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ooc / MOBILE || I’m having a completely normal one after watching the FNAF movie yesterday.

#cobalt’s talking shit #//ig I need to get bac on my multi huh…. 🤦🏻‍♀️🙈🤡 #mobile #unformatted // #unformatted #fnaf tw #fnaf //

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@heedingcalls | continued from here.

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When the other looks him over, Aku's grin slips off his face and his expression becomes something like guilty, sheepish anticipation. Yeah, he knows he's been gone a long time, and frankly, he couldn't blame Duke if the vampire decided he wanted to throw him out on his ear for leaving him alone without so much as an 'I'm going to go get some milk at the grocery store,'

So much has happened since the last time he saw him, yet one thing remains constant. And that's how he felt. The kindness and familiarity in Duke's touch, the sadness in his eyes after Aku's long absence, the yearning in his voice. Something in Aku's chest clenches, and he reaches for him before he can stop himself, large hands cupping Duke's face and brushing his thumbs over his cheeks with such tenderness.

"'Darling,'" Aku echoed stupidly, the words coming out strained. Hey, what's he getting so choked up for? It's only been a few years. A few years in the immortal span of things was like a blink of an eye. But it still felt like so long since he'd held Duke. So long since he'd seen him or spoken to him. He half expected him to move on. But here he is, and he still waited. But that's just it. Why would someone so wonderful waste their time waiting for him?

"I'm surprised you'd still call me that, after all this time," he said, rushing his words. "I— I can't tell you how much I missed you."

And that was no exaggeration. He really couldn't put the words to it. Now that he's by him, it's like the past two years without him are crashing down all at once. All those long nights without Duke beside him, wondering if he even still thought of him, or how he'd take to his eventual return. Remembering the real affection in his voice and in his touch that Aku was unsure he'd ever be privileged enough to receive from a partner again.

He kissed him. The kiss is ungraceful and hard, and hungry. Duke's mouth is warm, his touch is heaven, and Aku sprouts more arms just to pull him in close. His breath shuddered in his chest as he surrendered to the moment. He knew how it felt to be so obsessed with someone, only for them to walk away like it all meant nothing. Duke's forgiveness is more than he could've possibly hoped for. But would they be able to continue from where they left off? Aku certainly hoped they would.

#◜悪◞ #◜v1: bad end◞ #◜悪: threads◞ #heedingcalls #◜♚: Duke ; heedingcalls◞ #pda cw #pda // #//them...

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ohhh fuck off. someone learned my summoning ritual again. ill be right back

#◜悪: thoughts◞

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Spooky cover art for Silber Grusel-Krimi, 1971-1986.

#◜悪: abilities◞ #◜aesthetic◞ #◜servants / abominations / mythos.◞ #◜悪: forms / bodyhorror aes.◞

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ooc ★ Anyways. Didn't really feel safe here for a while, but I'm starting to feel a bit better, so uhhh... let's hope it stays that way and I don't have to go back on hiatus for my mental health. I've set some clearer boundaries in my rules, cleaned up who I'm following, and uhhh... yeah. Gonna try to rebuild a bit of muse and get some stuff started here again. Because at the end of the day I do miss tf out of my friends that still write on here... 🥺

#cobalt's talking shit

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He’s angry for no reason. But then, what else is new? If he’s being honest with himself, it feels fucking good. Anger was familiar, comforting, powerful. Great feats could be within his grasp if he were to focus that feeling, hone it to something sharp and keen.

                                                                                    Perhaps he’ll revisit some old plans.

#//listening to metal to recapture the essence of who this guy is #◜悪◞ #◜悪: status◞ #◜V1: Bad End◞

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@heedingcalls​ cont. from here.

“Actually, I was asking more broadly as to the mortal experience. You know, wondering what it was like to feel your cells dying and decomposing with every passing day? Sounds like a lot of work to maintain a mortal vessel, if you ask me... and for what? Only to die within a century, no matter how much effort you put into maintaining your health? It’s like an exercise in futility, from my perspective.”

