Getting mad at someone for keeping a secret that didn't involve them is not the same as keeping a secret when someone's life is in danger. Maddie needs help and support and Buck should have told people instead of keeping it to himself. It is important for Maddie to have autonomy over her decisions but she is in a serious, and potentially fatal, mental health crisis with no one to look after her. As a first responder, Buck should know this.
Chimney kept the secret about Buck's past because Maddie wanted to tell him herself. He gave her autonomy when it was absolutely essential that she had it.
The fact that the Buck obsessed people who ruined this fandom for me with their complete absolution of a grown man can't understand that is truly concerning.
Buck got punched because Chimney is terrified and Buck made everything so much harder. Postpartum depression is one of the worst things on earth and it is wreaking havoc on both Maddie and Chimney.
Buck pretending it doesn't exist is the most selfish thing he's done. And that is saying a lot.
Where is Buck from Season 2? Where is the Buck that fought everyone to get Maddie back?
That guy was worth giving a shit about.
"Hey." Chimney doesn't turn around when he hears his best friend's voice, just looking down at the gravestone as she comes to stand beside him. She didn't have to come, she didn't even have to remember this day, but she did, and that's one of the reasons why he loves Hen so much. She's caring and she's loyal, and when she devotes herself, she gives her all. She and Bobby have been the ones he's leaned on the most, especially during one of the most difficult periods of his life so far. Normally, if he was struggling with emotions or feelings and he needed to vent or release or cry or just be held, there was no one else he'd rather be with than Maddie. But right now, she's not in a state of mind to help herself right now, let alone their daughter and him, and this is the reality that's slowly eating away at Chimney. Because even though she's asked for help and she's trying, he misses the light in her eyes and the happiness in her voice, and going home means having to see a shell of the woman he loves. He has to hope that she'll be back one day, that they will emerge from the darkness, that Maddie will make it through because she always has.
He shakes his head as he looks down at the gravestone, his jaw trembling, but otherwise staying silent next to Hen. He appreciates the support, he appreciates not being here alone, because it doesn't matter how much time has passed, grief doesn't suddenly vanish does it? It may lessen over time so it doesn't feel like you're suffocating every single day, so that you can miss the person without being burdened down with grief. But death is a wound that time can't heal.
Beloved mother and friend.
He remembers Maddie holding him on this day last year when he had been remembering his mom, and her comforting arms and her gentle voice had soothed him, reminding him of the way his mother would kiss the top of his head and just reassure him that it's okay to feel. And now... He shakes his head in distress because this is so damn hard, and he doesn't know when it will get easier. He can't lose her. He can't. "You know I'm the same age my mom was when she died," he begins, a tinge of sadness to his tone that he doesn't bother hiding. "And I do ... I do remember some things, and as Jee continues to grow up, I see her in my daughter more and more every day. But like this is the time in my life that I need her so much you know?"
Hen stays quiet but gives him a reassuring smile and a pat on the back, knowing that he needs to let it out, which he doesn't and can't do at home. "There have been moments in my life where I've missed her more than usual. Not knowing what I wanted to do in my life, losing Kevin, rebar and then meeting Maddie." He gives her a wry smile but it doesn't hide the pain in his voice. "She would have loved her, you know, just for the fact that she makes me so damn happy. And that Maddie chose to name our daughter after her and honor her that way, knowing how important my mom is to me." He sighs, putting his hands on his knees and letting out a breath. "God, I wish she could have met the woman who made my life so infinitely better. And I wish she could tell me what the hell to do, Hen, because I can't help Maddie. I can't." His grief and his fear seem to be rolling all into one, although he hasn't lost Maddie yet, but he has lost his mom and Kevin, hasn't he? And the fear may be irrational, but it doesn't mean he's not watching Maddie like a hawk whenever he's home because he can't imagine his life without her.
"You're doing the best you can, Chim," she rubs his back gently, "but you're not a miracle worker and these things take time. It's okay to feel this way, hell, it's healthy. No one will hold it against you. Just promise me that you won't hold it in, okay? Any time, any day, you can vent to me and I'll hear whatever it is you say." She looks down at the grave and smiles. "And your mom would be so damn proud of the man you've become, an amazing and supportive partner and a loving and devoted father first and foremost, but then my best friend and a dedicated paramedic. You may have doubts, but I'll always be here to remind you of the man you are."
"Thanks for being here, Hen."
Conversations with Chimney - send me a character and I'll write a drabble of them with Chimney
The articles about Maddie's abduction are dated for April 2, 2019, so my best guess is probably sometime in March 2019!
What year did Doug come and abducted Maddie? 2018 or 2019
I went back and checked on the divorce which was filed in February sometime, but the year is definitely 2019. Since Doug showed up outside Maddie's place in the Christmas episode, and then 2x11 is supposed to be in the new year.
I'll add onto this if I find out more.
2.15 | Ocean’s 9-1-1
Maddie inhales and exhales, suddenly feeling nervous about the fact that she was going out on a date. It feels so real now, her stomach tingling, biting down on her lip as she turns around and examines herself in the mirror, wondering if she's too overdressed for a first date. But she wants this to be perfect, because she doesn't think she can find a better man than Howard Han. A wonderful father first and foremost, an incredible and supporting partner as he had been for the last few weeks although they haven't officially labeled it yet, and this was the first time they would be going out as a couple. They need to have that conversation, but for now Maddie is content with where they are and where they are going, and Howie hasn't given any indication that he's not in this for the long haul. You would think after her marriage Maddie would have preferred to be alone for a long time, not being able to trust another man not to hurt her like her husband had, but Howie was special and she knew that in her bones. She thanks the universe for bringing their paths together and showing her that there is hope for the future, hope for Maddie to be happy and comfortable with a man who cherishes and protects her.
