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I just want things to work out.

I’m tired of being stressed.

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Usually, its easy to know you are not very important to people.

But when you get reminded of it by someone you honestly thought you were close with…it just cuts deeper.

I don’t know why I even bother at all anymore.

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Would be nice

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So tired these days.

I push through it all.

I will continue writing…editing despite no one really caring. It helps me escape the pain.

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Sometimes I just feel like giving up.

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I’m tired.

Sad.

So far I learned this year…good enough for quickies..blow jobs and flying me in for hooking up for a few days to feel better about yourself and then be forgotten.

All the while…my life my crumbles.

Issues with the house, car & bills.

Can’t I just get a break.

And then someone…we may not have been best buddies but uses me…and gets one over on me. It’s cool as long as you and your daughter benefit and move on to the next fun thing. Really? Thanks.

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🥂We turned 2 yesterday!!!🥂

Alot has changed…

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Still tired and drained So very, very tired.

I am so tired of being second….if I’m even that.

Truthfully I know, everyone just pats me on the head and moves on. They care about more important people.

Just wish someone would just hold onto me and never let go. But that will never ever happen. So now I just cry myself to sleep. Seek happiness in my stories and sporadic moments that I am luckily enough have happen. And hope I don’t have nightmares.

Never once is it…oh, shit maybe she’s hurting…its always she’s strong…she’s probably doesn’t even need me to say or do anything.

I’m always hear….you are so sweet…so kind…I don’t know how else to be.

And then I watch as they keep on walking. They go on to the next person who will hurt them or back to the one who drove you across my path…for whatever reason.

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A year ago today I was filled with excitement. I was off on adventure. Emotionally, physically I had some of the best days ever.

Coming home afterward…the aftermath? Some of the worst pain I ever felt.

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Sometimes I just want to disappear

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I give up.

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Why does the truth have to hurt so much???

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Im tired of trying