“As for the person you were then… I have little regard for his shortcomings. For not only did I not know you back then, but also… I’ve dealt with such entitlement from partners before. It would have saddened me to receive such treatment from you had I known you back then, especially knowing who you are now and how you feel for me now. But then again... sharing infinite wealth is but a small price to pay for even feigned affection.”

Aku seemed to realize what he said and glanced away. Speaking of making telling remarks, he’d never actually voiced such awareness and enablement aloud before. That he knew people were using him for his money and didn’t truly have feelings for him at numerous points along the way. Being with Duke had felt nothing at all like those other arrangements— where his partners would hardly deign to touch him without some guarantee for monetary or material compensation.

He quickly recovered from this telling honesty and continued, “I cannot help but wonder, if you would have cared for me back then in a genuine sense, or if I would only be good for my money. Perhaps things would have been simpler between us, if that were so.”

#◜悪◞ #◜悪: threads◞ #◜V1: Bad End◞ #◜♚: Duke ; heedingcalls◞ #heedingcalls #//DAMN he did NOT have to go this hard for this response thoughhh

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Quiz: [ gives blatantly gendered results ] Quiz: says Aku is subject to the male gaze, was written by a man that wanted him to himself (?), calls him pretty

“You know what, that’s the hope, actually...”

"That men think I’m desirable and are into me. HA!”

#//at least he took this garbage quiz in stride #//won't be posting this quiz to dash because wowza is it TRASH #//but again... ooc quiz results Do Give a Good Laugh #◜EXTRA THICC!悪◞ #◜悪◞ #◜悪: answered◞ #◜memes◞

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the-trxangle-guy​:

He simply let the great darkness speak for awhile, taking in what Aku said as his singular eye stared up at him. Seeing him relay his own experiences back to Bill helped put him at ease, to some extent. Even if the exact circumstances weren’t exactly the same, they seemed to be reaching a mutual understanding.

The demon had few positive relationships in his lifetime, as far back as the second dimension and all the way to his revival. They had all ended in disaster of bitterness, a trend which had soured his outlook on such matters. Left alone to his own devices, he might have abandoned this venture before it had a chance to truly start, nipping the whole scenario in the bud.

Then Aku called him out.

His neutral demeanor had turned a touch incensed, but also emboldened. He hadn’t spent the last trillion years plotting and fighting for a way to break out of the Nightmare Realm to get accused of being slothful! Every moment he’d spent planning and scheming, fighting for new ways to set loose a party that would shake the foundations of the universe to its very core! His posture changed in what seemed like an instant once Aku had concluded his speech, going from precarious and uncertain to powerful and confident.

For once he was right, and Bill was okay with that. So what if this had a chance to fail? He’d had who-knows-how-many plans fail before Weirdmageddon got off the ground! Did that stop him before? Never! 

“You know what? You have a point there! I managed to bounce back from DEATH! Why shy away from a little kiss?” Granted, he was still a touch anxious about the situation. Not that he was completely out of touch when it came to romance, but knowledge and experience are two very different things. In that sense at least, Aku had an edge on him.

“So… you meant what you said before? That this whole thing might actually work?” It helped that Kiki was apparently genuine in her affection. The kiss didn’t seem to have root in anything else. As for him… well, he’s going to save that for more deserving ears.

“Exactly. It’s just a kiss, it’s not the end of the world,” Aku agreed. But then, this was coming from the guy who had had a number of casual relations with people over the eons; relations that went far beyond just kissing. However, for nearly all of those ‘relations’, real romantic feelings had never entered the equation  — at least on his part.

