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Do you kids know how hard it is to hyper fixate on shit as a goddamn adult?? Sorry boss I know you need those files done but I’m too busy giggling like a goddamn school girl over a fictional man

#i’m so in love with gale dekarios of bg3 it’s unhealthy omfg #he’s EVERYTHING #also obsessed with astarion and halsin #this trio of men ruining my life #bg3 #favorite

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version of spn where dean is openly bisexual the entire time and definitely fucks a priest during a job and sam is does his judgmental little "dude" and dean is like "i already went to hell once man,, what's the worst that could happen" and everytime there's a new bad guy or apocalypse sam is like "this is bc you fucked a priest" and eventually he says it in front of Cas who does his little squint and head tilt and just

"You what?"

#This made me laugh omg #amazing #supernatural #bisexual dean winchester #fic #team free will

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I’m done keeping my composure.

Sorry, this will be a LOADED post! (And I’ll be repeating the points others have made)

for real, to everyone being nasty and telling heartbroken fans that “Dean was always supposed to die get a grip you’re just butthurt etcetera etcetera—” F you royally.

How dare you police the brutal feelings that’s been embroiling us since the Finale That Must Not Be Named aired. 

The show you think you all watched, the show you all believe was the same SPN from Season 1-4, changed at some point. Kripke wrote his original vision, put it to screen, saw it through in S5 as he intended, and closed the door on that era.

In 2008, Supernatural was adopted and inherited. As you know, there was a supreme paradigm shift post-Kripke era. The show FLOURISHED (we won’t talk about Gamble thanks). It evolved, transformed, grew beyond trauma-induced self-worthlessness and toxic masculinity and endless death and hegemonic social ideals and conservatism and repressive anti-revolutionary ideas. Castiel, the iconic favourite and beloved staple of the series portrayed by Misha Collins, was introduced in Season 4 as the core lead character, and he ushered in a brand new era of Christian mythos that SPN took advantage of. Longevity SKYROCKETED. Audiences were INTERESTED. SPN amassed an incredibly groundbreaking fanbase infused by non-nuclear principles. A massive subversive wave began, fighting the Status Quo of the times since 2008. It’s precisely why such an abysmal ending to a show of extensive Freud-Jungian metanarratively meta META complex stature and social POWER will render us totally and unbearably broken for years to come.

Point is, DEAN WINCHESTER NO LONGER WANTED TO DIE. HE WANTED TO LIVE. HE WANTED TO SIT ON THE BEACH, PLUNGE HIS TOES IN THE SAND, AND SIP UMBRELLA DRINKS WITH HIS BROTHER AND HIS BEST FRIEND. He said this in Season 13. And then, a season later, he told the ghost of his long-deceased father — the source of his deep-running trauma and the figure of self-reductive authoritarianism permeating his arc since Season 1 — after being questioned why he didn’t pursue the Nuclear Fam, that he already has his own: his brother Sam, his adopted child Jack, and Cas.

Dean’s best friend Cas. Oh god, Cas, who made his inevitably permanent mark on Dean’s soul beyond allyship. Castiel, renamed to Cas, God’s -iel removed by Dean. Dean, the human spark that lit the fire of pre-existing autonomy in the inherently rebellious angel who was, this entire time, the catalyst for free will in God The Writer’s puppet show. Their friendship set on goddamn fire. I can also write paragraph upon paragraph about my love for Cas while devastated tears stream down my face, but I digress—

Cas’ romantic love for Dean pushed our main Heart of SPN to love himself. Love is free will. Free will is also love. Of note, Cas’ love confession in 15x18 was supposed to offset something so vastly important and fundamental…to maybe (read: most likely) pull the trigger on SELF-TRUTHS in conjunction with free will. And The Great Anticipated Follow-Up to the episode penned by the passionate Berens should have included (read: seemed like it was going to be) Dean, closeted trauma survivor in love with his best friend, being given the opportunity to do it right: to SPEAK HIS TRUTH, and then that very singular opportunity was STOLEN so grossly. After poring over it for days, I refuse to believe we made their years-long story up out of thin air, spun it out of fantastical-delusional dream cotton candy, because we DIDN’T. IT WAS REAL.

As I said in another post: “I’ve just been feeling physically ill for the past >40 something hours with the terrible knowledge that 19/20 undid years of vital progression towards healthy interdependence, autonomy, and a positive endgame, where Sam, Dean and Cas close the ring of found family in final empowering self-fulfillment…where Dean, no longer repressed and set free, is able to use his words and speak his truth as a queercoded trauma survivor, henceforth confirming and self-affirming his own bisexuality since S1 by reciprocating — by telling Cas that he always loved him, too, loved him endlessly, which would have altogether divested Supernatural of its cult status and catapulted it into global worldwide significance as the longest running sci-fi genre show in American broadcasting history that actually dared to defy and, by proxy, empower LGBTQ2IA+ everywhere who found profound personal meaning in Destiel through VALIDATION,” — found themselves mirrored in Dean and Cas’ respective character journeys individually and as each other’s queer love interests.

THIS IS WHY DEAN WASN’T MEANT TO DIE.

