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Things I wish I knew before going for psychiatric treatment:

🌟 A diagnosis is a label given to describe a set of symptoms that a mental health professional is seeing within me; they do not have to define me, and there isn’t anything wrong with ME AS A PERSON because I’m labelled with a condition that I may or may not even have

🌟 Not all therapists know how to help you despite their training. You can learn techniques about how to help people and not necessarily be suited for that job. Additionally, being called a professional doesn’t make them better versed about ME than I am (I do not have to let go of whatever sense of self I have and put their opinions in place of what I know to be true for myself personally despite wanting to be open to different perspectives)

🌟 Continuing treatment was/is my own choice and I don’t have to feel bad about changing therapists when one isn’t right for me

🌟 A psychologist is there to help me feel better and recover from certain symptoms, not make me feel worse about my symptoms for how they affect other people. I also have every right to get or be upset with when they trigger me and don’t have to feel crazy amounts of guilt for being reactive when they are there to help strengthen my self worth even if they think they are helping me

🌟 Medications don’t help in the long run and although they can help with short term relief of certain symptoms, they don’t take away my trauma or emotions and aren’t meant to. I was seeking to feel my emotions and learn to accept them, not suppress them further which only made them worse in the long run. Medications are not a cure-all and DO have side effects

🌟 Needing help doesn’t mean I need to be told what is right for me in terms of what actually helps me. Exposure therapy, for example, was harmful for me and forcing myself into uncomfortable situations when I was not ready isn’t what helped me learn to be comfortable with them - sometimes something just isn’t right for you at the time and it isn’t some sort of thing I have to rush into

🌟 Psychiatric wards gave me a safe place to turn to when I needed a safe place to stay but they can become another crutch and are FULL of triggers

🌟 Self-awareness is about noticing my reactions and what makes them happen, not blaming myself and dismissing my genuine feelings (that are there for good reason even if they are strong and in response to triggers I didn’t know I had at the time) with them just being an illness

🌟 Professionals are human just like us. They have their own stresses and needs but as a patient it is THEIR job to worry about me and I don’t have to feel bad for talking about heavy subjects “too much”. I also shouldn’t have to fear being forced into the hospital for being honest and can call anonymous hotlines if I’m not comfortable with being admitted involuntarily

🌟 Getting help for symptoms doesn’t mean I have to be ashamed of them and that I should suppress my emotions for the sake of other people’s comfort unless it is genuinely hurting them when they didn’t do anything to get that response and if something I’m doing is upsetting someone else it can be triggers they personally have and isn’t just me “being too sensitive” all the time

🌟 Being open to help doesn’t mean I have to be okay with being mistreated and dismissed - abuse happens in treatment centers too