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If you’ve been stuck trying to please a mom who became abusive/toxic because of generational trauma, realize you won’t save her. You might be the subject of your mom’s rage, paranoia, obsession etc - but you are not the cause of it. And if you didn’t change her after all those years of begging her, bargaining with her, self-harming, isolating, defending yourself, etc, you are not going to change her now. When they say “you can only save someone who wants to be saved”, that applies here. When they say “the only person who you can control is yourself” that applies here. Please let go of this guilt that you carry for something that’s entirely out of your hands. These ideas are pertinent to creating your path to freedom.
Recovery is different for everyone. Just because someone else’s recovery journey involves certain steps doesn’t mean yours needs to involve those same steps. Recovery is unique to us and it may take time to figure out what works for you. Don’t give up.
I find it interesting that when I have nightmares about my mother lately, she almost always kidnaps me and forces me to live with her again with no way out. But when I have nightmares about my dad, I dream he leaves be behind or stops being by my side.
I also find it interesting that the latter are more distressing than the former lately.
Like, the emotional abandonment (and all the abuse) from my mother traumatised me and fucked me up deeply, but the thing that hurts most now is the irrational fear that my dad could one day do the same. Just. Decide he's tired of being nice to me or having me around.
Idk. Idk. I don't need my mother anymore but I feel like I need my dad now more than ever. Or maybe I've always needed him, but because we're closer now than ever I've never been as scared to lose him as I am now. Idk.
This comic is a little different than what I usually do but I worked real hard on it—Maybe I'll make more infographic stuff in the future this ended up being fun. Hope you learned something new :)
If you are still curious and want to learn more about OCD, you can visit the International OCD Foundation's website. I also recommend this amazing TED ED video "Starving The Monster", which was my first introduction to the disorder and this video by John Green about his own experience with OCD.
The IOCDF's website can also help you find support groups, therapy, and has lots of online guides and resources as well if you or a loved one is struggling with the disorder. It is very comprehensive!
Reblog to teach your followers about OCD
(But also not reblogging doesn't make you evil, silly goose)