THEY WERE SO ESSENTIAL, NOT JUST TO THE OVERARCHING STORY AND HEALTHY INTERPERSONAL THEMATICS OF MODERN SPN, BUT ALSO TO THE SOULS OF THOUSANDS OF PEOPLE ACROSS THE WORLD WHO FOLLOWED THEIR JOURNEYS, HOPED FOR THEM, ASPIRED TO BE LIKE THEM, TREASURED THEM, WEEPED FOR THEM, AND FOUGHT FOR THEM, LIKE YOU AND ME.

Heck, how could anyone think Sam Winchester had a well-deserved characteristic ending? He didn’t. Dean’s brother was shafted so badly. He stopped hunting when seasons ago, he had canonically accepted that he no longer wanted an apple pie life. He simply…turned the lights off in a resoundingly empty bunker and left — abandoning his dead brother’s room — never to return (he did return later to get the Impala, family photos etc, I mean this symbolically)…as if — dare I say it — Supernatural itself eerily told us, in the negative-spaced pitch blackness, that the organic show and the wonderfully complex, matured characters we’ve grown to love weren’t going to survive or be revisited…that it was all going to perish, and that they no longer gave a single shit about their own show, which, to me, is the worst cardinal sin, because how dare they throw Team Free Will, an immovable and indomitable and passionate found family they built from the ground up, a found family CHOCK FULL TO THE BRIM OF LOVE AND LIFE RAGING AGAINST THE AUTHORITARIAN MACHINE IN ORDER TO ACHIEVE FREE WILL, under the bus no matter who is to blame. Growth was stomped on.

Then Sam married a faceless wife who wasn’t his textually established (and deaf) love interest Eileen, named his son Dean Jr., and grew old miserably, still mourning the passing of his older brother, shaken and sombre. Back to square one. IT WAS ALL ANTITHETICAL, even OUTSIDE a shipping context, and I ripped my hair out at this point in sheer disbelief.

This 15x20 ending would have fit somewhere between S4-7. Now? IT DOESN’T FIT. IT’S A JAGGED PUZZLE PIECE THAT DOESN’T BELONG ANYWHERE. IT’S THE FOREBODING UNKNOWN STRANGER IN ITS OWN LAND, BOTH LITERALLY AND FIGURATIVELY. This kind of ending was basically an illogical, unsound cluster of metastasized cells that, to me, ruined the viability of previous seasons to sustain bold praise and respect and dignity and rewatches and classic nostalgia in such insidious ways.

Dean Humanity Winchester and Cas, after everything they’ve been through, were silenced and lost in death, ripped apart from each other, unable to love each other the way they deserved, because of disappointing, vile incompetency and homophobia. The greatest love story ever told, again obliterated in less than 60 hollow minutes.

You know what this tells your audience, CW SPN? Death without self-growth is the way to go, and no one is allowed to forge their own path to freedom.

HOW INSULTINGLY HARMFUL IS THAT?

I don’t think I’ll ever stop grieving.

We all deserve answers.

#Yo I wrote this 2 1/2 years ago #THE WINCHESTERS has extended out a hand to this post dare I say #and is willing to do something about it #my stuff #my meta #supernatural #destiel #I was bitter here. STILL AM. Reblogged to remind myself but also others why SPN broke my heart #yet can The Winchesters pick up the pieces? who knows?? #deancas #15x20

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Oof I have so many inboxes to clear, some of them old but some of them kind and some of them intriguing. 🥺

#still love yall who followed me regardless #thank you #my stuff #ask

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so. the idea that dean wanted to believe happiness was possible for at least one version of him (and his family) means that actually he wasn't happy with the way his story ended. and to me that means there's still a chance for him to get his happy ending and we all know who that happy ending is

#the winchesters #my words were said here #dean winchester #and like #I still sit here and think #because it totally flabbergasts me #that Destiel actually *is* canon #and yet was shot to Hell immediately #????? #this can be a redux #deancas #supernatural #character development #awesome meta

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DEAN WINCHESTER IN THE WINCHESTERS 1x13 - HEY, THAT'S NO WAY TO SAY GOODBYE

#goodness gracious #supernatural #dean winchester #Jensen Fucking Ackles #john winchester #the winchesters #MY MAN

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i hope dean keeps meddling i hope he’s a huge problem to jack i hope he doesn’t follow heaven’s rules at all i need him to come back for real

#INDEEDINDEEDINDEEDINDEEDINDEEDINDEEDINDEE— #dean winchester #the winchesters #supernatural #Time to read into shit again and get let down…or this time…be picked back up potentially #my loins have been girded #awesome meta #ish

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i'm sorry i'm never getting over this... cas went to superhell and dean went to mega gay heaven... star crossed lovers...

