overcomebyemotions

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I thought I'd forgotten what your laugh and voice sound like, but the moment I heard them again, I remembered. And now, I fear the sound will be etched into my brain of you living an entire life without me. Of us once friends, now nothing but strangers, not even meeting each other's eyes across the street.

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For someone who doesn't like when I make assumptions, you sure don't communicate with me enough to make sure that I don't have to, instead leaving me recalling past patterns to appease my mental illness

#depressing thoughts #things i'll never say #spilled thoughts #spilled feelings #letter to my ex #overthinking #assumptions #past patterns

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I completely exhausted my brain in an effort to not think about you today (the anniversary of our breakup), but now that it is exhausted, you're all it can think about. My natural state - even now - is thinking about you

#depressing thoughts #things i'll never say #spilled thoughts #spilled feelings #breakup #letter to my ex #overthinking

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I'm so desperate not to be like you that I'm avoiding anything that I think you might do

#depressing thoughts #things i'll never say #spilled thoughts #spilled feelings #letter to my ex

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I stare my healthy coping mechanisms in the face and ignore their pleas, craning my head and my ear towards the whispers of those unhealthy, those that tell me to self-destruct. And it's always been easier to fall apart - to fall to the ground - than to keep myself standing or build myself back up.

#depressing thoughts #things i'll never say #spilled thoughts #spilled feelings #self destruction #unhealthy coping mechanisms

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I think my feelings for you are genuinely fading away. I thought I’d never get over you, but now I find myself deleting those pictures, deleting those little memories, traces of you are slowly leaving my heart. The butterflies are fluttering away, the blush on my cheeks is disappearing, the idiot grin I had when I thought of you is turning into a blank expression.

I’m starting to feel grateful that it didn’t work out, when just months ago I was heartbroken over it. I’m realizing how wrong you are for me, how damaging my feelings for you were, just overall how bad the situation was.

But the thing is, if I could go back and make it so that I never liked you in the first place, I wouldn’t change it. The whole experience taught me so many lessons that if it weren’t for how it played out, I wouldn’t have learned. So thank you, for being both the best and worst person that I have fallen for.

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You're not giving me security, so I'm falling back into old patterns of my mental instability

#depressing thoughts #things i'll never say #spilled thoughts #spilled feelings #love #relationship #instability

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I know I'm not supposed to ask questions I don't want the answers to, but if I don't ask, I'm going to fill in the blanks with answers that may be even worse than the truth

#depressing thoughts #things i'll never say #spilled thoughts #spilled feelings #questions #answers #overthinking

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Does he listen to my perspective, or is he so firm in his own that he can't even attempt to see mine?

#depressing thoughts #things i'll never say #spilled thoughts #spilled feelings #perspectives #personal

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I don't like to be the person who wishes ill will on people, but I sometimes find myself doing it on you, anyway, anger boiling in my blood as I pace a pathway into the worn-down carpet

#depressing thoughts #things I'll never say #spilled thoughts #spilled feelings #anger #letter to my ex

[overcomebyemotions]

"The worst someone can tell you is no."

That's exactly what I'm afraid of

#things i'll never say #spilled thoughts #spilled feelings #my ramblings #anxiety

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I sometimes find myself wishing that things had turned out differently, but I think that we would've ended up here no matter what. We made our choices, and they always led to this.

#depressing thoughts #things i'll never say #spilled thoughts #spilled feelings #letter to my ex

[overcomebyemotions]

There's a portion of your life I can only ever hear stories about. There's a whole version of you that I never got to know.

#things i'll never say #spilled thoughts #spilled feelings #I'm not sure how to tag this

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I can't tell if I'm trying to self-sabotage or if I genuinely mean the shit I'm thinking

#depressing thoughts #things I'll never say #spilled thoughts #spilled feelings #love #relationship #self sabotage #mental heath issues #swearing cw

[overcomebyemotions]

Don’t ruin a new thing with an old mindset. 

#note to self

[overcomebyemotions]

"You keep her in the dark, holding her close to you in the light."

Excerpt from something longer

(The meaning: you keep your infidelity secret from her, this girl that you are publicly official with.)

#depressing thoughts #things i'll never say #spilled thoughts #spilled feelings #love #relationship #excerpt from something longer #infidelity #lying