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man is cloud strife pretty or what

#what's that?? gone for a year?? idk what ur talking about i've totally been here this whole time

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO THE LIGHT OF MY LIFE THE BEST BOY THE SWEETEST BABY BOY CLOUD STRIFE I LOVE YOU SO MUCH HOLY FUCK

#/ YES I LOGGED ON JUST FOR CLOUD'S BIRTHDAY / #/ IDK IF I'LL ANSWER ANYTHING WHILE I'M HERE BUT MAYBE / #/ HI GUYS ILY I HOPE UR DOIN WELL / #✦ ▌ 〈 ❛ OUT C . ◞ 〉 ⋮ your resident cloud strife enthusiast!

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bpd buddies? bpd buddies

#jnvas

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in-depth cloud strife about sheet

kinks: being protected fears: being protected

#✦ ▌ 〈 ❛ SHITPOST . ◞ 〉 ⋮ fuckin’ yeehaw brother. #/ is it rly a shitpost tho SDUYGFSUYDF / #/ yes i did log in JUST to post this SFGUYSDF how are u guys i hope ur doing well ! /

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hiatus notice

this fandom is stressful for me right now for various reasons and i’ve been going round and round in my head about what i want to do for the past week or so, and i still don’t really know the answer. cloud’s muse is still so vividly active, this blog really feels like home and i’m not ready to move on, but when every single move i do makes me terrified i think that’s a good sign that i should step away, even if i don’t want to.

i still want to be active here, and i might be! i’m simply… giving myself the option not to be if i need it. i’m going to stay off the dash, because it’s mayhem and i have some huge disappointments with this fandom and some others right now, but whenever i feel up to it i may reply to threads if i get any replies from my wonderful partners, or post some memes or something.

i never wanted to make this post or anything like it, i am strongly against drama, discourse, and callouts, and wanted none of that intruding on my safe space at all, and for that very reason i’m keeping this post vague and neutral. i will be attempting to shift focus for a bit to calm myself down, whether it be a few days, a few weeks, or a few months, i don’t know. i apologize, because i had just started to try jump start my ff multi too, but now’s just. not the time.

i’m gonna try and be active on another blog! right now, i don’t know if i even want to advertise it here or with promos at all because i honestly don’t know who i feel comfortable interacting with right now for the most part, but i want u to know that i love u all, no matter ur stances on the vague things i’m refusing to mention, even if ur one of the people i’m terrified to talk to right now, because there’s more to people and their lives than a blip of discourse on a barely functioning website where we write fictional characters and shitpost about god knows what til the cows come home.

if u find me, that’s great! u know my name and my special brand of screaming in tags so i don’t doubt that some people may recognize me, but for right now i think i’m going to keep my new location unannounced on this blog at least. stay safe! be kind to others and to urself! i will be back here eventually, i know i will. cloud had to fight my anxiety for 7 years for me to finally write him and he’s not going to let me get away so easily USYDGFUYSDF i love u guys!! see u wherever and whenever i see u!!

[omniheim]

hiatus notice

this fandom is stressful for me right now for various reasons and i’ve been going round and round in my head about what i want to do for the past week or so, and i still don’t really know the answer. cloud’s muse is still so vividly active, this blog really feels like home and i’m not ready to move on, but when every single move i do makes me terrified i think that’s a good sign that i should step away, even if i don’t want to.

i still want to be active here, and i might be! i’m simply… giving myself the option not to be if i need it. i’m going to stay off the dash, because it’s mayhem and i have some huge disappointments with this fandom and some others right now, but whenever i feel up to it i may reply to threads if i get any replies from my wonderful partners, or post some memes or something.

i never wanted to make this post or anything like it, i am strongly against drama, discourse, and callouts, and wanted none of that intruding on my safe space at all, and for that very reason i’m keeping this post vague and neutral. i will be attempting to shift focus for a bit to calm myself down, whether it be a few days, a few weeks, or a few months, i don’t know. i apologize, because i had just started to try jump start my ff multi too, but now’s just. not the time.

