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Will the time come for me

To have someone who is sure of me

That

Regardless,

No matter what,

He will choose.

I crave for that kind of love.

I crave for the love that is just for me.

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To keep on trying,

To keep on saving what there has to save,

Until there are enough disappointments,

Until there are enough slaps from the truth

That what you wanna save

Doesnt want to be saved.

Until you ran out of reason to keep on trying.

Until the last drop of hope.

#relationship #lovelife #spilled thoughts #writing #sad thoughts #despair

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Begging God to take away this pain.

#im hurtin #life is hard #lovehurts #writing #dear god

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I think, finding your home is the best treasure you will ever have in this chaotic world.

Your safe place. Your peace. Your comfort.

But, I wonder, how painful it is losing your home while you are still alive?

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I wonder how. I wonder how you could accept me while I can't even accept myself.

I wonder how you could passionately touch me, make love with me knowing all of those things I did in the past.

I wonder, is it really what love is? Embracing someone without bothering to look at her past but will plan a future with her?

#life quotes #spilled thoughts #writing #lovelife #making love #acceptance #embracing #love with flaws

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Will the distance break us or make us stronger?

#lifechallenges #lovelife #long distance romance #makeorbreak #spilled thoughts #writing

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Would you still love me without my achievements in life? Would you still love me just for being me, for my heart and my soul?

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Sometimes, it's a little bit hard for me to live. I dont know. I would sometimes feel like, it's better to end this life because it's fucking hard to live in this kind of world. It feels like it's always me who has the responsibility to understand other people. That if it's my time to be understood, if I demand to be understood, I'm the bad one. People are not kind enough to understand other people's situation.

Today's one of those days. Today's a little bit hard for me. I woke up feeling like I don't want to go to work. And I really did not go to work. I just want to isolate myself from this kind of world. This world is a cruel one. This world is not kind for people who are struggling.

#struggle #writing #she rants #lifechallenges #life is hard #living is hard #spilled thoughts

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"I'm afraid of this kind of attachment. The one wherein you are already looking forward for a future with someone because the moment he leaves I'll be lost. But inspite of the risk, I am willing to risk despite the probability of being lost again for a chance of forever with him"

#lovelife #risking #love quote for him #love quotes #fear of loss #loss #spilled thoughts

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You are just one DECISION away from changing the plot of your life.

It could have been that "Hi" you've been stopping yourself from uttering to that person you wanna be friend with or to that person you are thinking you will never have a chance with.

Or, it could be saying "No" instead of saying "Yes", or, the other way around.

Or, leaving instead of staying.

Or, changing the career you have taken.

All of these this-instead-of-that could have entirely changed your life's plot.

Sometimes, you would spend the 30 minutes of your life thinking of "should have been" and "what ifs". Sometimes, you enjoy keeping your mind busy on creating scenarios from these. But there are times, they break your heart especially on the decisions you made that would make you think of "I could have done better". And when these regrets sink in, you'll hate to feel that you are starting to hate yourself.

But then, you'll realize that you are looking at it the wrong way. You keep on looking backward. You keep on looking at the past which YOU CAN'T DO ANYTHING ABOUT.

You realized that ONE DECISION AWAY FROM CHANGING THE PLOT OF OUR LIVES should be about the future where there is HOPE and not about the past where it will only bring you regrets.

NOTE TO SELF

#life quotes #writing #lifechallenges #inspirational quotes #quotes #mistakes #realization #reality

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You feel so familiar...

I must have loved you in more than one lifetime.

-N.R.Hart

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IT SCARES ME.

I'm starting to trust, again.

To give my all, again.

To plan my future with someone, again.

And,

It scares me.

Because, you know, when you get disappointed by the same person whom you trusted hurts 10x. And, although, I know I am a strong person, I don't know if I could still make it when my life crashes again in front of me, when my life goes back to zero again.

I might have survived the bleeding the last time, but, I might not have enough this time.

That's why,

IT SCARES ME.

#fear #spilled thoughts #writing #life quotes #what scares me #love quotes #trust #survive #bleed

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You see, it's good to talk about progress and growth. It's always good to talk about success. Usually, it's the result that the people would appreciate. The process on attaining a particular result don't usually matter to people when in fact, the process and the results are equally important.

#writing #life quotes #lifechallenges

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Promised not to post anything that's heavy for someone's heart but I guess I have to break that promise.

Life's ain't all about the good things but also about the bad ones in which we actually learn more and to be honest, the reason also why we appreciate the good ones even more.

#writing #life quotes #living #lifechallenges #spilled thoughts

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7 years.

I have loved you so much for 7 years that I once thought that I could not live without you.

For those years, I was too dependent on you. I do not decide or act without asking for what you have to say.

The level of trust that I have given to you was the kind of trust I have never given on anyone, not even on my Nanay.

You were my home for 7 years. Sometimes, I would feel like I want to disappear or hide when things seem like a mess but never to hide from you. When this happens, I only want your hug and I'd feel like I could face the world again.

But after 7 years, I realized that I want a life that's not too dependent on someone like you because I totally know that our relationship is not the kind of relationship that I want to live with. There are too many factors that would destroy our peace which is very important to me.

I know I have hurt you so much. I dont know if you also think that I am also hurting. Maybe not. Because you keep on putting me intentionally on situations which you know would hurt me and mess up with my mind.

And because of this, the good memories that I had with you for the past 7 years are slipping away. I was hoping that I could treasure these memories but you keep on doing things that's making all those memories disappear just like the person I loved before. He seemed to have disappeared after we broke up.

and because of this ...

7 years seem to gradually disappear.

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I'm back with so many learnings in life.

Life has tested me and is still testing me right now. But through these challenges, I learned a lot. I learned a lot about myself and a lot in life. And I think, it is making me a better person.

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When it comes to love, one of the famous words they say is that you can't pour from an empty cup.

We may know what this means but sometimes it takes experience to really understand the depth of it.

#realization #life quotes #self love #choose yourself #loveyourself