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Looking at their design, I´ve realized that Grell Sutcliff´s eyebrows are always distressed, even if smiling. Just think about it….

©Yana Toboso

#black butler #fan art #grelle sutcliff #rip blog #t stray

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Based on Season 5 Episode 1 of ‘Parks and Recreation’

#black butler #pffft #vince would have 100% done this #vincent phantomhive #diedrich #short comic #ayaloire

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We ask your questions so you don’t have to! Submit your questions to have them posted anonymously as polls.

#polls #i picked the first option but it’s a lot more complex imo #bc like if someone is like ‘he had dark skin and only ate tacos’ and that’s meant to tell us he’s hispanic in the worst way possible no #but if it’s important to who the character is? #then ofc it’s more than just a visual description but like #i would much rather have a character who slots into a set ethnocultural framework #than some vague racist vacuum #but maybe that’s just me #not kuro

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we are fed again. anyone want seconds??

#wow is this fan translated? or did yen press release early for once lmao #but i adore this page #the movement! #it’s gorgeous #ch 211 #black butler #kuro spoilers

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I need many people to realize a strong contribution to the purity discourse in media we see among young people is due to radfems & gender criticals poisoning the water supply on sites like this one (tumblr) or other social media since 2014

Seeing teens and young 20-somethings using "porn addicted", "porn-brained", "degenerate", all unironically, those are words you find in alt-right & anti-LGBTQ+ message boards.

It wasn't JUST GCs alone, but many people have been around to see them influence a generation of kids with arguments you see today like

“X in fiction causes abuse"

“x is fetishization"

"Unless you've personally gone through trauma you shouldn't write about it"

“If you HAVE gone through trauma, you can't sexually explore it"

"If you like abuse in fiction you're an abuser in real life”

Hearing kids call random (usually queer!) shippers in fandom "groomers" and "pedophiles" for ships that have been established in fandom for decades, or because of a "power imbalance" between adult characters isn't a coincidence. Hmm, I wonder what other groups use those words?

It's not solely kids alone, it is a combination of:

Online radicalization and disinformation

No spaces for kids

No internet safety/literacy

Steeping censorship in activist language,

lack of education (If you don't know red flags you can't avoid them)

COVID did NOT help

This is why ignoring it will never help, because while thankfully some people grow out of it, it usually happens to people who had some support system or breakthrough in cognitive dissonance. There are plenty of people who are becoming adults and who keep infantilizing themselves

“My brain isn't done until I'm 25, you're all predators" and they're talking to a 30 y/o

That argument is literally being used by UK government officials to block access to gender-affirming healthcare. Infantilizing adults only serves the purpose of stripping agency and rights

They're not being safe. They're not gaining skills. They're participating in a fear-fueled climate of faulty medical misinformation, keeping themselves in a perpetual childish-victim state no matter how old they get and nothing about this is healthy

How do you think a person goes through this world when they've been wholly convinced that you can tell someone is safe because they like "safe" or “wholesome" things, & people who make them uncomfortable via hobbies or interests (not IRL actions) are probably actual criminals?

#EXACTLY #well said #it’s part of why i find it so alarming seeing queer people using nazi language and dogma #like please i am BEGGGING BEGGING BEGGING do some of your own fucking research for once #not kuro #fandumb #gif

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Also it’s especially poetic that it takes off with “yes my lord” when that’s how anime ep 1 ends….

the boys are back!

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#polls #skip ahead #maybe by then there’ll be better treatments for my condition #if nothing else i’ve skipped 5 years of misery 🫠 #not kuro

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the boys are back!

#black butler #黒執事 #feels right #let’s go #off to brighton #sebastian michaelis #ciel phantomhive #music #kuro spoilers #ch 211 #poi og #SoundCloud

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We ask your questions so you don’t have to! Submit your questions to have them posted anonymously as polls.'

#polls #they should not be here full stop #if you ARE >16 i beg you please do not put your age in your bio and focus on lurking #or just reblogging puppies or something like #social media is unhealthy at times for ADULTS #y’all don’t need to deal with teen shit while also being suicide baited bc you dared to ship two teens or something #and that’s just one example of many ofc #not kuro #i will never change #my mind about this ever

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WIP Wednesday: Sebardagni Post-Apocalyptic Domestic Sickfic AU

I know no one cares about this idea aside from me, but this is the first thing I’ve been able to write in months, and I really fucking need the escapism of Sebastian having two men taking care of him even when the world has fallen to pieces.

I have a few scenes for this written I may end up posting on AO3 later, but for now, enjoy this scene.

The concept for this AU is this: the world ended a few years ago, and Bard, Agni, and Sebastian have been surviving together. Sebastian is chronically ill, so he and Agni mind the homestead while Bard goes off on excursions for supplies. It’s not an easy life, but overall, they’re happy.

