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tea drinkers: unlike you filthy disgusting creatures i only drink green chamomile peppermint raspberry lemon tea, which makes all my insides glow 10 times brighter and improve. i can feel my body get healthier by every drink i take of my delicious hot mug of TEA. youre absolutely disgusting and a waste of human potential

coffee drinker: hhhnng lov those beans

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I will have an opera

I have been told not to engage people on the internet (even my "friends" on Facebook) in conversations about sexism when they say something sexist and very clearly think that they are being well reasoned and ultimately have the "right" stance on the issue. It can be exhausting to explain that yes as a male you DO have certain privileges that other people who are not male do not and that yes sexism still exists and no it is not appropriate or helpful to make any kind of "not all men" type comments. It should not be my inherent job to educate and reform these people's way of thinking. I, however, have taken it upon myself to meet them where they're at and attempt to calmly educate them. I've been told that this is like teaching a pig to sing. Well, I have a proposition for you all. Anyone who is willing and able to meet people where they're at and educate and enlighten, please join me in this crusade to spread truth and awareness of very real issues. If it's like teaching a pig to sing let's see if we can't build ourselves a full opera.

#teaching a pig to sing #sexism #spread the word #spread the message #patience #engage #we can do it #teacher #enlightenment

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If I could, I would turn girls into dragons. Girls whose skin has been stained by filthy hands, girls who are forced to face those familiar hands day after day, give them armor. Girls who are told that womanhood means duty, who dig and sweat and carry and labor, girls who break their backs on someone else’s burden, give them spiked spines. Girls trapped in cycles: cycles of abuse addiction poverty pain cycles they can’t even name, cycling cycling down the drain and thrown out with the bathwater, give them claws. Girls who chomp down on fear hiding behind their teeth, who swallow it whole because it’s the only nourishment they’ll get, give them razor fangs. Girls who thirst for knowledge in the middle of a drought, girls whose minds are considered as real as their suffering, give them fire to burst from their mouths in place of the words that no one hears. Girls whose bodies are not their own; who are meant for decoration and cannot decorate themselves, who are meant for pleasure and cannot pleasure themselves, who are meant to be examples and cannot exemplify themselves, give them wings to fly far, far away, taste freedom in the sky, and see it for what it should be: a right, not a privilege. Every girl who is considered a possession or a prize or a plaything, who lives confined by people who call condescension “love” and manipulation “compromise” and fear “respect” and silence “consent,” give her eyes that strike terror into the heart of anyone who would call her weak. Gift girls with dragonhood when personhood is a myth.

Dragonhood by Sarah C. (via inclementweatherdelay)

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He Thought He Could Intimidate Me Into Sacrificing a Stranger

I’d been bar-hopping with several friends, and they’d headed home, leaving me in the last bar. As I was getting ready to leave, I saw a guy come in and make his way through the bar, just surveying the scene. There had been a table of college girls toward the back, and I realized that all of them had left except for one girl who was obviously intoxicated. I was in my mid-twenties at the time, and the guy was probably the same or a little older, but the drunk girl was obviously a second year student, maybe even underaged. While I watched, the guy sat down at her table and attempted to talk to her. She was so drunk she could hardly interact with him. I went over to the bartender and asked if he knew where the girl’s friends had gone, and he shrugged, saying that they’d left earlier. While I was standing there talking to him, the strange man got the college girl on her feet, half carrying her, and started toward the door.

Me being me, I intercepted the guy, and asked him if he knew the girl. He insisted that he did, but refused to tell me her name. Then he produced a first name but no last name. Her purse was hanging on her outside arm, just a wristlet around her wrist and I snatched it off her arm, and pulled out her college ID and it was a totally different name than the one the guy had given me. Now that I had the girl’s purse, he started to get angry, but he couldn’t tell me where she lived, or anything else about her. He kept insisting that he was just going to give her a ride home, and I kept refusing to let them leave. The entire time, the bartender just watched, like he didn’t know what to do.

Finally, the guy let go of the girl and kind of shoved her toward me (she could barely stand on her own) and then he starts telling me that I should mind my own business, and that I’ve got some nerve insinuating that he was anything but a good samaritan trying to make sure a drunk girl got home safely. I informed him that I was going to call a cab for the girl, and he asked me if I was going to call one for myself, because it was late, and “not very safe for single girls with bad attitudes to walk anywhere alone” I have never been easily intimidated by anyone, and I’ve grown up working on farms and training horses, so physically I’m very fit and strong even though I’m only 5'5. I told him I’d never met anyone I couldn’t handle yet, but that he was welcome to step up and try me. He blew me off and left the bar in a huff.

