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I can’t wait to live with her. I can’t wait to see her face in the mornings and kiss her the second I wake up. I can’t wait to look at how the sunlight looks on her while we both refuse to get out of bed. I can’t wait to make breakfast with her and read books together and just be in her company every day. Even cleaning and doing housework would be absolutely perfect as long as I’m doing it with her. I can’t wait to get a home with her and help her make it into the perfect home for us. The fact that I get to spend every single day with her is so relieving. I’m going to spend every single day with the most beautiful, amazing person I’ve ever met.

#<3 #wlw blog #wlw community #wlw post #lgbtqplus #god i love her #she is so perfect #i want to spend my entire life with her #she is my heart

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Every night you dream that you talk to a genie, when you wake up you can't remember what you wished for. One morning you wake up with a giant crab pincer replacing your right arm. What do you do?

I sit on the edge of my bed in shock before realizing, now I can do what I have always dreamed of, figure out what being jerked off by Eugene Krabs would feel like.

(I am so sorry it’s almost 2am I’m suffering)

#satt-prompt #show and tell time #satt-genie #satt-writing-prompt #show and tell #satt

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I know this feeling all too well, yet describing it is one of the hardest things I’ve ever done. My chest feels barren and vulnerable, opened up and ripped to shreds. My throat feels stiff and clogged up, sobbing doesn’t seem to help, though it’s all I want to do. I’m restless, I need to be doing something with my hands, my head, I need to be talking to someone, I need something, anything to distract me from this feeling. But the feeling is so petrifying that, when I try to think about something to use as a distraction, all I do is sit there as my breathing gets heavy and I start to shake as my mind races for something to save me. I never feel more helpless than when this feeling comes home. And I’m happier than ever when it decides to leave me. But I know it’s always going to keep coming back. It’s going to scratch at the front door and bang on the walls until it gets in and there is nothing I can do to stop it in time. It’s much too quick. Much too strong for me to fight it off. I’m too exhausted, too weak-kneed to stand up to it. So it comes back, and I lay in my bed clutching my blanket to my chest as hard as I can because I need to fill that empty feeling somehow. I tell myself over and over not to cry, mumbling to myself about how I’m “okay” and how I “don’t need to cry”, but it never works because the tears fall and the sobs claw their way out of my throat before I can contain them. I cry until my stomach hurts. I cry until my breathing is so heavy I feel like I’m going to pass out. I cry and I cry and I want it to stop but it’s so comforting. I’m so lonely, but that feeling comes home to me and wraps me in it’s arms and even though I hate being in its grasp, it’s embrace is the most warm thing I’ve felt in a while. So I cry and hug the feeling back in defeat.

#vent tag #personal vent #vent post #i’m not okay #but I will be #i love you #you are not your thoughts #you are not alone

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I need to clear my head a bit so don’t mind this

I was doing fine for months, on top of my game honestly. I was sleeping better, looking forward to waking up every day, getting anything I was avoiding done, but something changed. I think I overdid it. I got my hopes up. It’s getting bad again and I’m honestly scared. I don’t want to be like that again. I don’t want to stay up until the sun comes up because the empty feeling is so heavy that I can’t even close my eyes. I don’t want to spend the day in my bed because I can’t bring myself to move. I don’t want that. There was a time where that feeling was so comforting because I had felt it for so long, but after these past few months, the thought of being like that again terrifies me. I can’t do that again. I have so much I need to do and look forward to, and I want to be able to, more than anything, but the nights are getting harder. Opening my eyes in the morning is draining again. Getting up is becoming exhausting again. Thinking about the next day makes the heavy feeling worse. I don’t want to go back to that. I just want to be okay. I want to be fine again.