Her eyes go to the wedding ring that rests on her dresser and she picks it up, holding it in her palm. Doug is her past, Chimney is her future, and she had made the decision to leave Doug behind long before meeting Howie. It had just … taken her a while to put the plan into execution. Living on her own now gives Maddie an appreciation for all the little things that she hadn't had before, feeling like she can breathe freely without being on edge, waiting for Doug to snap. And yet, putting away a marriage that had once had so much potential, at least in her twenty four year old self's mind, does cause her anguish and pain, but it's for the best, because it can't be salvaged. She had tried too hard, for too long, and there was nothing left to be done except wait for Doug to kill her inevitably, and she didn't want to die. Leaving was her choosing to live, despite knowing the risk, despite his words of what would happen if she stepped away from him
4.04 (9-1-1, What’s Your Grievance?) ✘ 4.05 (Buck Begins)
“When you left Doug, you only had two suitcases.”
“And everything that mattered the most was inside them.”
↳ requested by princessfbi
Sue on set!
Things I want in season 5:
Bobby and Chimney’s friendship to be showcased again
Maddie smiling while holding Jee-Yun while Jee gurgles at her
Athena going to therapy and us actually seeing that therapy session
Buck being there for Maddie as she deals with PPD
Bobby holding Jee-Yun and having unexpectedly complicated emotions about it
Athena and Maddie having a conversation about their ptsd
Athena telling Maddie that she dealt with PPD after one of her kids was born and Maddie finally having somebody who really understands what she’s going through
Bobby dealing with the aftermath of being shot and how the pain medication he had to be on is doing very very very bad things in regards to his addiction
Jee-Yun to ride around and play on that adorable little elephant rocker the Buckleys bought for Maddie (the One  good thing they ever did because that thing is cute)
Bobby and Athena and Maddie and Chimney being each other’s strength because they’re all gonna be going through a hard time
A sequence of Buck and Taylor babysitting Jee together and Taylor unexpectedly loving every second of it
Buck confessing to Taylor how worried he is about Maddie
Bobby and Maddie having a scene together (just give us Something! The last time they did he manifested Jee-Yun so we know putting them together in a scene is magical)
Bobby’s family (including the sister I made up) coming to visit
an extra angsty one :)) (this is fireinyourkiss btw)
"Did you really think I could forget you?"
"Did you really think I could forget you?" Chimney's eyes tear up as the woman he had never been able to put out of his mind leans against the doorway, barely able to keep herself standing, and he quickly wraps his arms around her waist and pulls her in. Instinctively, Maddie's arms wrap around his waist and she breaks down, each and every sob like a dagger to his heart, and he hasn't even taken in the full extent of her injuries but he knows it's bad enough to make her drive for two days to come to LA and to his apartment. "I've thought about you every single day since I had to leave you in Boston, with him." He half-carries Maddie to the couch, and she clings onto him tightly, his shirt soaked from his tears, and he wants to get the first aid kid but first he needs her to calm down. Chimney has had feelings for her for years, since the day they'd met but she'd been in a relationship with Doug, and then he had gotten an opportunity in LA which he took, but they'd never lost touch completely, having to keep it secret because of Doug's jealousy, until the communication had stopped and he'd feared the worst.
I know everyone talks about how cruel it is that Buck doesn’t have a baby box but think about how cruel it is from the other side, too.
Daniel died and their parents got lost in their grief and Maddie had to learn from a young age that whatever relationship she had with her parents before was gone. They packed away her dead brothers things, every single photograph they had as a family and of her and her little brother and they told her never to speak of him again. And then everything changed. They moved, her parents didn’t love her in the way they had before, their home wasn’t the same as it was before and suddenly she’s nine years old trying to be there for her one year old brother whilst also trying not to be sad about the brother she has lost.
The box is a reminder of what she lost. Her parents loved her once, she was their whole world once. It’s also a reminder of what could have been had they not gotten wrapped up in their grief the way they did, of what she and Buck could have had because to her, always, they aren’t bad people, just bad parents and she still doesn’t realise how wrong she is.
82/∞ moments with Maddie Buckley ♥
↪ 3.14 “The Taking of Dispatch 9-1-1”
Whenever I think about how the writers wanted to pair Maddie and Eddie up, it makes me want to vomit. Like putting the domestic abuse survivor with the guy who has anger issues and drove away his wife through lack of caring would have been a horrible idea. Imagine how forced that would have felt.
Maddie and Chimney are honestly two halves of a whole. Maddie is someone who needs someone to care about her, and to treat her with respect, and to make her feel safe. Chimney is a natural caregiver. All he has wanted was to be with someone who needed him, and who appreciated him. They each filled a void that the other had, and have wicked crazy chemistry while doing it.
Bobby puts on the Bee Gees' greatest hits one evening while he's cooking dinner and doesn't even make it one minute in before he switches it.
Random, but do you think Bobby and Athena have the same taste in music? I know they love dancing together, but I feel like sometimes Bobby will turn some music on and Athena would just raise her eyebrows at him until he turns it off
Ooooohhhh... that's a good question!
I'm kinda agreeing with you, though. I think their taste in music has a bunch of overlap, but there are some things that Bobby loves that Athena simply cannot stand and vice versa.
Also now I need a scene in the show where Athena raises her eyebrows at him until he turns off the music she doesn't like because I can just SEE their expressions and it's cracking me up!