I called a cab. The bartender asked who was paying for it, and I told him I would if the bar wouldn’t, and then wondered what it would do for their reputation if people found out this was how they treated college girls in a college town. After that, the bartender offered to pay for the cab. I called numbers in the girl’s phone (she just sat there in a drunk stupor) until I got ahold of her roommate (who hadn’t gone out that night) and explained what had happened. The roommate gave me their address and told me that she was going to go out front and wait for the cab. When the cab got to the bar, I told the driver where to go, and that I had his cab number, and the girl’s roommate was waiting for him, and that if anything went wrong, it was going to be his ass. He was dubious, but left with the girl, and within 15 minutes the girl’s roommate texted me on my phone and told me that she’d gotten her friend and everything was fine.

Then I started to walk to my car, which was a few blocks away. And there was the guy from the bar, actually waiting around to try and scare me. He honestly thought, after all of that, and even after I made it clear that I wasn’t afraid of him, that he could intimidate me. He started to cross the street my way, saying that I should have taken him seriously when he warned me about how it wasn’t safe to walk  alone and that I’d better be prepared to make up for getting in his way earlier. I thought he might attack me, but instead of backing off, I headed right for him, reiterating that I’d be happy to take him on if he wasn’t afraid of getting his ass kicked by a woman. I was honestly ready to fight him, but he abruptly backpedaled calling me a “crazy bitch” and saying that I “needed to learn how to take a joke” and then he left, yelling back over his shoulder that “There aren’t nosy bitches in every bar, but there are plenty of drunk ones in this town.” I’ve never seen him in the decade since, but I never go out that I don’t think about that asshole, and wonder how many girls he’s carted off from bars and raped or assaulted.

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Really Corporate America? REALLY??

So part of my job at the company I work for is looking up contact information for prospective clients. This includes toy manufacturers. The names of these titles... in some of the companies each of the “boy” toys has its own person to head up its own marketing team... but I’ve found that for the most part all the “girl” toys are lumped into one category. 

So first of all, kids’ toys shouldn’t be gendered. That concept has been covered by other posts but it bears repeating. TOYS SHOULD NOT BE GENDERED. But also, the positions I’ve found seem to indicate that much more effort and care is put into the toys marketed for boys than the ones marketed for girls. And that’s also pretty sexist. I’m not ok with it, and the more I look up these people the more I see the signs of overt sexism in corporate America and it just makes me wince every time. I’m so mad about it but there’s not much I can directly do about it right now. But specifically, it makes me upset because these people are making decisions that will directly target CHILDREN and I’m super NOT ok with indoctrinating little kids into rigid gender roles. 

#patriarchy #toys #kids #sexism #gender roles #what is this bullshit #corporate america

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IUD Adventures (Part 2)

This morning I had my appointment to get my IUD in. It started out as uncomfortable, and it got rather painful. Like, I flashed back to high school (before I started the pill) when I would have cramps so bad that even the female teachers wanted to call a hospital. This was even with pain medication. 

So that wasn't great. Except then my doctor told me that she couldn’t get my cervix to actually open at all. There are apparently 2 holes that the IUD has to make it through... the first one was snug, but she said the second one was “completely clamped down”. She told me that she was afraid that if she pushed much harder she would risk perforating me. Which is bad. Very bad. 

My doctor recommended that I just go back on the pill, because I’ve never had any issue taking a pill every day at the same time. She said that if I really want to try again for the IUD that my cervix MIGHT be slightly more willing to open up if I'm on my period, but there’s a chance it wouldn’t. Either way, she didn’t feel comfortable trying to force the cervix open today. 

I’m just going to stick with the pill. It doesn’t hurt and I don’t find it that annoying to take. Plus it makes my periods so regular that I can time it right down to the hour. 

#birth control #IUD #the pill #find what works for you

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IUD Adventures

So I’ve been on and off of birth control pills for years now. Usually I wind up going off of them because my insurance will only let me get one month at a time, and I have had trouble trying to switch my pharmacy when I went home for the summer from college (4.5 hours away). So now I’m graduated, and about to get an IUD for the first time tomorrow. I have read horror stories on the internet and my friend who got one said that they’re extremely painful to get but are totally worth it once it’s actually there. I’m hoping that it’s not as painful as she says, but I’m still super scared for tomorrow morning.

I’m also afraid that it will make my depression worse because one of the side effects is apparently depression. I have a family history of depression, and have been dealing with it for as long as I can remember. Generally I'm just freaked out and am mostly scared of the pain and tensing up or involuntarily twitching and making it harder/more painful/a longer process.

#iud #scared #birth control #getting it tomorrow

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Cupcakes

Last night I made cupcakes from scratch for a friend's birthday (which is today). I love baking and cooking, and it was just really nice to do something I like doing again. The cupcakes turned out well, but even better I finally feel like the depressive episode that was triggered by stress and uncertainty about the future is letting up at least a little. It's hard to remember to self care when you're in the middle of a wave of depression.

