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Azriel normally:

“Beautiful, but near-unreadable.”

“His skin was as cold as his face.”

“Azriel’s cold face yielded nothing.”

“Azriel added, his face hard as ice,”

“Azriel yielded no tinge of emotion as he nodded”

“There was no kindness on Azriel’s face as the snow settled—the immovable mask of the High Lord’s shadowsinger.”

“Azriel’s own face revealing nothing while he stood,”

Azriel with Gwyn:

(when he’s literally known her for half a book)

“Az stared after her, brows high with amusement.”

“Cassian glanced over at Az, but his attention was fixed on the young priestess, admiration and quiet encouragement shining from his face.”

“He snorted.”

“he offered her a crooked smile.”

“Azriel’s lips twitched.”

“Azriel couldn’t help his soft chuckle”

“Azriel laughed”

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azriel may be a Weirdo but he is also the only person not to say a bad word about nesta

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imagine,, 

gwyn is putting books back in the library and singing to herself. she’s just minding her own business, singing. and azriel is there, near the door, just staring at her, unable to look away because how she looks so beautiful doing something so small. her voice is so enthralling and at her singing, he feels a peace he never does. a peace that eases his rage at the world, at himself. he wonders why his heart feels calmer, why his chest feels warmer. he wonders why he’s can’t keep his eyes off her. he’s admiring her strength, her determination, her confidence, her anger, her gorgeous voice. his shadows dance to her voice around her while she’s completely unaware. and when gwyn suddenly turns around, azriel freezes, panicking because he was just caught but gwyn has a small smile on her face. she raises a brow and teases him, “it’s rude to spy on friends, spymaster”

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a bit about Elain's trauma and why it correlates with her rejecting her mating bond with Lucien in the future, a thread:

(WARNING: this post isn’t about ships, except Elucien because Lucien is a key factor in Elain’s trauma. )

Everyone deals with trauma in their own way and that’s totally okay. Some are destructive, some shut people up and others want to not feel anything. Elain, just as Nesta, went into the Cauldron and those moments were horrific for her.

She is literally dragged and shoved into the Cauldron while she cries, struggles and kicks to escape the guards’ grasps. The guards and the King keep laughing at her during the whole time.

Elain is used as an experiment for the Queens.

She is used as if she was a mere object.

Her body has been changed forever and she is practically naked, completely terrified and in shock from whatever she has gone through inside the Cauldron. (We know how terrifying and horrible it can be because of Nesta’s experience.) Everyone is looking at her, some are even laughing.

Do you know how violating this could feel? To be left naked and vulnerable in front of people who have just terrorized you? How would you feel?

We don’t know what she goes through inside the Cauldron, but it was probably very painful and terrifying. Then, she is thrown off it and she experiences this horrific scene, and her mating bond with Lucien snaps.

Another thing has been decided for her.

Not only has her body and life been changed forever without her consent, now her romantic relationship has been decided for her as well. And it’s with a man who participated in the plan that made this horrific moment happen.

Lucien is an accomplice of that. He isn’t a bad person, but he is CLEARLY an accomplice. (GO NESTA!!)

Elain is dealing with her trauma and she doesn’t own Lucien anything. She suffered so much, she was broken and traumatized by what happened to her.

And Lucien and their mate bond are a BIG reminder of the day her body and life were changed against her own will.

We don’t know much about her, but we have seen enough of her suffering and how traumatized she is in the books. Feyre always admired Elain’s strength, because being kind and gentle in a world so dark takes balls, you know? Later on in the books, Elain is still kind and gentle but more reserved and quiet because she is dealing with her own shit.

Strength doesn’t equal to physical force. A big example? Queen Elizabeth I of England was strong and she never fought in a battlefield, but she was intelligent, cunning and brought a Golden Age to her country. She made a place for herself in a patriarcal society and that’s how strong she was.

Elain’s strength differs from Nesta’s, Mor’s and Feyre’s. She isn’t an active fighter like them, but yet she had the guts to fight in the war and stabbed the King on the neck to protect Nesta because she loves her sister and would die for her. Look at this.