i’m gonna try and be active on another blog! right now, i don’t know if i even want to advertise it here or with promos at all because i honestly don’t know who i feel comfortable interacting with right now for the most part, but i want u to know that i love u all, no matter ur stances on the vague things i’m refusing to mention, even if ur one of the people i’m terrified to talk to right now, because there’s more to people and their lives than a blip of discourse on a barely functioning website where we write fictional characters and shitpost about god knows what til the cows come home.

if u find me, that’s great! u know my name and my special brand of screaming in tags so i don’t doubt that some people may recognize me, but for right now i think i’m going to keep my new location unannounced on this blog at least. stay safe! be kind to others and to urself! i will be back here eventually, i know i will. cloud had to fight my anxiety for 7 years for me to finally write him and he’s not going to let me get away so easily USYDGFUYSDF i love u guys!! see u wherever and whenever i see u!!

#/ last rb for today i promise !! /

[omniheim]

hiatus notice

this fandom is stressful for me right now for various reasons and i’ve been going round and round in my head about what i want to do for the past week or so, and i still don’t really know the answer. cloud’s muse is still so vividly active, this blog really feels like home and i’m not ready to move on, but when every single move i do makes me terrified i think that’s a good sign that i should step away, even if i don’t want to.

i still want to be active here, and i might be! i’m simply… giving myself the option not to be if i need it. i’m going to stay off the dash, because it’s mayhem and i have some huge disappointments with this fandom and some others right now, but whenever i feel up to it i may reply to threads if i get any replies from my wonderful partners, or post some memes or something.

i never wanted to make this post or anything like it, i am strongly against drama, discourse, and callouts, and wanted none of that intruding on my safe space at all, and for that very reason i’m keeping this post vague and neutral. i will be attempting to shift focus for a bit to calm myself down, whether it be a few days, a few weeks, or a few months, i don’t know. i apologize, because i had just started to try jump start my ff multi too, but now’s just. not the time.

i’m gonna try and be active on another blog! right now, i don’t know if i even want to advertise it here or with promos at all because i honestly don’t know who i feel comfortable interacting with right now for the most part, but i want u to know that i love u all, no matter ur stances on the vague things i’m refusing to mention, even if ur one of the people i’m terrified to talk to right now, because there’s more to people and their lives than a blip of discourse on a barely functioning website where we write fictional characters and shitpost about god knows what til the cows come home.

if u find me, that’s great! u know my name and my special brand of screaming in tags so i don’t doubt that some people may recognize me, but for right now i think i’m going to keep my new location unannounced on this blog at least. stay safe! be kind to others and to urself! i will be back here eventually, i know i will. cloud had to fight my anxiety for 7 years for me to finally write him and he’s not going to let me get away so easily USYDGFUYSDF i love u guys!! see u wherever and whenever i see u!!

[omniheim]

hiatus notice

this fandom is stressful for me right now for various reasons and i’ve been going round and round in my head about what i want to do for the past week or so, and i still don’t really know the answer. cloud’s muse is still so vividly active, this blog really feels like home and i’m not ready to move on, but when every single move i do makes me terrified i think that’s a good sign that i should step away, even if i don’t want to.

i still want to be active here, and i might be! i’m simply… giving myself the option not to be if i need it. i’m going to stay off the dash, because it’s mayhem and i have some huge disappointments with this fandom and some others right now, but whenever i feel up to it i may reply to threads if i get any replies from my wonderful partners, or post some memes or something.

i never wanted to make this post or anything like it, i am strongly against drama, discourse, and callouts, and wanted none of that intruding on my safe space at all, and for that very reason i’m keeping this post vague and neutral. i will be attempting to shift focus for a bit to calm myself down, whether it be a few days, a few weeks, or a few months, i don’t know. i apologize, because i had just started to try jump start my ff multi too, but now’s just. not the time.

i’m gonna try and be active on another blog! right now, i don’t know if i even want to advertise it here or with promos at all because i honestly don’t know who i feel comfortable interacting with right now for the most part, but i want u to know that i love u all, no matter ur stances on the vague things i’m refusing to mention, even if ur one of the people i’m terrified to talk to right now, because there’s more to people and their lives than a blip of discourse on a barely functioning website where we write fictional characters and shitpost about god knows what til the cows come home.

if u find me, that’s great! u know my name and my special brand of screaming in tags so i don’t doubt that some people may recognize me, but for right now i think i’m going to keep my new location unannounced on this blog at least. stay safe! be kind to others and to urself! i will be back here eventually, i know i will. cloud had to fight my anxiety for 7 years for me to finally write him and he’s not going to let me get away so easily USYDGFUYSDF i love u guys!! see u wherever and whenever i see u!!