For the longest time, he wasn’t even sure he could feel those sentiments, and had shied from even the smallest hint of them. Such feelings could be scary for anyone, but for evil beings especially, given how such feelings for others might be viewed in light of their reputation. Too often had people accused him of being lesser because he’d allowed himself the continued indulgence of forming attachments with his special persons. Some had even gone so far as to suggest he wasn’t 100% evil because of it; that having this capacity for mortal feelings proved he wasn’t what he claimed to be. It had taken a lot of time on his part to reconcile his idea of himself, as a harbinger of despair and corruption, with the him that had proven to need and value such bonds. 

Aku could definitely understand Bill’s hesitance, if it turned out that was one of the reasons he hadn’t acted yet. Reputations were everything for immortal beings that aimed to be cosmic threats.

“As for whether your prospective girlfriend is a good match for you, that’s for you to figure out. I’m not sure how valuable my opinion would be, given that I don’t know her. Furthermore, you and I are recent acquaintances, too. It would be unfair of me to pass judgment of your compatibility with her on a broad-strokes impression of Ciphers in general rather than on you as an individual.”

“But if she makes you happy, and vice versa, then — ” he gave a small shrug. “My previous point stands. You never know what you’re missing out on, if you won’t even try.”

#◜悪◞ #◜悪: threads◞ #◜V1: Bad End◞ #thetrxangleguy #the trxangle guy

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the-trxangle-guy​:

Bill tried to keep up his cheery façade, but the more Aku talked the more irritated he started to look. It wasn’t an aggressive irritation, surprisingly enough, but something more subdued and focused as he processed what the great demon said. If the big guy wanted to go get himself set up for failure that was his business, but his other allegations hit closer for the triangle.

Truthfully? He had felt alone for a long, long time.

Even when he had the henchmaniacs he wasn’t exactly close to them. Sure, they were friends, but they were friends at a surface level. They had fun together, they shared ideals, but there wasn’t that deep connection true friends had. Not to mention all the times he was wrathful towards them for failure, how often he dismissed their own issues and complaints, the fact he saw their value relative to how valuable they were to him…

Even with them around, it was a lonely existence in the Nightmare Realm. He didn’t remember how long Aku had been ruling his world, but he was confident the guy could comprehend how long trillions of years was. He might have a better idea than most of how long that truly was. He didn’t have the henchmaniacs for the entirety of that time either… Even when he was having fun, there was this nagging itch that couldn’t get scratched, an urge he couldn’t fully satisfy… The beast had told himself that it would go away when he finally achieved his goals and freed himself from the chaotic dimension, liberating others as he liberated his home. Now? He still wanted that, but would that satisfy him? Would it be enough?

Of course, he isn’t about to admit this to Aku’s face.

“I’M NOT PROJECTING, BIG GUY. SHEESH-! YOU OFFER FRIENDLY ADVICE ONE TIME…”

“BESIDES, I’VE GOT IT MADE OUTSIDE THE LACK OF A PHYSICAL FORM, AND THINGS ARE ONLY LOOKING UP! IF I WAS TAKING OUT ANY POTENTIAL FRUSTRATIONS ON SOMEONE, IT WOULDN’T BE YOU.” Nah, he’s got minions for that. That and victims! He really should send some nightmares to unsuspecting mortals when he gets the chance.

“I THINK YOU’RE SEEING THINGS THAT AREN’T THERE, BUDDY. I’M PRETTY HAPPY DESPITE HOW ANNOYING ALL THESE BASELESS ACCUSATIONS YOU’RE TOSSING AT ME ARE! ANY MORE BRIGHT OBSERVATIONS YOU WANT TO MAKE ABOUT ME? NEED ME TO SIT UP ON A COUCH SO YOU CAN PLAY THERAPIST?”

“Well why not?” Aku sniffed, cocking a flaming brow at him yet not moving whatsoever. “Seems to me like you need it. Sticking your non-existent triangular nose in my private affairs, wheedling at things that aren’t your business. There’s clearly something troubling you, otherwise you wouldn’t press matters that don’t concern you. ...Then again, perhaps you would. You Ciphers always had that unhelpful tendency to watch from the sidelines, rather than act.”

