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Okay, thinking more about Cressida and new quotes about seeing more of her home life and why she is the mean girl she is. Also that she’s trying to do better. Also thoughts about Mrs. Cowper apparently being named Araminta and the theory that they are Sophie’s family… I don’t know where I’m going with this other than what if Cressida is basically bullied by her mother at home and it’s all she’s ever known and her mother also is horrible to her half sister/maid and she’s been an evil stepsister all this time but she has some growth/change and becomes more of an ally to said sister/maid…Cressida = Rosamund/Posy blend?

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Cabeswater

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don’t mind kit, he’s just taking a quick nap before mina wakes up and wants to play with the twinkly lights in his bedroom ✨

characters by @cassandraclare 🤍

(after drawing ty asleep in his bedroom it only felt right to do the same with kit!)

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The Tortured Poets Department

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I think I've figured out how to articulate something fandom related that I've been thinking for a while, so I'm going to try.

For context, I've been a TSC fan for over a decade, primarily into TLH (even when we had nothing but portraits and Nothing But Shadows). I've seen the tides of the fandom change more than a lot of people can fathom. And I consistently find that the space we're in now, the "between series" space, is my favourite time period for fandom.

Part of this is that the fandom gets smaller and less insane when we're in this in-between - while the books are being published, tons of people come in, argue, start drama for no reason. It's unmanageable. 2020 was a fucking nightmare, probably the worst one, but there have always been nutty masses when the series are actively being published and at their prime time.

But that isn't all.

It's that the people who stick around during these in-between gray areas are those of us who actually love the books, the world, the canon. We're by and large the people who want to stick with it and feel positively about the series, the creator, the world building, and the characters. Sure, we have criticisms - naturally! But they're made with love and respect, and we don't attack Cassie or other fans about it. We're excited rather than angry, and that overarching energy makes the fandom a much more wholesome space instead of the toxic cesspool that it is when people are sticking around to hate-read it and dump on all aspects of the series.

I'm thinking about this now because TWP coming in 2026 (not surprising to me and actually 100% reasonable given how publishing works) gives us more time to live in this space. To enjoy the fandom without the unnecessary drama of weird antis who want to hate read every release and attack people who actually like the books and world for what they are.

I'm in a pretty unique place now with the book canon where "my" series is done (with the exception of a novella and 3 short stories). That's brought me both a weird amount of peace and a pretty new, interesting perspective even if it's Sad. I feel like I'm on the other end of things. And I really hope the TWP peeps enjoy this time, because some of my best memories and connections were made at 3 AM chatting with the other 3 people who liked TLH best in 2017. It's in hope, it's in theorizing, it's in anticipation, and it's here that we can truly connect and thrive and love.

#!!! #yesss this!! #love all the insane theories we come up with in between series

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They broke the world for each other.

This one was first published about a month ago on my Patreon. I tried to imagine what kind of portrait would Delilah and Sylas commission a painter to decorate Castle Whitestone have they defeated Vox Machina. I love how they weaponize their sexiness alongside their sheer lack of empathy for everyone but themselves and their evil god to obliterate their enemies. Relationship goals, really.

Sylas and Delilah Briarwood were created by Matthew Mercer and are property of Critical Role.

Available as a print on my InPrnt shop:

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"Absolutely no one comes to save us but us."

Ismatu Gwendolyn, "you've been traumatized into hating reading (and it makes you easier to oppress)", from Threadings, on Substack [ID'd]

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Shadow and Bone season 2 doodles ✨

One of my most favorite moments is when Inej appears and Jesper gets scared to death 😭

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Tbt to this drawing I made back in 2020 to celebrate folklore anniversary! Truly a masterpiece 🌿🤍 @taylorswift @taylornation

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Gogle how.toi stop wildshap,e

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All of us right now:

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Big news from Tartarus I'm just so proud of him

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All is well nothing’s wrong just thinking about Jocelyn seeing Clary and Ash standing together from behind and just letting out a lil tear bc of what could’ve been but was lost bc of valentine

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Purple Columbine ~ Resolved to Win 🌟

- a recreation of Isabelle Lightwood’s flower card -

characters by @cassandraclare 🤍

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The way Will Herondale would freak if he found out he came from a book

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She is the poem - June Bates