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Me texting my friends the second we part ways after hanging out

#skyrim

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I feel like Altmer living in the Summerset Isles gotta be wearing sheer tops over their titties right? I am ignoring lore here and just speaking from the heart I feel like high end fashion there HAS to be very nipples out

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Supernatural/werewolf Red Dead Redemption 2 aus my beloved

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I wish I wanted to play Skyrim

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I like that when you eat a bunch of ingredients in Skyrim your camera forcibly enters 3rd person mode and you collapse while your body gets the fucking ick green color or something and then you just. Get up after like jk I'm fine.

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Ask me to walk on fucking water Malborn

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Teldryn! All tied up. 👀🖤

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I ​love skyrim modders

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I could literally talk about the Mera lore all day jfc i love it so much. I love the idea of someone literally being created for one sole purpose and having to struggle with the realization that their life means nothing beyond that. Them having to MAKE that meaning. 

Mera struggled so much with her destiny as dragonborn before she learned the truth because she thought it was unfair that she couldn’t even remember her life that she was fighting for. Her life essentially starts in Helgen (well, her first hazy memories are of the ambush, followed swiftly by a smack to the head). What a world to wake up into. All that fire and ash. 

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If you're someone who asked me if I'm ever gonna continue my fanfic series the answer is probably not. At least not the big ones. I'm trying to write an original novel now and that takes all my writing energy.

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WGHY DOES HE HAVE A FOUR WHEELER TGATS SO FUNNY. WHO GAVE HIM THAT?????

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The original plan for my followup fic to Will of the Daedra was going to involve Mera finding out that she’s a divine pawn from Mora. She realizes that the past she was longing to know never exists, and she begins to sympathize more heavily with Miraak who is trapped in Apocrypha with her. He stokes her anger while they’re both stuck as pawns for Mora.  I never finalized the full plot, but eventually they were going to kill each other. Miraak can’t let go of his plans, and Mera realizes that as much anger as she has, she can’t let him go through with it. The exact ending is kinda fuzzy, but I liked the idea of them sort of mutually agreeing to end it, since the idea of allowing Mora to control them any longer is less appealing then death. Perhaps they anticipated some divine intervention? Either way, Mera would have a moment to feel the Divine presence as she dies, probably by talking to Talos? I never got that far. But she’d hear it all from the mouth of a god, and wake up back in her body in Skyrim.

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More about Mera

Akatosh is her father the same way he is the father of all dragons.

Part of the reason she is not allowed to move on even after she "dies" the first time is because she had deals with Daedric Lords (the plot of the Will of the Daedra fic I wrote on AO3) and has to earn her place among the Divines.

She can die, but will be resurrected until she finally is allowed to stay dead.

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Just realized my asks were turned off but they're open now!

If y'all got questions about my Mera dragonborn lore hmu in my asks I've got lots of thoughts to share

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If y'all got questions about my Mera dragonborn lore hmu in my asks I've got lots of thoughts to share

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Hey thanks for asking!

So the short of it: no Mera did not know her destiny. She thought she had amnesia. The divines didn't give her her purpose because that's what they did to miraak and it gave him the audacity to do what he did (in my lore). Mera hates her fate, but she doesn't learn the truth about her actual origins until after she's defeated Alduin. By then, she's just tired. There's nothing she can do about it.

As time goes on she feels more kinship with dragons. She does eventually develop strong relationships with them, not even that long after she defeats Alduin. Dragons speak a language of strength and she's proved herself enough that they learn to respect her. She is especially close with Odahviing.

So my take on the dragonborn is that they are a demigod. Particularly miraak and the last dragonborn, put to earth to clean up the errors of Akatosh when it came to Alduin and the dragons.

When this comes to my dragonborn Mera, this manifested as her literally being created for the job. She has no memory of her past because she has no past. She was created to end the dragon crisis in a mad dash by the divines to fix their mistakes.

I know this isn't lore compliant but it's how I wanted the story to go.

The end of Mera's story was meant to be that she's cursed to wander the earth doing the bidding of the divines until they say her job is done. A demi god dragon bound to flesh, never allowed to fly the way her soul sings to. Never aging, watching all but the dragons in her life eventually wither away and die.

Happy Wednesday ask me questions about this if you want