natashaandeyi

[natashaandeyi]

sometimes I think we're sad because we're lonely and haven't been around people who bring a different type of life in us.

be human.

meet your tribe and engage with them;

I know you know you need people, I just need you to act on this knowledge.

create your own utopia in real life.

speak about your troubles with people who can actually relate to them,

people who understand you deeply and dearly,

who get where you're coming from and where you're going,

and who will do so with no judgement.

you need this so much.

but don't dismiss those who still love you but cannot directly relate with you, they still love you and that's all that matters.

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[natashaandeyi]

I usually avoid something or someone until I know how to confront it,

I find it disempowering to face something head on when I have no idea what my heart feels or my mind thinks.

my reasoning is, confronting something without mental or emotional autonomy means that I'm susceptible to the other side's decisions and feelings,

and there's nothing that I hate like being influenced unknowingly.

when I do something, anything, because I want to, even if it eventually looks like the rest, it still doesn't change the fact that my actions were personally advised.

unlike if I were to find myself in the act with no personal explanation as to how and why I'm there.

so avoidance to me is more or less a time to gear up the arsenal of my mind and heart with enough weapons for the mental, emotional or verbal war that lies ahead.

because who goes to war unprepared and expects to win?

maybe luck.

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[natashaandeyi]

as someone who consciously and subconsciously pushes people away when going through a challenging period in life,

I admit that there are times I have to make the intentional effort to win these people back.

like I know I pushed you away but I love you, always have, always will, lol. I'm just terrible at showing this to you when I'm not in the position to show up for myself.

I at times even envy people who have the strength to express their situation to those who care for them,

that's admirable and inspiring to be honest.

cause there's a bunch of us who believe that distance and private space will help us through our nightmares,

and it works honestly, it does.

until you're out of the wilderness and realize there are no arms wide open waiting to embrace you. just space and time.

so you're back to explaining and apologizing and making promises you know you'll break as soon as another stage of morphing comes calling.

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[natashaandeyi]

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[natashaandeyi]

these days when someone starts speaking of something that would affect me in a negative manner, I often find myself being a snob.

almost as if I didn't hear them speak.

this is just a way to deny them an audience to continue engaging in a conversation that my heart would clearly not have.

I don't have to listen to what you have to say, that's something I'm slowly realizing to appear rude but is actually empowering.

what you don't know is many a times to your own benefit, ignorance really is bliss.

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[natashaandeyi]

the month of love felt a little dark on this side of town,

but we're now ready to bring you all the feels.

buckle up love birds, we're feeling all that their soul and sight brings as we make love on the clock ✨❤️

who's ready babies... ☺️

on 26.04.24 we have a date. don't be late 😉

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[natashaandeyi]

oh my my my ☺️

my heart is too merry. to get an opportunity to get back into my romantic feels and dive into them is a dream come true.

life felt dark for a minute there, my hopeless romantic self was hurting and bleeding. begging for its return on the surface.

Colours is my polite way to honor this request and I couldn't be more grateful to time for allowing me to sit with the negative feels until I was ready to finally see light on the other end of the tunnel.

I'll be honored to share this project with you on the 26th of April; a special day to all the L babies in the queer family, so we have to celebrate it in style.

I'm happy, I'm grateful. 💚🧡

for now, here's the track list to spike your interests ✨

~NA9

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[natashaandeyi]

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[natashaandeyi]

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[natashaandeyi]

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[natashaandeyi]

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[natashaandeyi]

as a person with a queer friend,

assume they come with two birthdays.

save for the fact that the extra one is the pride month,

the most colorful time of the year.

surprise them with all the coloured gifts,

doesn't have to be rainbow specific,

just make sure there's color to it,

heart warming colors with life giving words.

and don't for a second lament of their lack of reciprocation,

it ain't their fault that every other month they have to watch their existence toned down,

it's not easy being truly free for thirty days of a possible three sixty five.

so relax and get them their flowers,

get them their chocolates and poetry filled novels,

and a happy closet exit message.

go ahead straight friend, don't be homophobic.

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[natashaandeyi]

... unless you put your hands on the women in my life,

I'll not bother making my gym time pay off.

go ahead and feel right,

your plastic ego definitely needs the boost.

besides, I'm a villain in a couple of stories,

I don't mind adding the list and making them several,

for neither situations pays my bills,

nor unsettles my brain when I go to sleep.

you're not special for disliking me,

and neither am I for saying so.

having an issue with my mere existence just because it fits not within the standards of your tailored expectations is enough proof that I also need deliverance from the consideration of your thoughts and the aftermath of altering my life,

like what in the absolute nonsense is this madness!?

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[natashaandeyi]

I cracked the cord. at least I think so.

conventional minds and limited beliefs ick me because I'm a slave whenever I'm in their sorrounding.

literally or physically.

my expressive self goes missing when I realize my audience will use my words against me,

words curated to suppress my individuality in the name of guidance and correction.

I stay within my safe habitat because many are the times going outside means brushing shoulders with fragile egos,

misinformation and often the lack of it makes them think I'm in a competition with them, when often I'm just simply existing in the energy that comes natural to me; masculinity.

I avoid posting some things because I don't have the energy to settle their conventional beliefs. I can only afford the luxury of laughing myself to sleep.

eventually I keep so many things to myself. even though I prefer to just put things as they are.

God bless the souls that allow me to put things as they are and just be who I am without asking questions that scream naivety.

and even to those with questions but do not have the guts to come for my eye, bless you too for being meek. the earth is yours to inherit.

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[natashaandeyi]

back when I was growing up,

if you asked me who I was, I'd give you my name, age and what I was doing with my time

I grew up, learnt a thing and two about life

and now I have a better response to the question

physically I'm strong but laid back

mentally I'm a determined visionary

my heart is fierce but fragile

my soul is deep and sensitive

my spirit is meek but aggressive

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[natashaandeyi]

growing up was challenging for me,

challenging I say because most burdens were self imposed by my questioning mind

almost everything was proceeded with a why

shalom do this, why?

shalom be that, but why?

unless it came from within, I somehow found a way to make it hard for others to deal with me, only to be left wondering why I couldn't just do it their way to begin with

piles and piles of thoughts left me living in my head wondering why I was this way,

trust me, I tried to fit in, but this felt unlike me that I somehow found peace in being me

well until the internet found me

turns out I'm no different because a bunch of weirdos exist in the planet

you just need to find your pack and ride with them till your legged wheels wear off

I don't considered myself weird anymore,

as a matter of fact, find your tribe and get familiar to your kind.

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