#please oh my god #DESTIEL #the bane of my life #deancas #supernatural #the winchesters

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The Winchesters 1x13 — ‘Hey, That’s No Way to Say Goodbye’

#BITCH #MY MAN PULLED THROUGH #IT’S THE DEAN WINCHESTER WE FUCKING DESERVED #THAT HE DESERVED #I’m literally— #I have had trauma from SPN and The Winchesters has literally OPENED HEALING #and there may be no peace for Dean yet!!!!!!!! #HE HAS SO MUCH LOOSE THREADS #LEFT #and yes #this is not spn #but it’s a start #and tbh Dean may be finding his own closure — his redux — through this past. Full circle?! A negative into positive ENDGAME #!!!!! #awesome meta #adjacent #the winchesters #dean winchester #supernatural #favorite #my stuff #in tags #I continue to remain cautiously optimistic but yeaaaaah uh this is looking good #JACK RETURNED #DEAN ACKNOWLEDGED FAMILY #I’M SICK

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hi hiii can we talk abt how dean's parting message to his AU parents and their friends is literally FREE WILL. you now have the freedom to write your own story. it's thee ending team free will deserved, it's the ending we deserved to see in 15x20. family and friends together, with their whole lives ahead of them and the freedom to choose! that was literally jensen (and dean) saying fuck that finale. and also ! jack tells dean it's time for dean to return to his story too. because dean's story is also not over. dean's got some writing to do.

#THIS????????? #FREE WILL HAS RETURNED #the deceased meta writer in me CAME BACK TO LIFE ALBEIT CAUTIOUS AF?????!!!!! #WTF #awesome meta #i never thought I would use this tag ever again holy hell #the winchesters #dean winchester #supernatural

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The Winchesters — 1x13 ‘Hey, That’s No Way to Say Goodbye’

#oh my god I’m sobbing #dean winchester #the winchesters #i refuse to clown #to get back into this #BUT THE IMPLICATIONS OF WHAT THIS ALL MEANS?????!!!

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he's so dramatic

#OH MY GOD #MY BOY DEAN IS BACK OMFG #spnwin #the winchesters

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#paranorman

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oh, but ain't it true, king

#yeah same no pray4jensen #I return to this charred tired sad house a completely different person than when SPN ended fcking horribly in 2020 #just to see if Winchesters will be another disappointment or not #and I also don’t believe Thompson was actively busy batting for DC that time #they were all smothered but also all cowardly #wank for ts #in tag thoughts #spn finale #supernatural #it’s just one big old Exhausted Cog in the Wheelhouse of Series Messes now #hey enjoy the Winchesters if you want #I’m just…done riding on the coattails of hope now and haven’t done so for two years #spn will remain a sad pile of books on the cracked table I found in the thrift store now in other words :( #we’ll see if the show gets better and at this point I’ll wait for secondhand reviews from the sidelines

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Imagine you’ve been watching The Lord of The Rings (extended versions) and poured hours and hours into both watching it all and discussing the characters and narrative threads. You’ve been writing theories on what will happen in the end and dissecting seemingly insignificant yet very important plot points. Everything is adding up. The next film confirms what you’d predicted from the last. You head into Return of the Kind. Everything you wrote before is coming true, character arcs are heading to their evident conclusion. References to history and myth bolster where the narrative is going. Tonally, it progresses and it feels like every hour you watch, the more it builds and the more it all makes sense. Gandalf dies before the end, but you know this is done to spur the characters on, show their grief, and for him to return from the dead to help defeat evil. Aragorn has been pining over Arwen for hours now and you expect them to be together in the end, defeating evil is his external goal but finding love and acceptance is his internal goal. Frodo has been losing hope and losing faith. He’s stopped believing he’s ever going to make it back and is suicidally committed to destroying the ring even though deep down he wishes to see the shire once more. Sam has been trying to support Frodo and get them both back and can’t stop thinking about his love, Rosie Cotton, and heart wrenchingly thinks of her when he wonders if he’ll survive such hardship.

Now…. imagine, if in the last 38 minutes of LOTR, Gandalf never returns and no other characters mention him or grieves his loss. Aragorn stops pining over Arwen and she isn’t mentioned or shown again. Frodo destroys the ring, returns to the shire, and dies in a freak hobbit-hole renovation accident. Sam returns to the shire and doesn’t even go and look for Rosie, and instead settles on a blurry hobbit with no relevance to anything he has previously said. And for no reason whatsoever Legolas is shown half-naked in a scene.

Regardless of any conspiracy, the main evidence we should all be focusing on is that the spn finale made no narrative sense. Up until episode 18 narratives were falling into place and there was no major narrative or tonal change in the show. Suddenly it felt like I was watching a completely different show to what I’d seen from seasons 6 onwards - ten years worth of Supernatural. People can shout as loud as they want about nothing shifty going on regarding the last two episodes, but if you look solely at the episodes - it doesn’t make sense. Dabb and the writers were all going somewhere, and then they wrote something tonally and narratively antithetical to everything they’d written so far. Something happened. I don’t need spanish dubs or conspiracy receipts to bolster my argument, and I certainly don’t need anyone to gaslight me into believing I’m making any of this up. Fuckery went on.

#salt #wank for ts #ish #supernatural #spn finale #OMFG this post #I still cry #because THIS #😭 #awesome meta #the lotr comparison!!!!!!!!!! #storytelling

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#juxtaposition taegi fic #taegi #bts

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