[omniheim]

hiatus notice

this fandom is stressful for me right now for various reasons and i’ve been going round and round in my head about what i want to do for the past week or so, and i still don’t really know the answer. cloud’s muse is still so vividly active, this blog really feels like home and i’m not ready to move on, but when every single move i do makes me terrified i think that’s a good sign that i should step away, even if i don’t want to.

i still want to be active here, and i might be! i’m simply... giving myself the option not to be if i need it. i’m going to stay off the dash, because it’s mayhem and i have some huge disappointments with this fandom and some others right now, but whenever i feel up to it i may reply to threads if i get any replies from my wonderful partners, or post some memes or something.

i never wanted to make this post or anything like it, i am strongly against drama, discourse, and callouts, and wanted none of that intruding on my safe space at all, and for that very reason i’m keeping this post vague and neutral. i will be attempting to shift focus for a bit to calm myself down, whether it be a few days, a few weeks, or a few months, i don’t know. i apologize, because i had just started to try jump start my ff multi too, but now’s just. not the time.

i’m gonna try and be active on another blog! right now, i don’t know if i even want to advertise it here or with promos at all because i honestly don’t know who i feel comfortable interacting with right now for the most part, but i want u to know that i love u all, no matter ur stances on the vague things i’m refusing to mention, even if ur one of the people i’m terrified to talk to right now, because there’s more to people and their lives than a blip of discourse on a barely functioning website where we write fictional characters and shitpost about god knows what til the cows come home.

if u find me, that’s great! u know my name and my special brand of screaming in tags so i don’t doubt that some people may recognize me, but for right now i think i’m going to keep my new location unannounced on this blog at least. stay safe! be kind to others and to urself! i will be back here eventually, i know i will. cloud had to fight my anxiety for 7 years for me to finally write him and he’s not going to let me get away so easily USYDGFUYSDF i love u guys!! see u wherever and whenever i see u!!

#✦ ▌ 〈 ❛ PSA . ◞ 〉 ⋮ his dreams… his honour. #✦ ▌ 〈 ❛ OUT C . ◞ 〉 ⋮ your resident cloud strife enthusiast! #/ this was MUCH LONGER that i anticipated it being / #/ chances are cloud will drag me back here sooner than later but we'll see SDGFSD /

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idk if any of u will even get this reference but listen.

cloud strife is claire saffitz and zack fair is brad leone

#✦ ▌ 〈 ❛ OUT C . ◞ 〉 ⋮ your resident cloud strife enthusiast! #/ THAT'S JUST THEM THAT'S THEIR DYNAMIC / #/ ESP IN A DOMESTIC / MODERN / SLICE OF LIFE SETTING / #/ cloud constantly having breakdowns and being pushes to his limits / #/ zack constantly losing to his adhd and thicc accent / #/ zack: are u in a good mental spot right now ? / #/ cloud: no. /no./ *laughs in breakdown* not at all. / #/ cloud: i should have known this was not going to be a good day / #/ zack: cloud this is a great day stop! it's gonna be fine! / #/ cloud: you're putting a real 'jar 2/3rds full' spin on it / #/ zack: that's the kinda guy i am! and that's the kinda guy you are / #/ cloud: *opens mouth in protest* / #/ zack: starting today / #/ cloud: okay. ...starting monday /

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been in a really tricky headspace here so i’m gonna wipe all my current drafts and asks. again. to see if that makes me feel any less weird. any outstanding threads u guys may have with me ur free to continue or drop! completely up to u! i’m just gonna get rid of the stuff i still have sitting around

#✦ ▌ 〈 ❛ PSA . ◞ 〉 ⋮ his dreams… his honour. #✦ ▌ 〈 ❛ OUT C . ◞ 〉 ⋮ your resident cloud strife enthusiast! #/ asks are all gone already but some drafts are still sitting there / #/ might reply to one or two of them before wiping the rest but / #/ we'll see / #/ getting his muse out into writing is proving difficult right now / #/ pls let this work / #/ i don't wanna stop rping on cloud / #/ this blog still feels like home i'm not ready to move main muse yet! /

