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This has definitely been said before I feel it in my left kidney but

The reason we can't distinct what's symptoms of autism/or quite frankly any neurodiversity and what's effects of trauma is because society has not produced a single not-traumatized neurodivergent person.

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There is just something about the union of someone who has trouble seeing herself as human because she has been treated as a monster, and someone who has trouble seeing herself as human because it she has been performing godly perfection for as long as she can remember

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i look in people’s windows may be her shortest song but i think it’s one of the most relatable ones. “i’m afflicted by the not knowing / i look in people’s windows in case you’re at their table, what if your eyes looked up and met mine one more time?” - how many times have i wondered what would happen if i saw someone again. how many times have i searched stranger’s faces for a glimpse of someone i once knew. how many times have I looked around once-familiar places in case i saw them. things end but you sometimes wish u could just see them one more time.. and what would happen? and that’s why im obsessed with this song!!!

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So I keep coming back to Bananannabeth’s Not So Shore (because I’m obsessed) and thinking about how Percy’s mortal friends would respond to his family and his history:

Mortals: Your dad is the king of the sea?

Percy: I mean, yeah, kind of.

Mortals: (oh my gosh, little mermaid little mermaid) So, did you give up a life in your father’s kingdom so that you could be with Annabeth?

Percy: I— Yeah, I guess technically I did. I mean, it was more complicated than that, and it had more to do with immortality? but—

Mortals: (holy shit, little mermaid little mermaid littlemermaid) And was your relationship like forbidden?

Percy: Look, I know how this looks, but—

Mortals: . . .

Percy: Just, don’t tell my sister. She’s already obsessed with Moana. I would never live this down.

With the addition of:

Percy: When I saw her the first time I thought she was a princess.

Annabeth: *scoffing* You were delirious the first time you saw me.

Mortals: wat?

Annabeth: We found him half-dead on the edge of camp. I had to nurse him back to health.

Percy: Oh, is that what we’re calling it? You know, choking me on pudding while you interrogate me about my family history?

Mortals: *envisioning Percy as a merman washing onto the shores of Annabeth’s summer camp because they still do not fully understand that Percy was not actually born half-fish*

Annabeth: It’s not like you were saying much of anything.

Percy: I couldn’t have answered those questions even if I wanted to and you know it.

Mortals: *misinterpreting everything* (oh my gosh he IS the little mermaid. An evil sea witch stole his voice and stranded him there to die from a broken heart and improper pudding consumption)

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just remembered taylor wrote “is this the end of all the endings, my broken bones are mending” she really thought she’d never have to go through this shit again!!! i feel violent!!!

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this image is like modern art to me

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and is your shame helpful? is it inspiring goodness and change? or is it keeping you frozen in time unable to move on and be everything you have expanded to be?

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being held would be so cool. wish physical touch was real

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“So I’ve been thinking about our whole ‘non-exclusive’ thing and about how you haven’t been holding up your end of the bargain.” “I didn’t know it was a requirement." 

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Day 7 : Free choice (Beginning of Brucas) 

“You know I kind of enjoy the fact that we’re different.” 

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going from call it what you want as track 14 on reputation and the smallest man who ever lived as track 14 on ttpd is the most violent of jumps

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Roasted chicken, ginger, daikon, shiitake mushroom soup with lime, cilantro, broccoli sprouts, and rice noodles

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abandonment issues are sooooo funny. "i'm scared people will leave me so i push them away and leave them first to avoid being hurt" girl the prophecy is self fulfilling!!! the sabotage is coming from within!!! you forgot about the cycle!!!!!!!!!

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If Hadestown has a moral, she says, then it’s “you have to try, you have to have hope, not because success is a given – it’s not. Orpheus fails. We heroicise” – here she breaks off to apologise that jet lag has led to her making up words – “we heroicise Orpheus not because he succeeds but because he tries, and that endeavour alone is worthwhile. How to live, and not merely survive, is to believe things could change.”

Anaïs Mitchell on her musical Hadestown: 'I worked on it so long I was afraid I'd never make another record'

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cant stop thinking abt ursula k. le guin’s essay abt the carrier bag theory….. she’s like, maybe the first human tool was not a weapon, but rather something that holds, a bag, a pouch, a vessel, something for gathering and storing and sharing. let’s shift the narrative of humanity from that of violence to that of safekeeping. and i’m like