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Like, 3/4 managers and our district manager are desperate to get me promoted to an assistant manager and tracked for manager, eventually. Because i am just apparently that impressive. The Assistant District Manager and I are good buddies, and he keeps making jokes that he's gonna have me skip being an assistant manager and go straight to managing. A manager who is also a manager coach is DETERMINED to train me for that track. And our district manager just told me i need to go for it cause, obviously. He's so no-nonsense. My current manager wants to keep me at her store, and several other managers are trying to poach me cause they're very impressed.

I'm just. My brain can't handle this? I'm genuinely appreciated here. I've been getting so much praise and they're just falling over themselves to get me a special raise and get me promoted asap. I can't mentally believe this.

I had to fight SO FUCKING HARD for an assistant manager position at my previous job and i didnt even get a damn raise with it. The whole experience just left a bad taste in my mouth, and here at this newish job (been here for half a year already!), i am just. So appreciated and valued. They respect me and listen to me. It feels really nice. But it also makes me jittery and nervous. Like, i dont entirely feel like i deserve it. But, objectively speaking, i do. I know, objectively, how good i am at my job. But i can't help but feel like i've fooled everyone, on accident. Imposter syndrome strikes again.

And all these managers, just, tell me everything. All the drama, all the tea. Everything. I know so much dirt and secrets and baffling bullshit now. I know more than some managers. I know upcoming secret things about the company. I know shit cause i somehow got connections at this company. How the fuck did i just happen to meet all the right people?!

Like. I found out my store was in the top 1% out of all stores in the company. In the top 50 ish compared to over 4500 stores. We're consistently in the top rankings every week.

I had no idea my store was that impactful. So the people in connection to it just know more and they just tell me.

Which i can appreciate cause i can keep a secret as needed. I know so many secrets cause they just can't keep it to themselves around me. These people wont tell this shit to anyone else who shouldnt be in the know, but then they're just so fucking giddy to tell me.

I would NEVER have learned this level of shit at my previous job.

This is all just overstimulating my brain rn. Today was just an interesting day and i had so much caffeine.

Just so much is happening so fast at work i can't even write anything down.

But it sure as fuck is interesting and entertaining.

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[neon-blooded]

Just so much is happening so fast at work i can't even write anything down.

But it sure as fuck is interesting and entertaining.

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[neon-blooded]

Okay, another manager has thrown their hat in the ring and our district manager was cackling at everything.

Im collecting manager buddies like candy.

This has been super interesting.

I have 3 managers fighting over me lmaooo.

Im so tickled by this. Im so, soooo tickled. Im a very competent person and it shows lmao.

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Yeah they are legit arguing over me. I'm flabbergasted and i didnt expect this 😅😭

I have 3 managers fighting over me lmaooo.

Im so tickled by this. Im so, soooo tickled. Im a very competent person and it shows lmao.

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[neon-blooded]

I have 3 managers fighting over me lmaooo.

Im so tickled by this. Im so, soooo tickled. Im a very competent person and it shows lmao.

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[neon-blooded]

I want a Resident Evil game set before the start of resident evil, but like, wacky hijinks.

Like, the STARS members solving their cases and doing their rescues and weirdly getting close to finding out about Umbrella's less than stellar means of science multiple times, but Wesker has to scramble to cover shit up.

I just want to see more of the STARS members just existing lmao, and being a thorn in evil wesker's side.

#resident evil #like #slice of life but pre-RE1?? #tox posts

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So, i finished Coffee Talk and idfk what to do with my life anymore. I need the second game now! 😭

#tox posts #i also want to play Va1 Halla as well. that looks super interesting #coffee talk #coffee talk game #i havent really played visual novels before and now im freakin hooked

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More shit's been going down at work.

Since November there's been so much drama with this one other associate. No one else, just him! He was veery mad he wasn't promoted to manager over my other coworker.