“So listen, why don’t we get down to the heart of the matter, since you seem keen on getting something off your chest.”

“You felt this way once, did you not? And it turned out badly for you, I’m guessing... So, what then? Are you frustrated I’m afforded a luxury you weren’t? What’s stopping you from pressing forward and forming new attachments, that you have to waste your evening and my evening attacking me for being more emotionally healthy than you?”

A sniff. “If you’re so uncomfortable to have your insecurities laid bare, perhaps you should pick your intellectual battles with someone who’s inclined to stoop to your level.”

#//-pins bill to a corkboard like you'd pin a butterfly specimen- #//also lmao it's safe to assume this is still set before that one conversation where Aku gave him advice #◜悪◞ #◜悪: threads◞ #◜V1: Bad End◞ #thetrxangleguy #the trxangle guy

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heedingcalls​:

   The silence in this moment is so terribly loud. Duke had said his piece, had admitted to thoughts and emotions he had told himself many times that he was going to keep to himself out of convincing that Aku probably didn’t feel the same as he did. And he was met with nothing at first. Duke often did not attempt to forge real bonds with people. Sure, he has a couple friends here and there. But none of those people were people he trusted or, frankly, they were simply beneath him to begin with. Duke didn’t like people. And with his own failed romance under his belt and whatever the fuck he has going on with his roommate, he had grown pretty disenchanted with the possibility of ever being PROPERLY interested in others ever again, romantically. If one had asked him before meeting Aku if he’d even consider being with anyone ever again, he would have laughed right in their face and called them delusional. Because WHO could ever look at him and think of him with a scrap of fondness? That he was even worth the time of day?

      But then Aku happened. And he desperately clung to the idea that someone actually, truly liked him. He and Aku spent so much time together already. It was such a lovely reprieve from both tricking himself into the idea that Duke was happy with his afterlife and the shit he dealt with at his castle– with THAT VILE WOMAN. Aku spoke with him. Aku went out of his way to see Duke. Sure, the guy could appear whenever, wherever at any given moment. But the sentiment is still there. He didn’t NEED to. And he still did. Duke felt like he actually mattered in Aku’s company and he felt comforted by the demon’s presence. How was he not supposed to feel something for Aku when Aku treated him so well? 

   So he gnaws on this inside of his cheek as he watches Aku’s shifting expression, sharp canines threatening to pierce the fragile flesh as his teeth graze it. This was it. He moved too quickly and ruined the ONE GOOD THING the universe tossed his way. Aku was probably working out a concise and polite way to turn him down. Hopefully, they could still be friends. Duke couldn’t bare the idea of parting ways from the demon, even if it would be awkward for a bit after this rejection. He’s bracing himself as he feels his throat go cotton, suddenly all too dry for his liking. 

      But once Aku’s words register and the silence is broken, so is that unpleasant voice nagging in his ear. Duke can’t help but to allow the smallest of smiles to break across his face. … The idea of his affections being unrequited was now tossed aside and his thin chest puffed out slightly, in a small hint to the joy and relief he felt swell inside. But he doesn’t dare to interrupt Aku as he speaks. Clearly, he has a lot on his plate and Duke does not wish to be the one who ruins Aku’s drive. So Duke just listens, his fingers fluttering anxiously at his sides all the while.

    After Aku has asked that question though, the vamp finally finds his own voice again and can’t resist the all too predictable urge to reach out for Aku’s arm. His hand rests there at one of the other’s forearms, hoping to be somewhat reassuring. But, he’d also be lying if this wasn’t his own form of calming himself as well. Gods– he just doesn’t want to ruin this. Duke could not forgive himself for that.

