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1/11 Sunday 3:57pm

So I have a job now and I got high the night before my first shift so that they’d think that’s the sober me. I work 40hr weeks and meth helps me get up on time and get through it which honestly sucks. Right now I have no money even though I got paid only a few days ago, my bank is actually in negatives. I have no meth. I’m coming down. I have work tomorrow. Ugh why did I think this wouldn’t happen?

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Slipping back into old habits

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I’ve been high for so long idk when I last had more than 3 days in a row sober, idk who I am without this shit and I don’t think I even want to find out at this point

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and then you start to talk to people and you realize that while you take your dope on a daily basis the entire planet seems to take your dope on special occasion and not as much as you do. You then start to feel like an outsider even among drug addicts.

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I realised I had a drug problem when I started to snort a line before doing anything in the morning. that include getting out of bed.

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never trust a junkie. Especially if she calmly tells you “there’s nothing left at home.” There’s some left at home. When she doesn’t seem all that affected by the idea of never ever touching drugs again, she probably has no intention of being sober. When she overdosed on her dope, she meant for it to kill her, she never meant to survive it and get clean and healthy.

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basically i dont care if you drink smoke or do drugs as long as you can hold a conversation about something besides the fact that you drink smoke or do drugs

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10/9 Thursday 11:15am

I’m still alive guys. I’ve been sober 60 days this year. Not in a row, just all up

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“The hardest part of recovery isn’t when you’re not sure whether or not you want to recover. It’s tossing and turning at 2:30am wondering why you don’t feel any better even though you’ve been sober for almost three months. You’ve been trying your hardest, gone through so much pain, and yet you still feel like you’re not getting any better. In fact, it feels like you’re getting worse. Your heart wants to fight, but your brain wants to give up. It feels as though time is against you and recovery goes against everything you believe in. Keep staying strong. Eventually, instead of feeling like you have to keep fighting, you’ll want to.”

— Your purpose in life is to heal and evolve

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I’m probably one of the only tweakers who doesn’t in any way get horny from meth… I’d rather just do drugs and then do even more drugs.

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New Scream | Turnover

(my edit)

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I want meth tonight, I will get meth tonight. Lots and lots of meth, I am about to be smoking , tonight

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9/7 Thursday 9:50pm

I got meth last night and smoked it all and now I’m coming down and I don’t even know why I bother putting myself through this shit every single fucking time bro

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7/7 Tuesday 7:20pm

Well... guess what! I want meth lmao. Someone please gift me with the gift of methamphetamines tonight, pretty pretty please, thank you xox

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5/7 Sunday 9:57pm

Alone, again. Always alone. The fun stops when everyone’s run out of shit and they leave. Rinse and repeat, right? Fuck I’m such a disappointment to my family. 2 - nearly 3 - years ago I went down this path but it only took a few months for me to fuck up my life. I promise you, whoever passes you the pipe doesn’t care for you. Don’t fucking touch it, don’t ducking do it man. I’m begging. I wish I never did because all I can think about is how much I fucking want it and I can’t fucking afford it. Like shit I could buy a half ball for $300 a couple months ago. Now? Yeah right. Lucky if you can score a half gram for $250. Fuck this thing man

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Repeat - someone bless me with meth again plz or money, like now

Someone bless me with meth plz q