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@ Elizabeth warren, I totally understand why you don't want to be a part of the shitshow that is running for president but also I am deeply sad that you've decided to never run for president. I would elect you for 6 terms Elizabeth. SIX. PLEASE...

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also for all the pain oberlin gave me, the best damn thing it did for me was give me the chance to meet Sakina Lavingia. texting her for just 15 minutes yesterday reminded me that she is truly one of the best human beings I have ever known, and that she has helped me become a much more open, hard-working, and loving person. she quite literally changed my life and I don’t think I will ever forget her. there are still good things left in the world and she is 23984734958 of them. 

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WOW IT’S BEEN A TIME

well starting on election night, after having a simultaneous panic attack and crying episode on the floor, i got up and honest to god prayed for the first time in. probably 8 or 9 years. i’ve been doing it every day, just saying a small prayer for protection that my mom gave me god knows how long ago. i’m not quite sure as to what my religious feelings are atm, but has it helped me feel calmer when I do it? 1000% yes. so if you’re like. idk. want to know that someone out there is praying for you, I will add you to my very long list of people I ask protection for when I do it. I still do not agree with 99.99999% of the catholic church’s stances, I still love the current pope very much for making changes (however small, god we need them), and I still consider Catholicism to be more of my cultural heritage than my true faith, but fuck man, it can’t hurt. 

AND I CAN’T TELL MY MOM BECAUSE SHE FUCKING TOLD ME I’D GET MORE RELIGIOUS WHEN FACED WITH A DEEP CRISIS AND SHE WAS GODDAMN RIGHT, ONLY IT WASN’T MY NEAR DEATH IT WAS THE NEAR DEATH OF THE AMERICAN VOTING SYSTEM LMAO

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cause I brought it up last night I’m just going to state these things here for the record so y'all can learn: - I am greysexual. Grey-a. Greyce. Whatever you want to call it. This means, contrary to popular belief I guess, that I do experience sexual attraction to people on occasion, rare as those occasions may be. I do have a libido. I do enjoy sexual acts with others when I am willing. Sex is just not something I DESIRE, it’s like if you offered me a cookie and I’m not hungry but at times I will eat it anyway. That’s it. It’s not very complicated. - I am fully romantic. There is nothing grey about my romantic alignment at all. I don’t feel like defining it as homo or hetero or bi/pan whatever romantic, because I have not had enough feelings to really put a spin on it that specifically, but I do experience and desire and ENJOY having romantic feelings.

in short it would be super nice if people would remember these things about me and stop: - making jokes about me not settling down with anyone ever - assuming I do not want a relationship or family - assuming that I always refuse or don’t ever want to have sex - because lmao wow I am insecure about all of those things myself and don’t need reminders of my anxiety about it!!!!

I spent a good deal of time coming to terms with how I forced myself to get over my feelings of sex repulsion, and I spent a good deal of time figuring out all this alignment shit out after that. And some other things I am still in the process of figuring out too! It would be extra nice if people would stop being weirdly gross about it

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me when non-aces make ace character headcanons: "thanks but actually you're wrong……that character is not ace, but THIS one is so…"

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when ur wife invites a bee over for dinner and he sits in ur spot

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A lot of times I just feel like that part of Persepolis where Marjane lies on her bed and the bed vanishes into space and she just floats there, really small

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Feeling like everything is going wrong lately but this time it's legit and not my brain lol.....

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Chocolate Bourbon Cream Pie

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Rosa on b99: [breaks down crying as she confesses that she wasn't ready to enter a deeper stage of commitment with Marcus but regrets breaking up with him because she's afraid that might have been her one chance at love] me: "ha ha cool it's not like that's my absolute worst fear in life or anything"

#that episode hurt A Lot

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If I seem like I'm slightly overboard with Halloween this year just know that three years ago I got semi-dumped on freshman year Halloween which put me into a spiral of depression all that winter so I am literally determined to make this the best fucking Halloween of my life to prove to myself that this holiday is not defined by being dumped or being bored and alone in America or Europe and that I can make it whatever I want it to be. Also please help me have a little bit of fun during the night if you see me trying too hard to be hostess, I can kind of get sucked into that and forget to relax....

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i cant put this on my main because like 5 of my friends do this but omfg i H A T E when people try to analyze the opening credits/themesongs of cartoons THOSE THINGS MEAN LITERALLY NOTHING, HAS WATCHING MADOKA NOT TAUGHT YOU THAT OPENINGS ARE LITERALLY FILLED WITH LIES AND NONSENSE???????????

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Dude......I want to make out with someone so bad now.......

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"MJ you're in the art history department so why is your thesis called 'Studies in How Allosexual Culture Makes It Impossible for Good Fanfic to Exist Without Some Form of Sex Scene Included and Its Lifelong Effects on Confusing Ace-Umbrella Fans" "this school cost 60k so I'm going to do what I fucking want"

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I do wish I knew more people on the grey-a side bc I really need someone to understand how I can simultaneously be unfazed yet completely embarrassed about THINKING about smut, like god I'm a mess