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HEY TO PEOPLE WHO KEEP FOLLWING THIS BLOG, I DONT USE IT ANYMORE. GO FOLLOW MY TWITTER OR MY ACTIVE TUMBLR PAGE, THANKS

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More of this little snippet.

Just pretend the shading is the same between both posts lol I was too lazy to cross reference. It's been... way too long since I've drawn Connie. She deserves more love.

#steven universe

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Not to toot my own horn or anything but I actually really like how this came out. Shading and lighting, I mean. Other stuff is secondary lol

#dont really use this blog anymore but i guess it's still okay to reblog a post or two #steven universe

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i have never had an original idea in my fucking life

#i just make the same characters over and over again and hope no one notices #Orion is Druid but evil (sort of) #like shit they've got a damn near identical backstory #which was not intentional btw #Connor and Redrum have the same personality #Zeke is the cis het version of Sonny with some of HB's edginess mixed in #Gus and Sven are practically twins... (which might explain why I love Sven so much)

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stop following this blog lol it's dead, go away

#if u insist on following me at least follow the archive blog (ns-archive) since that actually gets updated #i'm not doing fandom crap anymore go somewhere else

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un-privating some posts so if if you get pinged sorry i guess

#took forever to private all of them in the first place cuz i have over 2700 of them #you can only edit 100 posts at a time #and them you can't even mass un-private them. you gotta do it one by one #*this* blog is no longer going to be used but the art is gonna be made public #i dont really care about people seeing my art lol hoes can stay mad

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i sat at that womans funeral and promised myself i would never be so horrible. i watched her die a little day by day for months, feeding her and cleaning her even though i knew it didnt matter, and said to myself i would never end up like that. i wanted so badly to be different and to do better, but the truth is I'll never be better. i look and act just like her, its encoded in my dna and i hate it so much.

you're so selfish, you're so manipulative, you're so disrespectful, you're so mean, you're so rude, you're so dismissive

i know, i know, i know, i know, i know, i know i fucking know, godammit i'm not that stupid i fucking know! you dont think I've peiced that together by now? you dont think ive figured that out? you dont think i look back at every stupid, shitty thing ive ever said and done and want to die? im sorry. ive said it so many times its not even a real word anymore. i could say it a hundred times, a million times, i could say it until the universe succumbs to entropy and it would still never be enough to say how sorry i am. no amount of apologies or grovelling will ever be enough.

its so infuriating seeing your own psychotic, warped behavior playing out in real time and knowing that its stupid, knowing thats its wrong, knowing thats its Not Normal and not being able to do a damn thing about it. never being able to see past your emotions because you are your emotions and your feelings take up every atom in your body. sitting there vibrating with rage and hatred and clamping your mouth shut because you know anything that comes out will be the most vitriolic, evil thing you can imagine. being so good at burying your thoughts that you dont have any left. repressing your feelings so much that you physically cant cry anymore.

i want to be better but there is no better version of me to return to. no one can make me better because no has what it takes and i would never expect anyone to. my only solution is to disappear. and i dont mean that in a "oh woe is me im such a pissbaby and i want everyone to pity me and everyone should feel sorry for me" kind of way, i mean that in a "ive seen this exact story play out a dozen times and know how it fucking ends because I'VE FUCKING SEEN IT BEFORE."

im so tired of hiding and pretending to be something im not. im tired of trying make other people understand. people never undertand, and it doesnt matter how much i try to explain it or how many times i say it, they never fucking understand. im tired of hurting and hurting other people.

im tired of people telling me i dont care. it makes me want to rip thier throat out so then maybe they can feel an ounce of how much it hurts. i wish i didnt care. i wish i could stop caring. I would delete everything, EVERYTHING and burn it all to the ground and feel nothing at all. I'd throw it all down the drain and laugh while everyone flopped around in the ashes trying to find something to save. i care so much its killing me. i care so much that i cant eat and i cant sleep and i cant think. say i dont care one more time and I'll show you what happens when i dont fucking care.

im so sick of it. it makes me want to vomit.

#vent

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#dont have much to be proud of at the moment. but i guess there's this.

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via

#sheep

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Take these screenshot edits of Sven because it's literally the only colored art I have of him that isn't a spoiler

#the top one is prolly the most accurate to his personality #sven universe #walktheline au #steven universe

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Blorbo content I forgot to post

(Von belongs to @artsycooky13)

#steven universe #walktheline au #connie mahewsaran #von von #vonvon #druid steven

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#queued #i had this idea last year but never got around to it #been a while since i've drawn Fanta... #candy gore #spectrum variation fanta

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Little animation I got too lazy to finish

#I might clean it up eventually idk #walktheline au #steven universe #druid steven

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tired tanuki

#idk whats happening here lmao

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Hi yes I made Druid seem like an angry old fart in Chapter One of WTL so it's about time I remedy that

he is an angry old fart sometimes but still

Like yeah given the tone of chapter one it makes sense he's not the happiest person on the planet, but outside of one scene (the one where he receives his nickname) I feel like he doesn't have any proper 'Steven' moments. He is technically the same person as Prime and has all of his experiences, he's just hella old.

So in order to help him get some Steven vibes back I drew an obscene about of sketches with some canon Steeb faces and a few other random things I thought were funny

#the best way to describe Druid is an even split between Old Man McGucket and Uncle Iroh #really eccentric and kind of a crack head but he gives amazing advice and tries to support people when he can #the time period for these is all over the place so that's why the designs aren't consistent lol #walktheline au #steven universe #druid steven #prime is canon steven btw #he's from the 'prime' line hence the name

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🎵 Running around at the speed of sound 🎵

#sonic #sonic the hedgehog

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Wat happen to Frame of Mind? I just enjoy it, it’s beauty.

I'm still working on it... slowly. I've turned off anon asks for the inbox over there as I kept getting very rude and NSFW stuff sent in, and that's dropped my motivation to work on it a little. I promise it's not dead though!

#ask #anon #frame of mind au