The thing is, this isn't even his main job. He works full time at another store in the area. He also doesnt really put in a lot of effort to keep the store maintained or the operations consistently taken care of. He also calls in a lot because he works himself until he is sick (he in fsct has a third job at a soap store). And when he does, he does it like 30 min to an hour before his shift stsrts and he doesnt even call. He just puts a text in the group chat. He also has some serious anger issues and attitude. Our DM does NOT lile him, since he made a very crass joke to him.

And he'd very... passive aggressive about me behind my back. I'm the oldest one, by age, working at the store by about 6/7 years and i have previous managerial experience. I know how to divide up tasks between people so the work isnt just on one person. The others are not the best at that. Our current manager, for however competent she is, has not had the experience in delegating like I have. But she's learning quickly. I digress. Because of me the store is in much, much better shape. I've taken it upon myself, with the manager's approval, to divide up tasks and make to do lists. I make very reasonable ones for the two other associates, including the guy i'm talking about.

He has actively fought against it. Like, i get it. I'm the "new" person who is giving you a to do list. That isnt, technically, "fair." But it was made clear to me that if i didnt, nothing was going to get done by him or the other one and everything would on the shoulders of me and the manager. I do an insane amount of work, quickly. I'm serious about moving up in this company.

But this dude. He so desperately wants to be a manager but he wont do anything and actively fights against doing anything. What does he expect, to be handed the position on a silver platter? He wants this job to be his fulltime job and he thinks he needs to step up and do the work only if he gets promoted.

Its been slowly pissing me off (i have a lot of patience). And its gotten to a point where our manager is just done with him. Because of his behavior, hostility, lack of work ethic, and constant absences (he actually had a no call no show today, so the store opened late!), the dm wants him fired. Our manager is trying to have a bit more patience, but today was her bresking point. She's going to try corrective action but im pretty certain he'll end up fired soon.

Manager is actually scheduling him less and giving me more hours since i have the availability and i don't call in - im a more stable choice to schedule. And because of his hostility towards me, she is scheduling me as little as possible with him.

I've done everything i can to encourage a positive and nice work environment. I'm nice and genial to him, i am patient, i encourage and listen to him. But he doesnt like me because i do my job well and i dont excuse his lack of work ethic. I hate drama and i do everything i can to nip it in the bud, but some people are just so damned intent on being the drama.

The other associate is planning to quit soon, since she recently started another job that pays more. We're cool with that, she's a sweet kid. So we're going to be training a new person soon. And if this guy i'm complaining about gets fired, then we'll have two people to train. On one hand, i know it'll be tough. On the other, i'm kinda looking forward to it, cause we need to just be done with this hostile guy i've been working with. He's draining and it's been putting a damper on doing my job.

I've been having to do more work than i ought to, to accommodate his laziness. There is already too much on our manager's shoulders, cause corporate is stupid. But i've become more paranoid about hostile dude's behavior towards me, and i'm going by the book 100% and keeping every little record of everything to cover my ass. I feel like he is going to do something to put my job in jeopardy. I've dealt with that before and its miserable. So i'm making sure he can't say shit about me or my work.

I'm just tired of thid bullshit. And as much sympathy as i've had for this dude, I've reached my limit. I honestly hope he quits before he gets fired. It'll at least look better for him.

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Why do i feel like greek yogurt lovers are a cult?

#im sorry i find the texture beyond abhorrent #it truly nauseates me #im happy with plain yogurt #i dont get why greek yogurt lovers give me such side eye #its just yogurt #greek yogurt #yogurt #fuckin weirdos #tox posts

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the two genders are yes or no

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Sidenote - I recently got Doom 1993 on my switch, and i've become obsessed. I played the 2016 game and loved it, but the first game has such a charm that I love. It's a fantastic romp.

So, i ended up getting Doom 2, Quake, and Quake 2. I can't wait to play those now.

I may also see about getting doom on my pc to play... i want to look into all the custom maps.

#doom #doom 1993 #quake #tox posts #games #video games #retro gaming

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Man, i am an absolute whore for praise. I love being appreciated lol. Especially for the things i'm really enjoying, which is organizing and operations.