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〈     003◞        ❛    AXEL   .     〉

taciturn and aloof, so far removed yet somehow so alike to the surly yet energetic kid he remembered flashes of.  they’d been friends once, hadn’t they? trusted friends.  a little disconcerting to think there’s a part of him, a small one not yet nipped in the bud,  that still so desperately tries to hold on to his memories.  futile.  they bring nothing but trouble,  incite false emotion that only tug at the emptiness in his chest all the harder the moment they dissipate and he’s back to feeling nothing.  this body is just a husk, after all.  those memories don’t even truly belong to him. 

( but who’s words and beliefs is he repeating to himself here? )

“ tsk,  c’ mon now – you know it’s a set - up for failure, cloud.  “ he advances on the other,  prowling closer like a wildcat on the hunt,  green boring into unnaturally bright blue.  “ then again,  what would i know,  huh?  haven’t felt your brand a’ desperation in a really long time. “  he’s standing in front of him now, arms loosely crossed and head cocked.  “ is it zack? “ 

feels like a fever dream ,   this awful aura attached to a visage it shouldn’t fit ;   it makes the darkness inside himself that cloud tried so desperately to temper   &   tame flourish a little louder beneath a damaged heart .          the wing sprouting from his back   ———   not an ornament ,   despite as much as cloud tried to play it off as one   ———   rustled a little ,   uncomfortably ,   in its tight fold .          he keeps fluorescent eyes locked on the other as axel effortlessly invades personal space ,   own body staying still ,   defensive yet confident .

❛   we made a contract .   ❜          failure or not hades had to keep his side of the bargain   ———   idiotic choice or not cloud had to keep his side of the bargain too .          muscles tense with the taunt   &   brows pinch a little tighter ,   a huff passing lips ,   but whatever anger had managed to boil fizzled out the moment intentions were hit ,   right on the head .          bullseye .          head quickly turns ,   breaking eye contact to obscure the sudden pain he knew he couldn’t mask .          ❛   none of your business .   ❜

he’s stepping away now ,   attempting to walk passed the other .          cloud was done here .

#flamereign #✦ ▌ 〈 ❛ REPLY . ◞ 〉 ⋮ catastrophes & little wishes. #✦ ▌ 〈 ❛ IN C . ◞ 〉 ⋮ backwater & luminescence. #✦ ▌ 〈 ❛ KINGDOM HEARTS . ◞ 〉 ⋮ doubt & darkness stain your golden soul. #/ writing's hard have this absolute mess SFSDFSF /

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——— HIS DIVINITY IS TRUE, BUT IT IS FADING. ( independent roxas. beloved by celestea.  ©  )

#✦ ▌ 〈 ❛ AD . ◞ 〉 ⋮ each star tells a story. #/ TEA THIS IS BEAUTIFUL !! / #/ pls go follow tea is an ABSOLUTE GD TREASURE and i adore her sO. MUCH !! /

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〈    003◞        ❛   ROXAS   .    〉

          because he’d never give up on me. slowly, as if the subtlest movements could break this fragile air between them, roxas takes a glimpse back, just enough to see cloud’s expression. as inexperienced as he is with the world around him, roxas recognizes the despondency in those eyes: cloud misses this person he’s been searching for, this person he keeps close despite the aching distance.

          but, just as quickly as he had looked, roxas makes himself turn away & settles for what seems to be a stain on the sofa. is that the same look roxas wears right now, too? these similarities between them, along with cloud’s words shakes roxas to his very core in an almost violent manner. is that anger to the world / disappointment in himself / guilty for him ( oh, do you even deserve to think his name? ) that resonates so profoundly into his soul?

