmother to come and care for my mom. To remove her from her pain, carbon monoxide from all of the cancer that had so rapidly taken over her body.
Even though it was Covid and there were strict rules in place they were bent in those 24 hours for us. My aunt and uncle were allowed to be with my mom too. My oldest aunt and my grandfather were given a one time visit, my grandmother had died of the same disease and situation only nine years ago. Cancer sucks. I just wanted to express my pain in words as I write a lot.
The pain is going to be with me for a long time, but I am happy that she is no longer in pain.
Thank you for reading this,
(P.S. feel free to share your cancer stories and pain. We are never alone in this chaotic world.)
SessRin wedding moment. Rin just needs to close her eyes for a moment to reassure herself everything is real and Sesshoumaru kisses her temple.
Hades fanart coloured! I am still working on blending with copic markers! Oof! This Hades belongs to #loreolympus by Rachel Smythe.
It looks way better irl but I can’t even figure out how to bring it to it a better natural original because the photo was meh of the picture
All Hades dreams of is a life with Persephone.
A life where they have children together.
A life where she calls him by his name.
A life where she loves him.
His dream is so simple and I want so badly for his dreams to come true.
But… at this point in the story, that dream feels very unattainable. While we, the readers, know that they end up together, Hades doesn’t know that yet. He doesn’t think he can have that kind of happiness. But worst of all, he doesn’t think he deserves this kind of happiness.
So… I understand why he wakes up sad.