When I saw I lost a total of…
- 5 lbs, my wrists seemed less chunky
- 10 lbs, the back of my shoulders seemed less round
- 15 lbs, I had lost the hunch behind my back and my stomach had gotten smaller, plus my jawline started showing
- 20 lbs, my collarbones and the ribs above my breasts started showing, my neck had gotten smaller and my cheekbones started showing
- 25 lbs, my hipbones were visible when I layed on my bed, and my thighs so tinier when I sat on the shower floor
- 30 lbs, my arms seemed thinner. I could see bones, nerves and muscle working under layers of fat that had vanished
- 35 lbs, my calves seemed much more toned than before, and my stomach got even smaller, to the point where I could see my ribs instead of a roll
- 40 lbs, I became more confident when trying on clothes while shopping
- 45 lbs, my breasts started shrinking fast, I hadn’t lost in that zone yet
- 50 lbs, my boss noticed my weight loss and said “wow, is it me or everytime I see you, you’ve gotten smaller?”
- 55 lbs, I went through my clothes and sent more than half of them to thrift stores
- 60 lbs, I took a look in the mirror and saw no double chin, no back rolls and no round tummy
At first, you don’t notice the changes. After a year, you’ve forgotten where you even started. But once you start paying attention, you see the results of all those times you cried, starved, overworked yourself or purged. I swear, one day I’ll extend this list to 95 lbs.
cal log (29.5.20)
cal eaten: 864
cal burnt: 137
– i swear to whoever you believe in (or whoever you don’t believe in), if i haven’t lost weight by tomorrow morning i’ll lose something else.
so i am … confused?
according to pacer i’ve walked around 2200 steps today (so far) but according to the other app i use to count my steps it’s only been nearly 800??
which one’s true, then?
some legspo to keep myself motivated :)
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today’s intake and burn through walking a bit.
still not great but way better than what that chaos of yesterday was.
- You’re doing it so you can be confident in public, but not for the attention
- The weight loss is not for the gender you’re attracted to, but because you don’t feel attractive
- You’re tired of people making petty comments about your weight
- You want people to stop trying to put your weight in a sugarcoated box by saying you’re ‘big boned’ ‘thicc’ ‘more to love’ ‘curvy’, etc.
- One comment sent you into the start of your ED
- A traumatic experience caused you to gain weight that just wouldn’t come off
- New medication caused you to gain weight
- A Doctor, family, teacher, or friend has ever called you fat
- You feel this is the only way you’ll truly be comfortable in your own skin
- You’re lying to family & friends
- You feel a little bittersweet when they comment on your weight loss
- It started as a ‘diet’ that spiraled out of control
- You know recovery is an option, but you don’t want to
- You used to deny your eating disorder
🌪I want to follow the people who reblog this🌪
• this is the only way to feel like you’re in control.
any good shows to watch to keep myself from binging/eating in general??
i love, love, love watching amberlynn reid’s videos.
she’s basically everything i never want to be and watching her helps a lot.
i want that
i want that
i want that
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if i got reminded of one thing yesterday than that there’s not a single worse feeling than going to bed not hungry, but with a full stomach. here’s to getting back on track [and staying on it ffs]
i really, really hate myself rn so here’s some thinspo to stop myself from binging even more
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so i kinda ate that 800cal lunch today amd that kinda sort of started a binge and now i legit wanna die i can literally feel the fat starting to form on my body i hate it i hate it i hate it
i wanna do that :)
i just ate a 800cal lunch because apparently i don’t know when to stop eating and i
✨h a t e m y s e l f ✨
my dash is dead as hell.
i. can. do. it.
Something that only people with restrictive ED’s understand is calories as currency. You have a budget and it’s up to you how to spend it and you spend all day obsessing about how you’re going to spend it. You freak out if you overspend and let’s be honest, we’re all poor in calorie currency.