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the comfort in a freak4freak friendship is knowing that you won't be judged for being a freak

#prev: #‘cringe is dead and all my friends grew up and write rancid fanfic now’ #it’s me #i’m the freak writing rancid fanfic now #it’s fun #you should try it

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Secret to getting to know other fans on tumblr is reblogging. This sounds like a trap to get you guys to reblog art and fics and gifs which yes that’s an added benefit but also the way you get a feel of followers or mutuals is the little comments in the tags of a post like subtle little whispers and you start to recognise names like oh that’s the one who’s always nice to artists or that’s the funny one or maybe they have a funny queue pun tag or maybe there can be a little prev tags interaction like that’s how you start creating your own little likeminded souls club here. Also you get to put pretty art and fics and gifs on your blog

#this is ngl why I make an effort to interact in the tags on many things I reblog #it adds fun insight and makes this a more social experience for me

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dear sweet baby jesus on a corn cob is this going to be a fucking monster of a post based on the intensity of my google doc for it rn

might have to outright SPLIT it into multiple posts over a few days ifuhsnuinfkjdnhgjf

Preparing what’s likely to be a multi-post analysis series for a fan comic, stay tuned- not likely to post much in the coming days as I work on this lil side project

#jen rambles

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Preparing what’s likely to be a multi-post analysis series for a fan comic, stay tuned- not likely to post much in the coming days as I work on this lil side project

#jen rambles

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A while ago I saw a post that started out wishing Lilith's aroace identity got addressed onscreen, and I was like "yeah I totally agree, a voice acted stream reveal is many steps above 'some writer tweeting it after the show ends' but it would've still been far more exuberant and impactful to see it in the show." But then OP continued by saying there's nothing in Lilith's arc that reflects aromantic experiences, and look, I'm biased as the Lilith icon person, but like. Your experiences are not universal.

And... that's okay! My experiences aren't universal either. But as an aroace, I do have to say: Lilith does reflects one type of aroace experience, and that's the chronically ill aroace experience in particular.

It's the way that she's an adult who needs care from others, but first moves back in with her sister, and then moves back in with her parents, instead of moving in with or seeking out a romantic partner.

It's the way she grapples with independence and individualism, struggling to unravel "what she wants" from "what she needs in terms of support" and from "what society revolving around the Emperor's Coven has tricked her into conflating with self-worth".

It's the way she looks at her reflection and asks: "Am I broken?"

Not all aroaces are disabled and chronically ill. Not all aroaces have (or want) intense platonic friendships or close sibling relationships, and not are able to heal from trauma by living with their family. These are all arguments for more variety in aroace representation, to say nothing of a-spec representation as a whole — that just doesn't mean aroace characters with these traits don't represent anyone.

And this is also a chance to touch on a distinction that I feel isn't drawn often enough when talking about queer subtext of any form: I don't think Lilith, if you're only looking at the show itself, is a strongly or undeniably aroace-coded character. But she's absolutely a character whose arc is enhanced upon learning that she's aroace.

So don't get me wrong: I would like more than this. Lilith is like a baby step in terms of a-spec representation in animation — a meaningful step, but a small one. But for a series where each season except the first was heavily impacted (read: compressed) by the cancellation, and the unaffected first season was also the only one Lilith spent as an extremely polarizing villain, you can see how the crew could've gone in with extremely conscientious intentions and wound up having to make a tough call, right?

I don't even necessarily think they made the right call, I'm just willing to give them the benefit of the doubt that they tried. It feels like they put more than just some performative 30 seconds of thought into imagining how a disabled aroace with serious self-worth issues would interact with the world and improve herself — or, at least realized after some experience writing Lilith that being aroace fit her, and let that inform much of her Season 2 arc.

Like, maybe I'm personally extra desperate for disabled a-specs in media, but honestly? Lilith is a well-written one in all aspects but the lack of an onscreen "I've never felt attraction to someone" — and you don't have to agree with me, but I'll die on the hill that that all counts for something.

No hate to OP — if you know what post I'm vagueing about, be chill and normal about it, please. It's fine for some people not to feel represented, and put their thoughts out there — but it also seems that I, as a person who feels very represented, should put out some of my own thoughts for balance.