No one wanted her to fight, but she chose to. SHE CHOSE TO! This is important. She is scared in the battle camp and doesn’t know how to fight or wield a sword, yet she trusts her friends and wants to fight alongside them. 

She might die in the battlefield, but at least she will fight fighting and not be a pawn.

She will enact revenge for what the King did to Nesta, to Feyre and to herself.

MOREOVER –– Another big trauma (aside from happened inside the Cauldron and the dramatic changes in her life), it will probably be center around her body. 

Her clothes, body and beauty are mentioned all the time. ALL THE TIME. Elain, who was a very proper and modest lady (and didn’t want to talk about periods even with her sisters), was seen naked against her will by everyone and she probably felt violated.

Feyre mentions Elain’s reaction when she sees her and Nesta wearing Illyrian fighting leathers. She mentions how Elain was offered something less scandalous and more proper. 

Imagine how someone so proper would feel after being used and seen all vulnerable and naked by so many people? To have been ogled against your will? To be seen as an “object” to see whether the Cauldron worked?

Nesta is a sexual assault survivor and she also suffered because of their youth, Feyre’s sacrifice to provide for them and Elain suffering from the Cauldron incident. She dealt with her trauma in her own way, just as Elain deals with it in her own way. And that’s okay!

In Elain’s book, her choosing who she wants to be with and how she wants to live from now on will be important. She will turn down Lucien, as it is obvious from what I explained above and because of the following:  Feyre and Rhys comment on how being mates doesn’t equal to being right for each other.

Sarah J. Maas said this as well.

She also said that a mating bond is something rare but that some people might be lucky and end up having two. But the main thing is: 

Elain will reject Lucien because they aren’t right for each other and she will chose whomever she wants to because she loves that person. That’s big and it will be key to the plot.

Elain might end up being lucky and while falling for another person, a new mating bond might develop. But at the end of the day, it will be her choice. 

Not the Cauldron’s choice, not society’s choice or anyone else. 

Hers and hers alone.

You think she is boring? Well, we will learn more about her and we will see her heal from her trauma. Her body and her choices have been violated, but she will heal and grow for that and gain ownership over herself once again. 

Rhys, Amren and Feyre believe there is more to her than just the kindness she shows. 

“Maybe she was never given the chance to be that way.” “You think I stifle her?” “Not you alone. […] But I wonder if everyone has spent so long assuming Elain is sweet and innocent that she felt she had to be that way or else she’d dissapoint you all. […] With time and safety, perhaps we’ll see a different side of her emerge”

“You think Elain is boring?” “I think she’s kind, and I’ll take that kindness over nastiness every day. But I also think we haven’t yet seen all she has to offer.”

“Don’t forget that gardening often results in something pretty, but it involves getting one’s hands dirty along the way.”

“You can’t have it both ways. You cannot resent my decision to lead a small, quiet life while also refusing to let me do anything greater.”

“I went into the Cauldron, too, you know. And it captured me. And yet somehow all you think of is what my trauma did to you.”

“Including Elain, who is more than capable of defending herself against the darkness of the Trove, if she chooses to. Don’t underestimate her.”

Being a seer gives you many powers, but it would take me too much time so I recommend you to read this LONG AND AMAZING list of powers a seer might have posted by @miru5llec​ and you will be shocked and hyped.

If you like mythology and fantasy literature, you know seers are feared and respected. Kings have killed for having a seer in their ranks. They can reach levels of divine status and their ability as a seer gives them many more powers than those I have mentioned before.

Elain might not be physically powerful like Nesta or Feyre, but being a seer makes her more powerful than both of them but IN ANOTHER WAY. Look at the list above (linked) if you don’t believe me. 

Her being on the Night Court makes Feysand’s court the most powerful in Prythian.

That’s why Elain is not boring and her trauma is valid. There is much more to her than what little we have seen. SJM has said so. Rhys, Feyre, Amren, everyone has said so in the books. We will learn about her, see her heal and chose who to love in her book.