  His words are carefully selected but still edged with his own disbelief. Not that he is discarding Aku’s concerns. It was just that the idea of him NOT wanting to be around Aku seemed… absolutely bizarre. ❛  Then we can take everything slowly. I don’t want you to go into a– ah… a relationship with me with doubts. Your comfort is important and essential and I don’t want you feeling…overwhelmed… or worried, given the past issues with your last relationship.❜  His experience in love isn’t exactly the same as Aku’s. But Duke can definitely empathize and respect that Aku needs that extra assurance to push on. Hopefully WITH him.

    ❛  I am many things, but fickle is not one of them, Aku. I could not be MORE sure of my intentions towards you. And I’d like to explore the possibility– with you. But at YOUR pace, of course.❜

He’s not looking at him while he listens to Duke speak, though it’s clear by the thoughtful look on his face that he’s listening carefully. Truth be told, he’s actually feeling… more than a little self-conscious and even a little vulnerable right now. As much as he trusted and ( clearly ) liked Duke, it’s still a little difficult to allow himself to be seen like this.

The last time feelings like this had entered the equation of a casual tryst, he’d practically had to prostrate himself in order for his sentiments to be reciprocated — even in a roundabout way. Suffice to say that that whole experience had scorned him a little; made him wary of letting anybody know just how much they meant to him. It was something he was still working on with his therapist, admittedly. It was one of those things that he’d made great strides with in recent years, but... you know. It’s still a really big learning curve for a dude like him, whose only emotions for thousands of years were negative and hollow. ( Is Evil considered an emotion? )

This whole thing, having the other person come to him first with their feelings, it’s not that it’s unheard of, per se — of course it isn’t, there had been others before Duke that thought they cared for Aku in an emotional capacity, but who ( in his opinion ) had gotten their feelings mixed up in a confusing tangle of lust and greed. Real feelings for him? Get real. That kind of thing just didn’t happen, so far as Aku knew. Or if it did, the other person had to be up the creek and around the bend. No one wanted him in a genuine sense; they only wanted what he could do for them. Mutual sentiments, let alone readily reciprocated mutual sentiments such as these, were brand new territory.

Duke’s choice of words tugs a small smile on Aku’s face, and some of the tension and apprehension in his chest begins to uncoil. Gods, he was too good to him... And in retrospect, Aku could admit within the privacy of his own mind that Duke always had been, from the very day they met. Even as early as their first kiss, he felt strangely that... Duke might be different. Like he might be a little more than what he bargained for, in terms of his expectations with emotional fulfilment. As it turns out... that suspicion wasn’t unfounded.

The warm, comforting weight of Duke’s hand on his arm is so reassuring, as is the look in Duke’s eyes and on his face when Aku finally finds it in himself to look back up at him. There’s so much intention in Duke’s eyes, so much honesty and hope and real feelings for Aku that for a moment it’s like he was pinned under the weight of that gaze. No one had ever looked at him like that before, that he could recall. Much less, had such a look ever made him feel like he could sink into the floor. It’s a look he’d always thought fondly he might receive from a partner someday, without much hopefulness it would actually happen.

He hesitates with these thoughts for only a moment longer before abruptly reaching forward, pulling Duke in and wrapping him in a hug so gentle it’s like being held by smoke. Even touching him right now was proving to be a little overwhelming now that they’d dropped the pretense that their actions towards one another were strictly for fun. ( And yes, he was well aware that such hesitance might be perceived as a little silly, when one considered the circumstances for their relationship up to that point. ) He pressed the side of his face against Duke’s belly with a sigh, shapeshifting his horns on that side of his head away so he can hold him more closely.

“You must think I’m so pathetic, to ask this of you...” he said abruptly, his grip momentarily tightening. Whether or not he realized it, he’d just voiced his own opinion of his indecision, rather than a real concern that Duke might see him that way.

“There was a time not so long ago where I would have taken you up on your offer in an instant... I...” He apparently struggled to find the words.

“Thank you. Given how I feel when I’m with you, I can assure you it won’t be long before I ask you to be mine. But I... do not want to be hasty with this decision.”