#thoughts #brain dump #ignore ignore ignore #i just can’t stop thinking

[our-lovely-minds]

Good morning loves. Make sure to eat something today, even if it’s small. And drink water, take care <3

#ily #positivity #wholesome #positive #<3 #drink water #eat something #hi i love you #i love you #you are perfect #im proud of you #you are awesome

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If you can afford to buy technoblades merch, please do. A portion of the money goes to curesarcoma.org

#rip technoblade #technoblade #mcyt #mcyt technoblade

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This broke my heart even more

and the universe said I love you/

and the universe said you have played the game well

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This

I don’t typically do this, but I have to agree with the others saying this: Do NOT bring up Techno’s death in CCs chats, be it Twitch, YouTube, or anything else. The CCs deserve the ability to grieve in peace. They should not be finding out about it through flipping Twitch chat.

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Here’s a reminder to drink water, take your meds if you’re on any, and give yourself a break. You truly deserve it. I love you.

#positivity #ily #<3 #positive #wholesome #it will get better #soon youll get better #it’s gonna be okay

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I don’t know where else to express how I’m feeling right now so I think I’ll do it on here.

As someone who was a fan of technoblade in 2020-2021, it is so heartbreaking to hear about his passing. He was only 23. He deserved to be able to live a full happy life and I am so heartbroken for his friends and family. He was a huge inspiration to his entire community. It doesn’t even feel real. I stopped watching him a while ago and I wish I would’ve watched him and supported him more. Cancer truly is a horrific thing. I hope his friends and family will be okay. I don’t know if I even have the right to cry about this. I didn’t know him personally but I know he was such a genuinely amazing person. I’m in shock. My heart goes out to his family and friends, I hope they all know that there are millions of people out there who are here for them, and I hope they make it through this. Things won’t be the same without him. If anyone needs to talk about this my dms are always open and I am here for you. Take care of yourselves, my loves. He is always with us no matter what.

#technoblade #dream smp #rip technoblade #death tw #fuck cancer

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I have been feeling like absolute ass but listening to Ethan Nestor’s Christmas covers really got me busting a move ‼️ Anywho I hope everyone has a very merry Christmas and happy holidays! <333

#christmas #it’s christmas #bro it’s Christmas #holy shit it’s Christmas #<3

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Yet another vent post, tw for self harm

I can’t wait for the days where I’m finally better. The days where I can shower and not wince because it stings on my thighs again. The days where I can wake up and not cry about it. The days where I can actually motivate myself to sit up in bed. The days where I don’t break down and rely on a fucking blade to numb me. The days where I can go out and socialize and not be cooped up anymore. I really can’t wait but I don’t know if it’s ever going to happen.

#vent tag #personal vent #vent post #vent #mentally drained #venting

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reblog if ur tired and want to make out w/ a cute girl

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When my friends tell me I need to move on- like bae it’s been three fucking years it’s hard to move on when I’m pretty sure I’m in love with someone 😀

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I just want to be happy man. I want to be able to wake up in the morning and feel content. I want to be able to fall asleep without worrying about every little thing until 6am. I want to be able to live instead of just survive.

#vent tag #personal vent #vent post #vent #venting

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Another vent post because I just don’t know what to do with all of my feelings because I can’t tell her how I feel so I guess I’ll just tell tumblr LMAO

I couldn’t sleep last night because no matter what I thought about my brain kept going back to her. I wish I could spend Halloween with her. My favorite holiday with my favorite person. I hope her and her new boyfriend have a good time, if they spend the holiday together. I really just want her to be happy so I really hope he treats her as amazing as she is. I hope she doesn’t feel like she isn’t good enough for him like she did during our relationship. I hope she realizes just how great and perfect she is. Everytime I close my eyes I just see her. Everytime I think, I think of her. I wish she were here with me right now. I’d give anything to have her.

#i am so sad #vent tag #vent post #personal vent #i miss her #i wish she was here #:((

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I miss her so much :( she is all I’ve wanted for three fucking years. Why can’t we just work? Why is it always so complicated with her? I just want her here. It’s been over three months since she broke up with me and I still can’t stop thinking about her. I thought everything was going great. I was actually happy. I just want her.

#personal vent #vent post #vent #vent tag #i miss her #why is it so hard #ugh ugh ugh #:(( #i’m sad lol