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#6 #possibly soon to be 7 tossing up buying fallout NV #but im scared of combat

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I got a job! And not just any job a bit of a dream job that I was really hoping I'd get and was too nervous to mention in my self indulgent rambles here should I jinx it, so excited!

#random #don't mind me #on the one hand work #on the other hand money #and on my mutant third hand doing work that i think i will find genuinely satisfying if not always enjoyable

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#mdzs

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okay but it's the fact that CQL is in large part about what you would sacrifice for the people you love, and in almost every other instance in the show, that sacrifice is portrayed as, if not necessarily the Right decision, at the very least evidence of fundamental goodness. the Yunmeng trio, Wen Qing for her brother and Nie Mingjue for his (Fatal Journey counts 100%), Wei Wuxian and Lan Wangji, Song Lan and Xiao Xingchen, they make difficult choices for love and that makes them Good even if it doesn't make them happy.

and then there's Jin Guangyao and Nie Huaisang. whose identities are so fundamentally wrapped up in being His Mother's Son and The Little Brother, respectively, and they are so singularly devoted to the legacy of their relative that they will continue to fight for it long after death. they will sacrifice others in a heartbeat. they will lie, they will scheme, they will cause others pain. they will endure humiliation after humiliation. they will put on a persona that makes their true selves unrecognizable even to the people who know them best. ultimately they will sacrifice their own morality, their own goodness, in a way that would probably horrify the people in whose names they make this sacrifice.

I am falling asleep and these are random disjointed thoughts but other things that drive me feral about them is:

the backstory CQL gives, Meng Yao being at the Unclean Realm for (?) a length of time, and allll the visual signifiers of a close, basically familial relationship between them

(I know fanon likes to talk about "the Nie braids" as a sect-wide thing but they ARE NOT. they are a HUAISANG AND MINGJUE AND MENG YAO THING. litcherally no other Nie disciple wears them, not even Nie Zonghui! that's so significant!)

CQL/FJ leaning hard into the suggestion of the brothers being more or less on their own, very little discussion of their parents, leaving room to lean into the idea of NMJ fulfilling a parental role as well as a brotherly one, and the parallel between him and Meng Shi being even stronger

the final flashback to Meng Yao and Meng Shi, and how it's framed to suggest that as coming from Huiasang--a cherished memory Meng Yao passed on to him?

I've seen this floated around on tumblr before, about how it's very likely that Jin Guangyao underestimated the depth of Huaisang's love for his brother, based on how his love manifests as overachieving. so that moment of revelation in the temple being not just "oh, you're the one who was behind this the whole time" but "oh, you and I have this same sickness, this same depth of feeling."

the character songs. I'm obsessed with them. the fact that Jin Guangyao's is a constant litany of questions, uncertainty, revolving around "How many people are willing to know your true face?", while the Nie brothers' song has their relationship as this unshakeable foundation, to the point that they're the only two characters represented by one vocalist. the Unclean Realm being unquestionably "a place of deep love" and the only uncertainty being "when will we see each other again?"

(...and that being answered in part by the title, the repeated use of farewell with connotations of permanence. Huaisang defying death, wanting his brother back in any form possible, while Jin Guangyao literally meets his doom because he is so concerned about earning his mother an easier time in her next life.)

mutual obsession over Nie Mingjue. Meng Yao keeping his head in his treasure room. there are lots of jokes about how LXC is left out of the get-along coffin, but can we talk about the fact that Huaisang sacrificed his moral compass, the reputation of his sect, the life of a troubled teenager, and 10+ years of his life all so he could free his brother's mutilated body from Jin Guangyao's clutches... and at the end of it all, Jin Guangyao is the one who will be with him for eternity?

in conclusion: I love them, your honor.

#mdzs #nie huaisang: the little brother who has nobody left to be a little brother too #no but the points about jgya re really interesting #family and sacrifice #featuring all the fucked up relationships in mdzs

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#bro engineering all the way #like ok i haven't touched maths in a while but im sure it will come back to me #i would not have the physics level but i know a shit ton of people who do bit of speed tutoring #besides nobody says i have to do well #im assuming in this scenario im not hte one funding it...

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heathers (film) walked so mean girls (film) could run, and heathers the musical strutted so mean girls (musical) could trip over

#random #last post on this theme now bye

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learning that "legally blonde" and "heathers" the musicals had the same composer (and lyricisit?) blew my mind, because one of those is on the whole rather mid music-wise (with like the rare banger), and the other fucking slaps so fucking hard, by and large (although with a few blagh looking at you "Big Fun" FIGHT ME) and like what did you drink in the interim years?

#random #dRivEn aS hElL #iconique #heathers the musical

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dead girl walking is so good, its just? like,? idk it's OS MUCH energy and i love it and i could explain it better but it's? it's soft, it's fast, it's fun, it's got harmony, the band is killing it, it's? it's?

#random #heathers #i can't but i just #it's jd's bits that turn it from great to fantastic #and he's so irrelevant in it

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became what I hate most in the world: people who don't properly read the clearly signed information and consequently ask stupid questions in the team chat

#don't mind me #trying to find a hole to climb into as i cringe at my failures

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what's the first movie you remember seeing in theaters? don't try and be all edgy and cool and say like tetsuo: the iron man. be honest.

Go!!

#nanny mcphee #as in it's my mmeory of teh cinema #it might have been harry potter...3?? #that was my actual first like i definitely saw stuff before nanny mcphee but it's the most solid in my mind

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It will make you into all you’ve always wanted to be. Truly rebel from society and indulge in what you itch for.

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#Peaceful #Sunflowers are nice #And the lighting on the sky is 👀

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WIP Not-Wednesday - a Teaser

Here's a little tease of something I'm working on for the MDZS Big Bang. Even after a few hundred years, Jiang Cheng and Wei Wuxian will always have misunderstandings and know just how to hurt each other when they're upset.

Jiang Cheng ignored Lan Wangji to focus on Wei Wuxian. "Did you even see Nie Huaisang before he died?! Did you ever see Jin Ling after his wife died? Or are you so wrapped up in your supposedly 'perfect' marriage that you can't bother caring about anybody but yourself? "Shut up!" Wei Wuxian shouted. "You think I didn't mourn them? You think I was just fine after we lost Shijie?! You think it's easy to lose people?!" "So you, what, just forget everyone else exists so you don't have to grieve?!" "You're out of line," Lan Wangji ground out and began taking steps backward, keeping Wei Wuxian at his back. "You and your poor Wei Ying," Jiang Cheng sneered. "As long as you have each other, nobody else in the world needs to exist, right? You who could barely be bothered to visit his own brother in seclusion more than a couple of times a year." "Don't talk to him like that!" Wei Wuxian's eyes narrowed. "This is why you're all alone, Jiang Cheng. Because you're an asshole, that's all you know how to be. Shijie put up with it because you were her brother, but I can't blame anyone else for not wanting to put up with you being like this all the time! You're so stuck in the past that you can't even accept that everything has changed. And then you yell at us because we have the courage to look forward, rather than backwards. Because we try to live our lives instead of being walking, talking monuments to the dead!" "Get out!!!" Jiang Cheng stomped forward and was rewarded when Lan Wangji took another step backwards. "Get the fuck out of here!!!" "No wonder you come here," Wei Wuxian shot out as the two of them backed away, then took one last glance at the tomb that held Chifeng-zun and Lianfang-zun. "You're just as entombed as they are."

#mdzs #oofs all 'round #people's art

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are you a lesbian?

#A dude

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