nobodyimportantdaily

[nobodyimportantdaily]

I'm sick of being cut down. I'm sick of being underestimated. I'm sick of people thinking they know anything about me. One day I'll prove them all wrong. Fuck this place. Fuck these people.

#pissed #angry #fuck men #leaving #prove them wrong #i'll be back

[nobodyimportantdaily]

I can't wait to leave this place. I'm going to prove them all wrong.

#kill my thoughts #actually bpd #suffering #bpd thoughts #sadquote #telling everyone that im fine #screw you #sexism #i can do this #prove them wrong

[nobodyimportantdaily]

At this point i hate sad songs because i feel like they make me feel worse. But then i listen to them, because the lyrics make me think about my own life...

[nobodyimportantdaily]

I'm scared to admit I wasted so much time

I feel trapped in my own life

Please don't expect so much from me

I'm scared I'm not making enough memories

I'm scared this is all I ever be

[nobodyimportantdaily]

I couldn’t trust my own emotions. Which emotional reactions were justified, if any? And which ones were tainted by the mental illness of BPD? I found myself fiercely guarding and limiting my emotional reactions, chastising myself for possible distortions and motivations. People who had known me years ago would barely recognize me now. I had become quiet and withdrawn in social settings, no longer the life of the party. After all, how could I know if my boisterous humor were spontaneous or just a borderline desire to be the center of attention? I could no longer trust any of my heart felt beliefs and opinions on politics, religion, or life. The debate queen had withered. I found myself looking at every single side of an issue unable to come to any conclusions for fear they might be tainted. My lifelong ability to be assertive had turned into a constant state of passivity.

[nobodyimportantdaily]

I feel like nothing matters anymore as long as they think I’m better.

Im trapped in an inescapable loop of disappointing everyone around me.

Bc no matter how much I talk about it how much I unpack it or move on it’s all bullshit im never going to stop. I need this pain too much. I tell myself I’m stopping but it’s all a lie. Lielielielie bc I need them to be happy. I dont matter anymore it’s just them. They just need to be happy.

[nobodyimportantdaily]

Just wanna kill myself, but I can't afford it.

[nobodyimportantdaily]

“I lost myself trying to please everyone else. Now I’m losing everyone while I’m trying to find myself.”

— Unknown

[nobodyimportantdaily]

I have been trying to go home my whole life.

[nobodyimportantdaily]

the unlovable me

The love I screamed and cried for, I wonder what could ever replace the love I begged for that a mother refused to even consider.

[nobodyimportantdaily]

"Those who pretend to be victims to justify their own malicious actions are masters in the art of emotional manipulation."

[nobodyimportantdaily]

and when I cut all contact, I hope you realize what you’ve done.

[nobodyimportantdaily]

Watching the sunset in a graveyard is like nothing else on this Earth. You'll never find such peace and quiet anywhere else. I can't wait to spend eternity in such peace.

#kill my thoughts #self destruction #actually bpd #suffering #bpd thoughts #dead #i'm trash #kms #sadquote #telling everyone that im fine #graveyard #peace #peaceful #inner peace #rest in peace #hope #reality

[nobodyimportantdaily]

Do you ever just feel like giving up? Like no matter how hard you try, it's just never enough? And its just never going to get better.

#kill my thoughts #self destruction #actually bpd #suffering #bpd thoughts #i'm trash #kms #sadquote #dead #telling everyone that im fine #i'm sad #sad thoughts #sad quotes #sadgirl #depressing #depressing shit #tw depressing thoughts #sorry for being depressing #rip #tw depressing stuff

[nobodyimportantdaily]

What if I just like… died.❤️

#actually bpd #sadquote #sadness #sad #sad thoughts #i'm sad #self destruction #depressing #depression #depressed #dead #bpd thoughts #telling everyone that im fine #trust no one #i'm trash #crying #tw suicude #suffering #kill my thoughts #kms

[nobodyimportantdaily]

[nobodyimportantdaily]

“It’s better to have nobody than someone who is half there, or who doesn’t want to be there.”

— Angelina Jolie