#I like this nuanced take #toh

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a "playing with jpegs like dolls" and wip spam

bc i'm bored af and am procrastinating going to bed, here's some of the art stuff i have cooking rn-

jean maverick (my OC) and hippie rose height difference ref (need to add another lil gremlin to this before i can finish it ahah)

the gremlin i need to finish the design for

a like... conceptual SUF piece i have in my brain but don't really know how to fully realize yet

a wittle guy (literally the LAST thing i need to finish on this comic project i have)

fanart wip of some characters for the @wtl-archive comic (this is gonna be the SUF family portrait but with the Mirror Line characters, these characters drawn so far are Sven and Carnelian)

very, VERY messy concept sketches for a SU animatic i wanna make that is Crack the Paragon related

and finally, some OC angst stuff. jean v morganite with tourmaline in the middle goin "oh shit okay they fightin' now." whoops!! all OCs here!

#jen rambles #wips #i am Very Slow at everything i do i'm sorry #i'm just in hell right now #don't mind me

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@novantinuum

Hey there, I'm really sorry to do this, but I saw your video and I couldn't help myself.

Link to the original here.

#LMAFOOOOOO #AUDIHANSDUHJSFBNGHJ #man good timing folks in a discord server were just going 'hey jen y'know what would slap. your vid but with hard knock life playing' #and they were Right #anyways this is that idea exactly folks please watch i'm CRYING #su #su future #steven universe

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POV ur steven at the trial: mfs looking at me like i did it😭😭💯

alt vers under the cut

was js messing around w gradient maps n such

#su #blue diamond #yellow diamond #su fanart

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Recently went through a Steven Universe phase again and rewatched some of it. Motivated me to make some fanart of my favorite character: amethyst.

#su #amethyst #su fanart

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ah yes, steven universe: skull fracture, my favorite show

#evening rebloop

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If you ever find yourself thinking "oh, I can't write this Cool But Impractical thing into my story, it's just not realistic", here are a few perfectly realistic reasons why people and even whole cultures would rather do something in an impractical way rather than the sensible one:

weird flex

religious reasons

religious weird flex (someone decided that they are So Religious that they consider the practical method Sinful, and people got competitive about it)

tax reasons (some ruler put a tax on doing something the sensible way and people started doing the impractical alternative as a legal loophole)

someone wildly powerful and popular preferred doing it that way, and everyone adapted to it in order to look cool

someone wildly unpopular suggested doing the practical thing, and everyone went out of their way to avoid doing that in order to not look uncool

it just genuinely never occurred to them that there is a better alternative, and their current method has been honed to perfection/adapted to the infrastructure so deeply that at this point altering it wouldn't be sensible

#*nods* #writing woes

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you ever read a story where you and the protagonist share such a specific brand of mental illness that you feel like you've been smacked with a mirror and you just gotta sit there with wet eyes as it lists all the ways you need to fix yourself. stories that say "this you? get help lmao". stories that equal six months of therapy. self recognition through the other? shoot that shit up my veins all day every day

#*peridot voice* steven universe futuuuuure

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ah yes, steven universe: skull fracture, my favorite show

#the funniest part of this is #if I had added all the spills he took in Fragments #i’d have added like six different fucking clips #jasper really beats him up there #but this is supposed to be a memory of all the falls he took BEFORE the xray #so it did not make the cut

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ah yes, steven universe: skull fracture, my favorite show

#su #su future #steven universe #su edit #my video stuff

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becoming very fond of the concept of lars gaining empath powers after he’s resurrected but. specifically for steven ONLY like

Lars: feels a sudden very tight twinge in his chest that does not go away for a good while

Lars: (grumbling, drags out his phone)

Lars, texting: steven take ur goddamn pills

[beat]

Steven, texting: oh ya thanks

#still thinking about this

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7k is a lot when you think about that many people in a room watching you on a stage. Absolutely terrifying

I could do it if I were playing a character, I think. But as me?? Wild. Please cart me off, I cannot do it XD

#thankfully i know damn well most of those blogs are dead now #thanks to various tumblr purges #my guess is that i only have a few hundred followers who like ACTIVELY check tumblr #and even less who are in the same fandom i'm in right now #jen rambles

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okay I saw someone pitch you had 40k followers and now I have to know if it’s true. It would make sense because you’re epic as heck but those are WILD tumblr numbers

Oh god no thankfully not that many XD

I'm like hovering at 7.3K rn

Still... a lot. But not THAT much a lot.

#jen rambles