          ❛ do you get… i don’t know—scared? ❜ roxas hugs his knees closer, closer to his chest. it is difficult to fill an empty space that roxas himself cannot even touch, no matter how desperately he tries to close in on himself. even if he could, the only reason why a gaping hole exists in his heart at all is because this is a part of roxas’ heart meant to be filled by only one person. only by he who makes the meeting of stars & sea possible. but with the history between roxas & him, it makes roxas stop & think—maybe this search for a person he knows nothing & everything about is a mistake. ❛ what makes you so sure that he hasn’t given up on you, even ‘till now? ❜

roxas turns to face him   &   it takes all of cloud’s willpower   ———   tapping into the newfound resolve that’d only formed with the addition of the little boy who now lived in his household ;   the addition of a son ,   of denzel ,   &   learning what it meant to be a selfless father   ———   to not look elsewhere as their eyes met .          it was instinct ,   to turn away .          to cast his eyes to the side ...   because the truth was never easy to handle .          he’d stuck it out however   &   soon roxas was the one to turn away .          had he found whatever he’d been searching for ?

inquiries boar into him like a flame burning through plastic ,   eroding a hole   &   leaving what remained molten   &   deformed   ———   these were questions ,   the exact questions   ———   cloud had been avoiding asking himself like some form of plague .          it was amazing though what one could endure for another ;   right now he wasn’t doing this for himself ,   nor for zack ,   he had someone here who looked ,   sounded ,   felt ,   just as lost   &   alone   &   confused as he still was had been .          he wouldn’t run away from this .

cloud feels a nervous laugh bubble in the back of his throat ,   but it doesn’t slip free .          his mind pricks alight with warnings ,   sirens blaring ,   as something deep sets off .          he suddenly feels ill but swallows the alarmingly forming bile   &   pushes through that paranoia with nothing more than an outward sigh   &   the shift of achy bones .          ❛   ... yeah ,   ❜          he admits it   &   it’s shattering ,   like his world breaks a little ;   this safe   &    secure bubble he’d constructed for himself made now of only a thin glass .          ❛   real scared .   ❜          a pause ,   he’s staring off into the far side of the room now .          scanning the old   &   worn wallpaper for an answer .          ❛   ... don’t know .          whatever he’d seen in me ,   i definitely don’t see it .          was never the kind to give up though ,   once his mind was made that was it .   ❜          cloud struggles ,   words taking slightly longer to form than he’d wanted them to   ———   speaking was never his strong suit ,   doubly so when it was about himself .          ❛   i guess ...   i believe in who he is more than i believe in what i’m worth to him .   ❜

#icarise #✦ ▌ 〈 ❛ REPLY . ◞ 〉 ⋮ catastrophes & little wishes. #✦ ▌ 〈 ❛ IN C . ◞ 〉 ⋮ backwater & luminescence. #✦ ▌ 〈 ❛ KINGDOM HEARTS . ◞ 〉 ⋮ doubt & darkness stain your golden soul. #/ /IT RLY IS L O U D/ / #/ LOST BOYFRIEND SOLIDARITY !! / #/ and rox accidentally set off the fp fear too / #/ cloud internally: tell him something that won't make him feel worse / #/ also cloud internally: I'M NOT WORTH ZACK'S TIME !!! HE COULD DO SO MUCH BETTER THAN ME SO EASILY !! HE'S PROBABLY MOVED ON BY NOW !! #/ cloud: *outwardly rationalizes his thoughts for once as the bpd rattles in its brain cage* /

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the muse is here but the inspiration isn’t, ya feel me?

I JUST WANNA WRIIIITE

#✦ ▌ 〈 ❛ OUT C . ◞ 〉 ⋮ your resident cloud strife enthusiast! #/ WE WERE DOING SO WELL FOR A WHILE THERE / #/ WRITERS BLOCK DON'T HIT ME NOW /

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#✦ ▌ 〈 ❛ PSA . ◞ 〉 ⋮ his dreams… his honour. #✦ ▌ 〈 ❛ OUT C . ◞ 〉 ⋮ your resident cloud strife enthusiast! #/ GOD WHAT A FUCKING MOOD SDYUGFYUDS / #/ how u guys do it idk /

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                          her heart CASCADES with FAITH that you will RETURN 

                                                ind. sel. botw ZELDA                                                               chosen by KAI

#✦ ▌ 〈 ❛ AD . ◞ 〉 ⋮ each star tells a story. #/ PLS LOVE AND ADORE KAI / #/ HE'S A VERY GOOD /