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Sebastian balanced carefully. The forearm crutches Bard had fashioned for him fit better than anything he’d managed with since the world collapsed and meant he wouldn’t do just that onto the floor—even if his muscles were weak.

He’d finally managed a few hours’ sleep, exhaustion and one of Agni’s herbal treatments helping to ease his breathing long enough to dream.

And what a dream it was. He couldn’t wait to hurry out of the small bedroom they shared in this tiny mountain cabin and tell Agni about it. As bittersweet as it was, it had felt so wonderfully real, he could almost ignore the perpetual tightness in his chest.

“Agni! Agni!” Sebastian cautiously eased the door open.

The cabin was cozy, a main room with a fireplace, kitchen, and sitting area, a bedroom and bath, and a cellar Sebastian couldn’t access—too many stairs— where they stored food for the winter.

The fire illuminated the room as Agni worked. From the way the orange sun had colored the bedroom, Sebastian suspected it was evening, which would mean Agni would likely be busy prepping their dinner.

Things had been harder lately, since Bard had been gone for weeks now—73 days, exactly, not that Sebastian had been counting—but they made do. Agni wasn’t as skilled a huntsman as Bard, but between their garden, preserved stores, chickens and goats, they managed. Agni had to coax Sebastian more often than not to eat as it was, so he barely dented their food stocks.

“I dreamed Bard came home and he found me medicine, and—“ Sebastian’s voice cut out immediately as he realized he heard Agni speaking to someone. And then he saw him. “Bard?”

The man was perched on a stool at the kitchen island, looking ragged and thinner than Sebastian remembered, but very much not a dream or a ghost.

“You’re alive?!” Sebastian’s eyes filled and he pushed himself to move as fast as he possibly could, dropping his arms from his crutches so he could throw them around his lover. “Agni and I were worried you were never coming home.”

Bard’s strong arms supported Sebastian in their embrace so he wouldn’t lose his footing, enjoying this connection. He smelt like tobacco and sweat and days out on the road, but more than anything, like hope.

Sebastian didn’t even care if Bard hadn’t been able to find any medicine for him. He was just so relieved he began to sob as weeks of emotions he’d been damming up broke free.

“Hey, hey, you’ll make your breathing worse. I’m all right. I missed you both and thinking of getting back here to you kept me going. You know I don’t die easy.”

Sebastian’s legs ached, and Bard sensed his growing instability and helped him sit down beside him. A moment later, Agni set a steaming mug in front of him. The frothy liquid was green. Another one of his herbal concoctions?

“It’s matcha. I lucked out.” Bard scratched his cheek. “Got caught in a bad storm a couple towns over and took refuge in a partly burned-out old asian market. I moved some shelves to help create a barcade and found a whole supply of the stuff that had been overlooked by scavengers.”

“The caffeine will help your breathing,” Agni said with a warm smile. “It’s not medicine, but it was a good find.”

Sebastian tried not to frown as he took a sip. It was bitter, but Agni had added some of the honey from the bees he kept to sweeten it. He didn’t want to ruin their happy reunion by suggesting, again, that maybe it was time Agni and Bard moved on and left him behind. He was too frail to travel, and Bard was having to spend more and more time on the road, detouring farther and farther from their home base in order to find any medicine to help ease Sebastian’s symptoms.

Even before the world fell apart, Sebastian had been ill. But after, the stress and lack of medical care meant his condition had deteriorated significantly, and if they hadn’t found this cabin by chance, he knew he probably would have died years ago.

Sometimes, he wondered if that would have been better for both Agni and Bard, even if he kept his mouth shut as he listened to them talking, Bard regaling some of his adventures while Agni finished prepping their food.

They’d have rabbit stew tonight, thanks to Bard’s catch, and Sebastian cherished the warmth of the mug in his hands as he tried to enjoy the limited happiness of this domestic snapshot.

He did like it here, in their little cabin. The woods shielded them from most of the horrors of the dying human world, and the fresh, dry air eased his breathing some. He loved their little home and garden, and enjoyed helping Agni with the animals when he was well enough to venture outside. He thought, despite his illness and the reality of their new world, he might be content, if Bard didn’t constantly have to put his life at risk for Sebastian’s sake.

Sebastian shivered as one of Bard’s coarse hands played with his long hair, curling a strand around a finger.

“I missed you both so fucking much,” he said. Sebastian could see the fear in those blue eyes, that he’d probably worried he might not make it back, or that by the time he did, only Agni would be waiting for his return.

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Reblogs appreciated as always!

