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If a person with NPD is way to narcissistic to maintain a job or to work in the first place then they should be on disability.

Some people will say this isn't fair, these people are ableist. NPD is brain damage caused by childhood trauma. Do you want to be traumatized so badly you have a permanently damaged ego and you lose your ability to feel empathy? No? THEN SHUT THE FUCK UP.

#YES #I am unable to get a job. I've never had one. I am autistic and have npd on top of that to the point I cannot interact with other people. #I am also physically disabled which leaves manual labor jobs off the table #I am isolated from all opportunity!!!! I am removed from the public eye by the unknown people around me because they think I am too weird. #idk sorry to rant on your post (but not really yknow) #actually npd #npd #actually cluster b #cluster b safe #ableism #unemployment #for realz

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Comic about amnesia

#yes real #and then you have to fake one! or pick a random memory that you at least know about #osddid #actually osddid #and so it goes

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you are not immune to BITES YOU BITES YOU BITES YOU BITES YOU BITES YOU BITES YOU BITES YOU BITES YOU

#good morn and eve #however the time is when this reaches you #actually cluster b #cluster b #actually npd #npd #cluster b safe #npd safe

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Just realized I haven't posted in awhile! That's because my life is perfect and awesome and nothing ever goes wrong (sarcasm)

Anyways a few updates:

STILL WITH MY PARTNER! I love them deeply and I hope all of you find the connections and relationships you need right now. If you already have them I am so proud of you!

Got my appendix removed! It was very silly and I am still recovering from surgery lmao

Might be motivated to create art and such again!! Hooray!

Anyway gimme songs in the tags that you relate to as a Cluster B or System and such. Rant about it!! Put your favorite line!!! I want to hear them!!!

One of my favorites is The Bomb by Florence + The Machine, but that entire album is amazing I reccomend it heavily

#actually cluster b #cluster b #actually npd #npd #cluster b safe #npd safe #osddid #actually osddid #cw surgery #surgery mention #weather update!

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** not everyone with NPD relates to "supply", important to note that! Also important to note that "supply" has been reclaimed, as it's often used against pwNPD.

Okay that's all I've got to say about that!

I really, really want to work on redefining NPD symptoms to describe how we experience them rather than how other people experience them! This is what I've got! If anyone else with NPD wants to add anything go ahead!

Oh and one more thing, no symptoms are inherently abusive. But, some people do still insist on using them as an excuse to hurt others. If you hurt someone using your symptoms then you must apologize, you mustn't use them as an excuse, and you must take responsibility.

Here's a link to the post with image descriptions.

#yeah neat post! #It's always good to have accurate vocab #npd #actually npd #cluster b #actually cluster b #npd safe #cluster b safe

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Manipulating people for attention is a huge tendency of mine, but once received, it often feels artificial and less meaningful. Because it is. This is why you might see a narcissist refuse the validation they explicitly asked for. I want it so badly, but I want the real thing. Not something that’s only provided through force or because I wanted it. I need people to love me like its religion, but I need that to happen by their own choice. Otherwise, is the love really worth anything?

#true + real #actually cluster b #cluster b #actually npd #npd #cluster b safe #npd safe #narcissistic personality disorder #for realz

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Does anyone else struggle with owning or even looking at "childish" items like stuffed animals or media (cartoons, games) without feeling extreme gutwrenching shame? To the point of not being able to walk past a store that's targeted to kids without nearly having a panic attack. It's something I've noticed and I don't know anyone else has had the same experiences

#I have panic attacks when I am not prepared for it #it takes me hours to even think of interacting with them #let alone owning any #I've been working on it though! i now have a bit of a collection! #actually cluster b #cluster b #actually npd #npd #cluster b safe #npd safe #narcissistic personality disorder #for realz #idk if this is cluster b or not lmao

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Big Bird by AJJ

This is an art piece featuring lyrics from the song Big Bird by AJJ, which is one of my partner's favorite songs. I'll be giving him this piece :)

Please don't repost :)

#Btw guys this is me!! just wanted to reblog here lmao

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I've been with my partner for over 6 months and I STILL like his company <- the most impressive thing I've ever managed to do in my life

#actually cluster b #cluster b #actually npd #npd #cluster b safe #npd safe #for realz #he's a big sweetheart! and isn't sanist or ableist.... that's kinda silly!

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Weird/subtle amnesia things with DID that I didn't think I experienced because of amnesia

Not remembering that you don't remember. In fact, generally people who experience memory problems, but do NOT have DID, are typically aware of the fact that they have memory problems. People with DID generally remain unaware (not always, but oftentimes) and oftentimes afraid and defensive when their amnesia becomes evident. Be careful when pointing out memory problems to someone with DID (questioning or diagnosed) because of this.

Hazy/foggy/blurry memories. You look back at the past week and can barely remember. Having many hazy/blurry/foggy memories in general of your life.

Not remembering huge portions of your life history, especially in early childhood.

Losing knowledge and skills you know you had before. This doesn't just have to be things like cooking, cleaning, or driving, but things like drawing or other hobbies and interests, too.

Remembering only the facts of a situation, but not how you felt.

Remember vague details and being able to put together a vague summary of events, but not really truly "remembering" it. For example, you might know that you were very angry because you know you punched your wall, but you don't remember why you were angry and you don't "really" remember what happened, just that you were angry and punched the wall because of the evidence and vague memory of what happened, but you're unable to explain any of what happened or how you felt further.

Feeling like something happened a long time ago even though it happened recently, and vice-versa (feeling like something that happened a long time ago was recent). Especially if something happened just this morning, but it feels like it happened a long time ago.

(Feel free to add on!)

#good tool to start the process of ID'ing amnesia! I can never find anything online except from other systems #not a cluster b post #and so it goes #system #osddid #actually osddid #amnesia

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I love it when I go "man I don't have DID. What is all this bologna" and then I wake up 5 hours later and I am home and someone is filling me in on what happened while I was out like a cutscene in a video game. Shoutout to them for the communication though that is so cool and amazing

#not a cluster b post #and so it goes #actually osddid #osddid #system

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My gender is Childish but in the way your parents would spit that word at you for partaking in something like silly cartoons or stuffed animals as a young adult, not realizing that your freedom has given you the courage to indulge in things that were kept from you at the age your parents expected you to like them at. Anyway does anyone else feel guilt and disgust in a way so deep that it's hard to walk past a toy store in the mall

#I'm GOING THROUGH IT #idk if this is cluster b but this is the blog to put this nonsense lmao #it's really hard but now I own a lot of stuffed animals as a form of Healing trademark #still makes me cry and feel guilty though #BUT I OWN LITTLE GUYS!!! #actually cluster b #actually npd #cluster b safe #npd safe #for realz

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#yeah ill reblog that #actually cluster b #cluster b #npd #actually npd #cluster b safe #npd safe #for realz

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Hey if you guys love mentally ill + queer + trans poetry and art then you should go follow @wormprophet pretty please! It's my art account. It's only the sexy and cool thing to do /hj

#actually cluster b #cluster b #cluster b safe #for realz #if you do I'll kiss you right on the mouth or make you a really good meal or something. mwah

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goodnight strange homosexuals in my device i will see you all tomorrow if the fog doesn’t get me

#every time I post on this damn website #cluster b #actually cluster b #cluster b safe

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this is my inner child btw

#ohhh yeah #npd #actually cluster b #actually npd #cluster b #cluster b safe #npd safe #for realz

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My mother and father being Joan of Arc and Narcissus made me the worst version of Cassandra

#mythology #honest to god shitpost #actually cluster b #actually npd #npd #cluster b #cluster b safe #npd safe #narcissistic personality disorder #for realz