“When the time comes, you would only be my second ever romantic partner.”

#◜V1: Bad End◞ #◜悪: threads◞ #◜悪◞ #heedingcalls #◜♚: Duke ; heedingcalls◞

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anonymous asked: //Oh yeah, Samurai Jack turned 20 years old 6 days ago

ooc ★ Yo, real shit? I wasn’t even paying attention, what’s wrong with me. 😭 Show’s almost as old as I am, rip. I remember watching it when I was hella young, and impatiently waiting for PowerPuff Girls to come on instead. Didn’t understand any of SJ back then. It’s funny looking back, ‘cause I never coulda predicted that that “scary dude” I saw back then ( legit, I was scared of Aku when I was a kid ) would be my fictional obsession now that I’m an adult.

— WILD.

#◜♚◞ #//happy late two decade anniversary #//♥♥♥♥♥ #cobalt's talking shit #//also for those of you seeing this post late ('cause I answered it late) the show turned 20 this August 10th!

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anonymous asked: The egg fried rice anon gave me an idea! What is Aku’s favorite tea to drink? If he doesn’t like tea, what’s his favorite beverage?

“I suppose you expect me to say something cliché like ‘the blood of my enemies,’ hmm? Or perhaps something a little silly like ‘sam-u-rai tears’?” He huffed a laugh.

“Actually, I’m fond of red tea with cinnamon, ginger, cardamom, and honey. I also sometimes indulge with green tea... with a little ginger, a dash of lemon, and honey. I suppose my tastes are simple and predictable in that respect.”

“Earl Grey tea is an affront to the senses, though. DISGUSTING. OFFENSIVE, even! You can keep that awful swill to yourself!”

#//Earl Grey tea Is Indeed DISGUSTING #//if you haven't tried it; GOOD. Love yourself more than that. #◜悪◞ #◜悪: answered◞ #◜V1: Bad End◞ #◜headcanon◞

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anonymous asked: Oh wonderful! I have a recipe for some if you would be interested?

[ previous ]

....

“Do I look like a fucking chef to you? What use have I for a recipe when I don’t know how to cook??”

“Give it to my kitchen staff; let them be the judge as to the recipe’s worth. I have better things to do than waste my time with something so trivial.” You’ll forgive him for being a trifle unimpressed. Dude has literal five star chefs at his beck and call; if they can’t come up with an awesome fried rice recipe, nobody could. Least of all some random passerby who felt inclined to share.

What’s next, suppose you’ve got some on hand for him to sample? What is this, one of those sample booths at Sam’s Club?

#//lol this is kinda cute convo though #//thanks for sending! #//i'm working on drafts tonight so small stuff in the inbox is a nice reprieve ♥ #◜悪: answered◞ #◜V1: Bad End◞ #◜悪◞ #//don't let his crabby answer deter you lol

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anonymous asked: Hey Aku, how do you feel about Egg Fried Rice?

“Of course I like fried rice, I’m not made of stone!”

#//mun loves fried rice too so this is a biased answer ♥ #//my mom makes some excellent fried rice too; so much that family friends regularly ask for it from her #◜悪: answered◞ #◜V1: Bad End◞ #//this is a little odd kind of q but a cute / wholesome one #//so thanks for sending ♥ #◜悪◞

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What’s your type?

“Finally a quiz that gets SOMETHING RIGHT!!”

#◜memes◞ #//i fucking love this result so much #//we took a GARBAGE QUIZ earlier and got a GARBAGE RESULT so this? this puts some faith back in quizzes lmao #◜悪: answered◞ #◜♚◞

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"i could fix him" yeah? well i could accept him as he is. you don't like the murder? grow up. the atrocities are part of him and ive decided they're funny

#//ngl.. #//this is why he only ships w villains at this point basically lol #//aku out here like 'babe let's make a date out of destroying every village on this continent ♥' #cobalt's talking shit