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#in case you missed it

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So the official translation should be out tomorrow, and I was not able to do a post here, but y’all will love it… though there is a sad moment.

just saw the new kuro chapter…. sebaciel shippers are gonna lose their minds

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#omg !!!!! #i remember those!!!!!! #i thought i was sooooo cool having those on my bike back in the 90s lmao #not kuro #wow

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Tanaka

Kuroshitsuji

#i wonder who will voice him in the new anime

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Bruh I didn't have my own room until I was like 12. And it was half the size of the one pictured lol

#i was lucky i always did have my own room #partly bc my parents were immigrants and DID NOT have that privilege #but this is like the most privileged bullshit ever #not kuro

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me navigating my follower list this week as people bounce back and forth trying to figure out what side of the fandom i’m on

#legit it’s been so funny #i’ll get like a bunch of follows then they’ll either unfollow or be blocked #and then get another batch from the other side as they realize i’m not an anti and aren’t against sc lol #like i think my follower list has changed overall by 20 and yet somehow stayed almost the same 😂😂

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Hope it’s all right to ref your tags @melon-cream-enmu

Honestly, I wasn’t even looking at those dynamic through a shipping lens. I don’t personally ship them romantically (I don’t care if some do) and I **do** agree that Ciel has seen Sebastian as a tool (part of why I chose the word “shield” for him). From the beginning, Ciel has said that Sebastian is merely a pawn, a black knight for him to use and direct as he sees fit.

And while I still think Ciel would say he feels that way about Sebastian, I think that’s not a completely honest answer.

I think that over the course of 200+ chapters, Yana has showed their relationship shifting subtly.

One of the biggest examples of this, imo, is during the murder arc.

Now, we know Ciel was acting here, using the drama as a way to communicate orders to the supposedly dead Sebastian, and I cannot say what Yana’s full intent was with this scene.

However, I have always suspected part of why the scene was so believable to everyone present was because there was a drop of truth in it.

When Ciel says, “You promised you’d stay by by side till the very end,” it’s heartbreaking, to me, anyway, because it reminds us of how much loss and betrayal Ciel has experienced—for the one “person” who he could be assured would do neither to do that, even if Ciel is well aware that Sebastian isn’t actually dead or gone.

And we’ve seen Sebastian’s perception of Ciel shift as well. From the start of the contract, where he tries to trick Ciel into agreeing to a wish that would be a lie, up till now, Sebastian is not that same demon.

There’s a kind of tenderness or even fondness of a sort, and I think part of that is my own interpretation that Ciel’s contract is unlike any other Sebastian has ever had before. He’s never lived among humans so long or so closely. Ciel subverts his expectations around every corner, and I genuinely think Sebastian has a manor of genuine respect for him.

When we see Sebastian panic in the Green Witch Arc or in the Blue Cult Arc because Ciel is hurt, it is very different from his more detached, aloof role back when Ciel’s asthma flares in the Circus Arc.

If Sebastian still saw Ciel as a mere meal to be manipulated, why would he be so frantic to save his life? You (gen) could say it’s the contract binding him, or his aesthetic, but again, I would disagree. We’ve seen Sebastian willfully ignore Ciel’s orders before in order to ensure his safety.

Why, if he was just a meal, would he do that? Yes, maybe Ciel won’t be completely ripe for the picking, but surely, it would be easier and simpler to just let him be killed and then eat him.

Ciel does not see Sebastian as his father.

He is actively repulsed by the idea and Yana has shown this explicitly at least twice: once in the Circus Arc and again in the Murder Arc.

I know there’s a significant segment of the fandom who genuinely believes that Ciel wanted to have Sebastian to replace his dead father, but I disagree strongly, not only because of the above, but also because Yana has shown us that OC was much closer with Tanaka than Vincent.

Besides, if you look at the revisited contract scene from ch 138, it almost seems as if Ciel is not thinking of replacing Vincent when he makes the decision to accept Sebastian’s offer, but in fact is looking for a new protector to replace RC, his dead twin.

It’s impossible to talk about this moment without the gorgeous full-page series from the chapter.

Sebastian offers the contract. Ciel recalls his brother promising to protect him. He gazes out at his brother’s corpse and realizes that his only way forward now is through making a pact with the demon. His brother’s soul is gone already, as is his life.

So Ciel becomes his twin. He takes Sebastian on as his new shield for his revenge. Sebastian may be someone that Ciel relies on, but he is absolutely not his new father figure.

#further comments added #btw i’m not trying to say your interpretation is ‘wrong’ or anything #just adding a bit more of my thoughts on this topic

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We ask your questions so you don’t have to! Submit your questions to have them posted anonymously as polls.

#no younger than 17 imo #and even that’s too young to me #but thats what the app is rated #def if you’re less than 16 you should not be here or any sm imo #polls #not kuro #blocking everyone who is legit serious 13 year olds should be using this site #like it’s one thing if you did it but just bc you did doesn’t mean it SHOULD be done #tumblr is no place for kids that young to be unsupervised as a general rule