The Manager Coach came by our store today to coach my coworker in the ways of the Manager. And he decided he was also gonna teach me the same stuff too, cause he's 100% certain i'll get there quick enough, so might as well kill 2 birds with one stone, right?

He also said that, in the entire time he's been working at the company, he's not seen many other people who are as good at operations and organizing as I am. He said i'm easily top ten. And he keeps saying he's jealous that he wasn't the one who got to hire me, lol. He and my coworker-turned-manager are both colluding on how to show our district manager some of the organizational papers i've made, so he can standardize them across the district. The manager coach told me that he won't be surprised if the district manager asks to see what other ideas I have.

The area manager of my previous job actually did that - i'd mock up organizational and operation sheets for use at the gas station i used to work at and he'd cop them to send out to the other stores for them to Get Gud.

I've just been blowing everyone away, apparently lol. He also said he may borrow me for a store he's been trying to fix up. That store desperately needs to be organized and cleaned - the manager of it was on paternity leave, and no one actually put in the work to clean or go through shipments or put out product. So it's a Big Mess that is causing soo many problems. There's a plan brewing to fire the cashiers there and hire new ones, since it really was very bad - there were constant no shows, a slew of customer complaints, and no attempt at actually doing anything, besides sitting on their phones and ringing people up, whatsoever. I feel bad for the cashiers there, and i'm trying to think of how i can help them improve before they get fired. But, on the other hand, it's not really my business. As much as i like my job, i'm not getting paid enough right now to go that far. Especially for people who probably won't even listen to me in the first place.

I won't be surprised if that store's manager asks if i can take on a few shifts over the coming weeks. And i'l honestly take them. I need to save up for a car, and i like working this job, so I'm happy to do it.

Basically, my worth is being recognized, my skills are getting utilized, and it's a fantastic opportunity to move up a few positions quickly. I'm lucky to have impressed the right people. This will be a great thing to have done for whatever i choose to do in the future. But for the moment, i'm hoping to stick with this company for At Least 3 years. If not more. We'll see.

Our District Manager is supposed to visit on Friday. I'm not scheduled to work that day, but i'm going to come in to visit just so i can have a conversation with him. I'd really like to run a few things by him and see what he thinks.

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Honestly this job has been a blessing for me. I know a lot of people shit on this company and job, and i get it, but its been a great experience for me so far. I'm thriving in it. I love selling games, i love organizing, i like my coworkers, i just really love my job. I dont dread going in to work at all. I dont feel anxiety for it. Thats the wildest thing to me. I just enjoy my time there.

I've been here two months, and it feels like its been longer than that. Partly cause the manager that hired me robbed the store blind and flabberghasted everyone. Like, he easily got away with 30,000 in deposits and merchandise. It was insane. Me and another co-worker stepped up to take care of the store and deal with the fallout. And we did really well!

She got promoted to manager, as a trial, and im really pleased for her. I wasnt considered afterall cause i was still too new to the company, which is totally understandable. That was the only issue. But that said, everyone says that i'll prolly move up into a manager position oncd i get some of my metrics up, and that - im not worried about. I learn frighteningly quick in most things. The only thing i learn at a somewhat normal pace is dealing with people and upselling stuff - and for being there 2 months, my numbers are pretty decent. So im not worried. The District's manager coach is extremely impressed with me and keeps saying so lol. He and I get along really well and he's fun to work with.

As a result of the previous manager's robbery, the four of us kinda bonded lol. We all play minecraft together and its fun. Im at least 7 years older than the rest of them so they've all kinda been looking up to me for advice about work things and dealing with people and its precious. I just want to adopt the three of them, they're too adorable. We act like a really good team and i think there's a lot of respect between the four of us.

Halloween is coming up in a couple of days and im so freakin excited. Its a short work day so i'll be working that day myself and i cant wait! I'm going to dress up as Link from TOTK. Its going to be great - i found a really nice costume. Tomorrow (or today rather since its past midnight lmao) i'm wearing a Witchy Vibes outfit. Im going to see if i can stop by target and get a witchy hat, before work. My outfit is so stinking cute. I got this deep purple/indigo Iridescent blouse, black lacy shorts, and orange/black striped socks. With black boots. So im going to wear acid green eyeshadow to complete the garish halloween look.

