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im so sorry for my people 😔

i actually wasn't going to post anything regarding the eartquake in turkey because even though i'm physically not affected by it, still witnessing this kind of a distaster in my country is quite mentally draining. since it's almost impossible to see a footage so real in turkish tv, coming across this video first thing in the morning when i wake up made me tear up.

it's the greek state television opening the morning news with photos and videos of wreckages in turkey with a very emotional folk song we have. many countries around the world have send help since the first minute and times like this remind me that at the end of the day, we all are human.

adding these, the government here does so little to help people in the earthquake area and we have lost 7k+ people, thousands of building collapsed and even though it's passed 50hrs, there are people waiting for help and villages, cities with no rescue team reached. erd*gan and his allies have left everyone in the country alone and devastated and what's more heartbreaking is that the earthquake isn't the real reason behind the deaths, but it's the negligence, the disregard the politicians showed and continue to show.

please, please consider donating ahbap, a charity organization by turkish singer & philanthropist, haluk levent. it's probably the most and only reliable fundraiser we have here in turkey since the govm. related ones are absolutely full of shit. the link is here, please donate. help in any way you can.

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babiesss 😭❤️

Who was he?     Some Russian kid with tracks on his arms. Russian kid? That doesn’t sound good.

#all of them can kiss me #or kill me #i’m okay both ways #the gentlemen

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hi, i’m not sure if anyone would like to read this since it’s a silly idea that came out of nowhere. i still have the writer’s block and i judge every single word i’m writing. i thought i could write something short to exercise and i found the prompts on @creativepromptsforwriting ’s blog. i just want to explore ray’s personality and as i mentioned before, i’d love to write for him if you have any suggestions/requests 💗

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‘Wow, you haven’t changed one bit. And that is not a compliment.’ You blurted out and by the look on his face, you’d say Raymond wasn’t happy with that comment. It’s been almost two years since you’ve last seen each other and well, even though it was hard at first, you’ve both found your own separate ways. 

It wasn’t like things between you ended bad, on the contrary, you finished it promising you’ll stay on good terms. Raymond was deep in Mickey’s work, he had to be, given he was his right hand and you, you had your own plans for your life. You tried to wait for him, really. You forgave him when he missed dates and forgot special days but when he stopped coming home because he was too busy, you also stopped seeing a future with him. 

You’d say you’ve tried your best to understand him, his whole personality and the line of his work. At first, you were ready to give him everything, you wanted to be comforting, caring and all of those other things he’d need. You’d ignore your work and wait for him in the night, only to see him once. You’d cook new meals you’d think he’d enjoy, only to eat them all alone in his big kitchen. 

With time, you stopped feeling like you were in a relationship. He was all nice when he was around though, that was why you avoided the talk about breaking up for so long. He’d be such a gentleman all the time, showering you with love. Whenever you were invited to an event at the Pearson house, you’d notice how people admired the thing you’ve shared. 

It started to feel like a show then, as if you were a habit. In the mornings, he’d be the businessman he needed to be. He’d have the same coffee, wear similar colours of clothing and many more other routines than you could count. At parties and stuff, he’d have you to hang on his arm. 

That wasn’t the man you’ve fallen in love with, no. You’ve held so much respect for him, you really liked the way he had control over his life. You felt safe with him. You loved the way he’d go out of his way to try something new for you, whether it be a meal or a movie. He’d willingly create a mess with you without feeling to be neat. He’d hold your hand to take you dancing in the rain until you were both soaked, that was the man you’ve come to love. 

Though you both tried, it didn’t work out. Raymond would never give up from work and you, you could never stay in a place you didn’t feel appreciated. You didn’t want him to give up everything for you, you’d never ask that but you wanted his attention, you craved his love. 

It was how you were raised, in the end. If you felt like something or someone wasn’t enough for you, you’d leave and move on because you thought you deserved better than that, you knew you deserved better. 

Breaking up with him was the hardest part, explaining to him you wanted more and knowing he couldn’t give that hurt both of you. ‘I love you, Ray. Don’t ever think I’m leaving because I don’t. I still feel this strange feeling I felt the first time when you reached out to hold my hand. I know we had our good days but I don’t think this thing between us going anywhere. I’m sorry.’ You tried to smile with tears running down your cheeks and he nodded, you knew he’d understand.

Now, you were face to face after two years and you were waiting for a response to your comment. ‘You already know I like having habits, y/n.’ Raymond finally said and you smiled with that, it wasn’t a happy smile since you were reminded of memories. He’d choose the same mug in the mornings, the same plate for lunch when he was at home, he’d read the same book when he was in a bad mood and he’d play the same songs when you two would try to make dinner. 