#self care #depression #depressed #mental health #mental illness #cupcakes #birthday #friends #college #take care of yourself

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Job hunt

Today, I am applying for jobs. I am especially trying to find jobs related to Virtual Reality and 360 degree imaging, as that is what I have been researching and working with for the past year at college. I am also looking mostly at start-ups, because I applied to most of the major established players and have not heard back from them. I am hoping that start-up companies will be more receptive of my applications. Here’s hoping that changing it up a little will make a difference.

#startup #jobsearch #california #imaging #photographic science #women in stem #this job market is tough #but i'm tougher

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Buttered Ranch Rice

If you make a home made dry ranch seasoning, you should definitely try it on short grain rice with some butter. It tastes so good and warm and comforting. It’s not any kind of actual comfort food that you would have eaten as a kid or anything, but at least to me it tastes like home. The texture of the rice with the butter and the taste of the salty ranch seasoning with the rich butter is just divine. Add some chunks of chicken if you like, but it’s definitely great on its own.

#ranch #rice #butter #dry ranch mix #comfort #comfort food #college #college meals #cheap meals #goodeats #yummy food #easy food #tastes like home #nomnom #so easy

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Wooooah this is AWESOME!!

Colors of Disney: Moana (4 of 4)

And the call isn’t out there at all, it’s inside me It’s like the tide, always falling and rising I will carry you here in my heart you’ll remind me That come what may, I know the way I am Moana!

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It’s barreling toward me

So it’s the end of week 12 in a 15 week semester for me. This is my last semester and all at once I don’t know where the time went and am also wondering how on earth it took so long to get here. I know that’s a cliche, but it’s how I’m feeling. I am also feeling a ton of pressure because I have projects and papers and just generally a ton of school work to complete before I can be done and move on to the next chapter of my life. Except, even though I am glad to be done with my schooling I am utterly terrified of what comes next. I have sent in LITERALLY HUNDREDS of applications, and have rarely even gotten a rejection. There is usually no response. Sometimes, I will get an automated “thank you for applying with us” email, which is nice because then I at least know my application was received (even if it got almost immediately deleted, they still got it). I worked hard all through high school to get good grades and did tons of extracurriculars that would look good on college applications. Then, when I got to college I worked hard but also experienced a stronger wave of depression than I had ever dealt with before. I maybe didn’t do my absolute best 100% of the time, but that shouldn’t invalidate all the late nights, early mornings, tears, and anxiety attacks that I went through to try to get good marks in my classes. Even with all that, I am not sure that I will be able to find a job related to my major. My classmates seem to be getting jobs and I am jealous of them, if I’m being honest. I only have a few short weeks.

A lot of this is because my family really believes in me and tries so hard to support me, but with that I can feel all the more pressure from their expectations of me. I don’t want to let them down, but I don’t know how I’m going to make a career for myself if I can’t seem to get hired. It feels like high school all over again where I am getting excluded and I can’t figure out why or what I’m doing wrong or how to fix it.

#life #college #graduation #jobs #jobsearch #left out #about to graduate #school #WHY IS THIS LIKE THIS

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This is me btw. In case anyone was wondering who the hell I am... I like going on dates with my SO to eat ramen.

#this is me #I like ramen #ramen #love ramen #this is my face #date night #we're eating ramen #ramennoodles #no makeup #college

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Safe to say...

I am 22 years old, about to graduate college, and still am nightcore trash and would totally rock the dark eye makeup and wild hair if I wasn't trying to get a job... I think it is safe to say that it MIGHT not be a phase and this is just who I am now... AND THAT'S OK

#okay #not a phase #almost graduated #college #trash #i am trash #nightcore #this is me #this is my life

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Dedication

On a Friday night, instead of going out with friends, my boyfriend and I are in the lab at our college working on our capstone project. We have been here for at least 6 hours so far, and there is no end in sight. We really just want this project to work, but things just don’t seem to be headed our way. It’s unfortunate because this is not an abnormal amount of time for us to spend on this project. 

In addition, I STILL haven’t heard back from jobs that I have applied to. I keep applying but still am not getting anything back yet. I hope things turn around soon. It seems like I’m having a streak of misfortune here and I’m not sure what else I can do to turn things around. 

#millennials #friday #tgif #project #oh my god #tired of this shit #college #almost graduated #please let this work #jobs #jobsearch #why can't i find a job #overworked #trying so hard

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Judging

I kind of like to binge bad tv from my childhood but my roommates definitely judge the crap out of me for it. It doesn't really bother me except that they are insistent and kind of obnoxious about it.

#roommates #college #college problems #roommate problems #binge watching #bad tv