“Why?” Elain demanded. “Shall I tend to my little garden forever?” When Nesta flinched, Elain said, “You can’t have it both ways. You cannot resent my decision to lead a small, quiet life while also refusing to let me do anything greater.”

“But Elain said, “I went into the Cauldron, too, you know. And it captured me. And yet somehow all you think of is what my trauma did to you.”

We will see her develop her powers and learn how to use them. She is possibly the key to killing Koschei (the big bad villain) because she might have visions of where his heart is hidden in that fucking box and guide the IC to find it.

Furthermore, stop saying “I want Elucien to happen so Lucien can be happy.” or “Azriel deserves better than Elain because she likes to garden and is mated to Lucien.”

Elain doesn’t belong to Lucien.

Elain can garden, bake and walk around on her hands while singing La Macarena and that doesn’t make her any less strong than Feyre, Mor, Nesta or any other female character.

(Also, in this stupid ship war I have seen people pointing out how she wouldn’t be able to give Azriel children because her body isn’t Illyrian. This is disgusting. You are basically saying that all her worth lies in whether she can give someone children or not.

Do I remind you adoption exists? Rhys, Cassian and Azriel are brothers by choice, not by blood and they are BROTHERS. You can adopt and be a mother. And you can chose to not have children and that would be okay too. A woman’s worth isn’t in her uterus.

And that’s it. 

(I posted this thread on Twitter as well, so if you liked it you can go there and RT it or hit a like.)

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Gwyneth Berdara

Half Breed ~ Priestess ~ Valkyrie

I am the rock against which the surf crashes.  Nothing can break me.

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Cassian: Doesn’t count when you use your hands to do most of the work.

Nesta: I bet that isn’t what you’ve been telling yourself at night.

Cassian: Is that what those smutty books teach you? That it’s only at night? It could be anytime—dawn’s first light, or when I’m bathing, or even after a long, hard day of practice.

Nesta: Sounds like you have a lot of time on your hands, Cassian.

Azriel:

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Cassian: bravest of Illyrians, commander of armies, master of yo momma jokes.

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made nesta on artbreeder, I will never stop loving her with my whole heart !

also she's an aries, nothing can change my mind

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Has this been done yet?🤭

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🚨🚨🚨ACOSF SPOILERS 🚨🚨🚨

I’m still not good at Tumblr text posts lol

Derry Girls>>>> Any other show

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nesta really said: after sex I want cuddles 🔪

and I felt that

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SPOILER DISCUSSION BELOW!!!

honestly....the ending might not be that bad but out of context.... i hate it? like, if sjm puts in the work and heals those relationships, great. i will be fully in board (i hate the ‘woman looses all her power’ trope, but sjm has done it before and i kinda figured smth like this would happen)

i just dont like the connection to feysand. i really need a lot of stuff to go on in between chapter 6 and chapter 76-77(idk the exact chapters??) for me to like this book

honestly, im open for anything at this point. ALSO, WHAT WAS IN THE FUCKING BOX???? WHAT WAS IT? ALL THESE SPOILERS AND NOBODY HAS SAID A DAMN THING ABOUT THAT DAMN BIX IM FUMIN

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SPOILER ALERT!!

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I don’t know about you but nesta loosening her powers hurt me deeply, im young and never in my life ive feelt this, for me books are my safe space, a place where rape, misogyny, racism, classism can’t reach, and if it, it’s showed to me that is bad and that YOU can beat it. But this time, god this time i was really exited to see this powerful woman, this powerful woman that doesn’t give a shit about other people opinions and most importantly that doesn’t let men apply ther power over her, a freaking goddess BEING A GODDESS, but NO sjm decided that the only solution to their problem was her to give away her power, because the world can not have a woman stronger and powerful than a man... and yes that broke my little hart, is dumb but i feel like the world is giving a smack in the face to every girl and woman that read this series saying them “woman can’t be powerful than men, stop dreaming and be real!! ” And yeah that’s painful, is giving us a reality punch, and we are just noticing that misogyny is even in our safe place= a book and an author, a person we tend to admire, I know sjm was already terrible, but now I don’t have any expectations

Congratulations Sarah J Maas you have made a 16 years old girl to lose hope in the world she will have to deal with, thanks!!