‘Oh, I know that. There’s a change though, the beard suits you.’ You complimented this time, in an attempt to make up for your lash out. ‘You always said it would so I gave it a chance.’ You smiled and it was sincere, ‘Now please tell me Ray, why did Rosalind bother to call me this time? I thought I was long forgotten, just receiving invitations because of formality.’

‘Because it’s different this time, y/n. I thought about inviting you myself but I don’t know if that’d be the wisest choice. I know I mistreated you and made you feel like you were less. It’s just... It’s over now. Michael sold his business, he’s getting retired. Please, let me finish first.’ 

‘I know it’s selfish of me to reach out to you after all this time but I couldn’t live if I didn’t try once. I’m out now, y/n and I’m just wondering... That if you could give me one last chance? I know you may be in a relationship now, I understand if you don’t trust me again or you just don’t have those feelings anymore. I just need to know if we can try again because I hadn’t spent a day without thinking about you.’ 

Raymond stopped then, he didn’t want to scare you off. He’d do anything for you, even if it meant staying away. He finally looked directly into your eyes, searching for an answer. You held your tears as he held his breath and you were about to answer, when a gunshot was heard, suppressing the soft music in the ballroom as it rang in your ears.

#raymond smith #raymond smith x reader #the gentlemen #charlie hunnam #raymond smith x you #mickey pearson #guy ritchie

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I’m taking requests for:

please don’t request smut for anyone, i don’t think i’m capable of writing smut yet. i will be glad if you reblog this if you think your friends/followers would be interested :)

Jack Harlow 

Matthew Mcconaughey characters:

Rust Cohle Mickey Pearson

Charlie Hunnam characters:

Raymond Smith

Oscar Isaac characters:

Duke Leto Atreides Llewyn Davis

Keanu Reeves characters:

Neo John Wick

Mads Mikkelsen characters:

Duncan Vizla

#yess i'm finally back #jack harlow #jack harlow x reader #matthew mcconaughey #rust cohle x reader #mickey pearson x reader #charlie hunnam #raymond smith x reader #oscar isaac #duke leto x reader #llewyn davis x reader #keanu reeves #neo x reader #john wick x reader #mads mikkelsen #duncan vizla x reader

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hi, I’m back

I know I’ve been gone for too long and I doubt if anyone will remember me but yes, I’m kinda back. It’s been the toughest year of my life, both physically and mentally. (fyi, I was preparing for the university exams and they went good, I’m waiting for the results)  I’ve missed being active on here so much but I’m scared I won’t be as good as I was back then. Writing requires a lot of patience and practice if you ask me and to be honest, I hardly wrote anything for a long while. 

If anyone wonders, I won’t watch the last season of Peaky Blinders nowadays. I love the characters but I want the focus on some others. I watched True Detective’s first season at the beginning of this year and I definitely want to write for Rust. I haven’t seen the last season of Hannibal also and I’m not planning to watch it soon, too. Waiting for my results is making me so much anxious that I can barely focus on movies (or anything else) these days. 

After posting this, I will make a specific post for whom I’ll be writing for. I hope you welcome me back here. Sending you lots of love xxx

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one of them days where my family treats me like i’m such a disappointment, though i can say i feel the same way about them 😬

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yesterday the president called some women sluts, i don’t want to think about what he’d say to me, a bisexual girl.

some people say i am this country’s child, i should work to make here a better place. but call me selfish if you want, i won’t stay here. as soon as i get to uni and graduate, i’ll take the first chance to leave this place.

i want to live without think about my safety, i want to live in a place where i can love freely.

last pride i wasn’t sure of who i am, but now i embrace my sexuality and this time it pains me to know i can’t tell who i am without risking my life.

so, happy pride! especially to us

STAY SAFE!! [ID: the Gilbert Baker pride flag with the words “Happy pride to all those who are unable to celebrate openly and safely. You are loved and seen!” in all-caps black text over it. /end ID]

#pride 2022 #pride

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Then you were singing the usual classics while everyone was enjoying their meals, the young Paul Atreides occasionally stopped eating to admire your voice. Then it was time for the cake and you remembered the iconic moment you’ve listened to for hundred times, Marilyn Monroe singing happy birthday to the president at that time. Well, in your case you weren’t having an affair with the ruler but you couldn’t help but steal a glance from the Duke. He looked sharp and neat, all charismatic in that uniform. His beard was taken good care of, trimmed and you wondered how it’d feel under your fingertips.

***

You answered again, though your eyes were on the Duke for a second, watching him as he finished his drink, his tongue slightly darting out to lick his lips and he suddenly caught your gaze, you felt as if you were caught bloody-handed.