My coworkers say i look just like a quirky art or music teacher and i swear, no higher compliment has been paid to my style. I love looking kooky and cute like that.

So yeah, i love it here and im hsving a good time. I dont hate my life and i dont feel constant dread and anxiety running after me. I feel good.

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So. Things have been Wild at work. WILD Wild. I've been here a month and a half and i've gotten VERY comfortable. I really like working here! I feel really good about this job and... most of my crew. Well, now its all of my crew lol. Like i said. Wild.

So, if a position for one-store manager opens up... im going to go for it. We need a manager and i can actually do it, with some basic training and coaching. Damn near everyone is encouraging me, cause i've been turning the store on its head in cleaning, organizing, investigating, etc. I was previously an assistant manager at two gas stations, running them by myself as the acting manager... i have previous experience. And i just like working here so much more. I really enjoy it. I thrive on the operations side.

Because we, uh, lost our previous manager Yesterday, there was no one to make the schedules, so i did them. No one else knew how. The district's manager coach, who trains new managers, very heavy-handedly implied that i should go for the manager position if they open it up for the one store - after he saw how i handled all of this fucked up situation. I can't really say what happened at the moment cause it involves police.

Hopefully one of my coworkers will be promoted to assistant manager, even if the opportunity for manager doesnt arise for me, she needs to be promoted. She was awesome as hell. She just doesn't have the prior experience or availability to be a manager, unfortunately, because i would otherwise insist that.

But uh, wow. Things have taken a crazy fucking turn here.

#tox posts #tox's job #WILD THINGS

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I do not respect the grind. Go to bed

#this is so relevant to me rn #reblog #tox's job

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I said no to taking on a last minute closing shift today. I'd already swapped shifts with a coworker (i was previously off on labor day but i swapped so i worked a fucking nightmare of a rush while only having been there barely a week) just a couple days ago. So i had pretty much already had plans and responsibilities at home that i could not back out of.

I felt pretty bad for saying no, but im honestly really glad i did. Not just because i had no choice but to say no - this particular time - but because i have the hardest time saying no, when i need to for my mental health. At my previous job it was very easy for the company to take advantage of my inability to say no and the fact that i felt overly responsible for other people's time. I was working an absurd and unhealthy amount and it lead to really serious health issues - both physical and mental.

I like doing my best at something. Im an honest person. Im a do-gooder, a goody two shoes, teachers pet, etc. I just like helping others and meeting others expectations no matter the fact that it directly harms me. So having to say no this time was a reminder to myself of the promise i made when i got hired - to not act beyond my wage. I'm only making 10 dollars an hour. It aint right for me to jump back into a situation where everyone dumps their shifts onto me cause they're having their regularly scheduled weekly crises. I have crises too dammit. And i deserve days off.

Besides - ive not even been at this job for two weeks. I havent even completed all the training modules on the computer - i am not ready to close at another location. I absolutely would have caught flack had i taken this shift. I would have messed something up and that would have fucked me up. And because its the thing i do, i would have called my coworkers like 50 times trying to figure out what the hell im supposed to do and where is everything, and that would have just ended up making things worse. Yeah. The people who have been working at my job longer than me are probably tired too - they work hard and do their best as well. But they at least know what to do when last minute stuff like this happens. Im still in training.

And look, i dont mind taking on a last minute shift change now and again. Shit happens in peoples' lives, and i like being a compassionate and helpful person. But i will turn into a wall if its something that seems like it regularly happens. I wont let myself do what i did before and suffer for it. I dont want to have anxiety attacks before every shift like before, and i dont want to have constant breakdowns in front of customers. I need to make my boundaries clear.

So im glad i had a prior obligation i could not bail on. It's reminded me to be mindful of when i need to say no, for my health.

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Got thru my first shift at my new job by myself. I'm still so freakin anxiety-wired. But it's done!

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