(Im sorry if im being dramatic, im just really sad)

#acosf spoilers #acosf #nessian #nesta archeron #acotar #sjm critical #sarah j maas #a court of silver flames #cassian #cassian x nesta

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Im crying, thats all im gonna say

Last Azriel Headcannon for the night

I would rather read a novel on Azriel finding an Illyrian “bastard” child without any parents and adopting the little girl, than one about elriel. And her presence opens up his eyes a little bit so when the Illyrian rebellion arises again, he’s on their side instead.

And his new daughter loves stealing his shadows. 🥺

And she is the first Illyrian female to get a siphon. 🥺

And we have a moment after he adopts her that’s like: little girl yells out his name when she’s supposed to be sleeping. Az gets scared, he thinks something happened so he runs upstairs to find her. And she points to the bottom of her bed and says “my hero, my hero is under the bed”. And confused fatherly az goes to check under the bed to find a mirror instead. And he’s just staring at his reflection, realizing he’s her hero, since he saved her from hunger/near death. 🥺

And Azriel and his daughter just have unconditional love 🥺✨

This isn’t going to happen so now I’m crying

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I think everyone is going to enjoy this book it was great and had a really good plot aside just from the smut (which was also g8) and I'm so excited for Tuesday so everyone can get it!

Also here's what was in the box:

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Does it ever just hit you how contradictory Nesta is in everything about her a female protagonist?

She’s super feminine in that she wears dresses, acts like a lady (or at least wants to for a while), is prim and proper. She can be gentle and even maternal when she wants to be.

But then, she sleeps with a lot of people and drinks alot, curses so much, is generally agitating to be around because of her opinions and bluntness. Stereotypically male characteristics.

Nesta Archeron is a big f u to normal female archetypes in literature and I love it.

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Why Nesta was right in not getting a job after the war, and how the inner circle is fuckin stupid for even suggesting she should have - an Essay:

Ok hear me out :

Nesta stole from the Cauldron. From the Creator. From God. Capital G.

The last time a person had the guts to wield the Cauldron’s magic, she became a deity. She became prayers and wishes, religions and myths.

“Cauldron save you. Mother hold you. Pass through the gates, and smell that immortal land of milk and honey. Fear no evil. Feel no pain. Go, and enter eternity” - prayer said when someone’s dying

For those of you who don’t recall it, Mother was the female who spilled the cauldron’s magic on earth and created life.

She spilled the magic and used it as a tool . Nesta fucking ATE IT. She became the tool. Can you guys comprehend the sickening amount of POWER she holds? No? Apparently neither does the Inner Circle.

Here’s the thing:

If Nesta is powerful enough to scare the “most powerful high lord ever to exist™️” why ON EARTH would people push her into getting a job before she learns how to properly control her powers ? ESPECIALLY considering she is in such a fragile mental state ?

Of course, you could argue that “Rhysoto shouldn’t be forced to pay for her living expenses ! It isn’t his job to provide for her! So what if she has PTSD?”

And all of those affirmations are correct. But what you failed to consider, dear anti, is that :

One : it’s not his job to provide for her. But you know what his job actually fucking is ? To protect his people. Nesta is a powder keg. She could wipe his lovely town out of the face of the earth at the slightest sparkle.

Lets say that, after a lot of insisting, at the, idk, 80th job offer, Nesta gives in and accepts to be his emissary. What happens if, while negotiating ( In HIS name), something triggers her and she ends up hurting innocent people? If she hurts a High Lord ? the best scenario? a massacre . Worst ? war.

Oh and another thing: how come you so easily proclaim that it isn’t the job of a 500 YEAR OLD BILLIONAIRE KING to provide for a woman he sent into a war while criticizing the very same woman for not providing for her family at the age of 13 when she had no power, money OR skills ? How can you be so blindly ignorant? ( not to say hypocrite ?)

So, a summary: Nesta did the right thing and the Inner Circle is pathetic.

Anyways stan Nesta Archeron for good skin (and brains)