Then he did something you’d never expect from him, he smiled, no, he cockily grinned at you. You felt like you were on fire under his gaze, suddenly the room seemed too hot, although you were the only one in there with bare shoulders and legs. What was he thinking, looking at you like that in a table he was sat with the mother of his son?

what do you think of thiss?? you know, i fell for leto the moment i saw the trailer and i swear he’s the only dilf i’m thinking of every day since then 

i check the tags and it’s mostly the arranged marriage trope -which i really like, i’m not saying this to offend anyone- so i’ve thought of something different

this is just a little snippet and i’d love to know if anyone would be interested if i were to write for duke leto atreides. also please know that i haven’t read the books, have so little knowledge about the universe of dune and this is based on the movie i’ve only watched once. 

let me know what you think please :))

#i'm super excited now #i know it's not very clever of me to write this when i really have to study #but i just couldn't wait and wanted to share it with you #duke leto atreides #oscar isaac #dune #duke leto x you #leto atreides x you #leto atreides x reader #paul atreides #lady jessica #duke leto x reader

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Reblog and in the tags put a song that you wish was on spotify 

#i'm a fool to want you #by mitski #and it was ON spotify #but it's no longer there #idk why but i demand an explanation #PLS SPOTIFY IF YOU SEE THIS #JUST PUT IT BACK THERE I NEED IT #BADLY

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thisss!!!i want 😩😩

Them ...

#met gala 2022 #blake lively #ryan reynolds #i’m in love with this woman????

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i justtttt wanna get into uni and start a studyblr sideblog here is it too much to ask for 😩😩😩 (only 50 days left to my exams)

#and get back into writing #obviously

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one year since our special Aunt Polly, Helen McCrory departed to the skies. you are forever missed.

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first things first, i want to apologize for replying this late. i feel like i’ve been ignoring you unintentionally, but please believe your reblogs made me smile on bad days. for a long time i couldn’t write anything thanks to my school and i won’t be able to for a couple of months more. still it makes me so happy to see people still appreciating the things i created without thinking i’d get any feedback, let alone receiving support. it’s people like you i want to keep writing for, i thank you very much for supporting me 

firstly, I want to apologize for the endless spam i've probably been inflicting on different fanfic writers w my reblogs etc. secondly, the purpose of this post is basically me wanting to give y'all some appreciation. I often feel that fanfic writers in general do not get the true love and appreciation they deserve for all the work they put into the pieces of writing that they share. life can be chaotic as it is and to be able to create such beautiful pieces of work that can bring comfort to anyone who may reads it is truly to be appreciated. I send those I tag in this and all fanfic writers in general endless thanks for all your hard work and for producing writing that brings myself + surely many others so much comfort in our darkest times. I am sorry if you ever have to put up w ppl pressuring you into publishing work or updating series bc we readers are truly not entitled to anything. you take time out of your own days + lives to create work both for us as well as yourselves and that is something that deserves gratitude. you do not have an obligation to write fanfic but you continue to do so regardless and for that I am immensely grateful. thank you for your work + thank you for sharing your creations w us. I send every fanfic writer endless love and appreciation bc you all deserve it ❤️✨

just to tag a few fanfic writers that I feel deserve so much love + appreciation, not just for their work but for the comfort their writing has brought to me. I am thankful for you all: @look-at-the-soul @holacia2 @retromafia @theshelbyclan @hb-writes @shelbywhiterose @ugly-crying-over-bucky-barnes @zablife @runnning-outof-time @ijustwant2write @queenshelby @missymurphy1985 @cillspropertea @celticmelody @peakyswift @solomons-finest-rum @peakyblindersxx @fandoms-writings @gypsy-girl-08 @smallheathgangsters @opheliasbrokenmind @bonniesgoldengirl @gretelshelby @merakiaes @siriuslyshewrote @hardyimagines @cas-kingdom @mrssnivellussnape @wouldpollyapprove @sinfulshelbys @themenof--birmingham @nineteenninety-six @fuckingthefictional + others.

(I am DEFINITELY forgetting some but the ones i've tagged are those i've been able to remember off the top of my head)

#i love here #and i love people on here #if i could i'd definitely invite you to my prom lol #thanksss again #fanfiction

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gonna show this pic the next time someone asks me about my religion

#lana del rey #aka my god

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i’m this kind of person:

okay wait. are u all a “i have one huge playlist that gets shuffled” kind of person or a “i have 72340 different playlists, each for an extremely specific mood” kind of person

[opheliasbrokenmind]

the peak of bisexual cinema

ATONEMENT — dir. Joe Wright (2007)

#i believe these two made me bi #i was straight and then... #atonement

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it’s a good day to be bisexual 😌

them

#scoot over bitches i’m joining this relationship #peaky blinders #tommy shelby #lizzie shelby