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2/29/2024

Found out C and A are going to be out on work trips for the next like 3 weeks. And like shit. Why bother coming in?! If my work husband AND other fave isn’t going to be there then why should I?? lol but yeah it bums me out especially if C isn’t there.

(Also C cheers-ed me again yesterday randomly. It really caught me off guard and I had to drop what I was doing to tap his drink can with my coffee mug and take a drink. Like damn okay 😆 he chuckled watching me fumble to meet him. Afterwards I asked what the occasion was and he just shrugged and smiled and said “just cuz” I chuckled and replied “okay”)

It was kind of slow but I had enough on the to-do list that I started putting together. I was organizing the shelf and the last supervisor that’s there during this time approached me to show me a bruise that was starting to already form on his arm. I was kind of surprised. I asked him how it happened and he said that it was from one of the cases we use. And I winced knowing those can hurt like hell.

I don’t talked about him much, but he is a cutie patootie. Not sure how old he is but he seems to be somewhere between my age and C’s I believe. I don’t interact with him much but he’s a cool guy.

#C #A #personal

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2/22/24

It was pretty today at work. C was getting a headache from everything and sore muscles in his shoulders and going up his neck.

I asked if he took anything for it and he said that he just did. Next we were just kind of waiting a few moments before we had to do the next thing and he sighed and said he just wanted to sleep for a couple hours and he leant over a counter and I nodded and said it would be good to do if he could.

I reached my hand over and rubbed his back a bit and he let out a relieved sigh and stood back up and said that it felt nice and he liked it. I replied that sometimes you need a bit of a back rub to help a bit. He agreed and said it helped ☺️

I found myself wanting to protect him from what might make his headache worse or prolong it. Like the loud music that a couple coworkers were playing and try to find easier ways of doing strenuous lifting and such. (The loud music from multiple coworkers in close proximity tends to bug me anyways. There’s alternatives we can do, that I do regularly that are okay to do in our workplace). I feel like the last time I was like this was with R when he was also having his frequent headaches.

Finally got to eat lunch with him. Another coworker was there. They were mostly chatting with each other, I kind of didn’t really have much to add to their discussion and just kind of showed interest and listened. It felt like C would try to include me in the conversation between him and the other guy and I tried to add when I could.

#C #personal

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2/14/24

My estranged mother sent a “bouquet of cookies” to me yesterday and it put me in such a bad mood. I was really confused by the note on it since it was in another language neither of us speak. For a split second I thought I might’ve had a secret admirer but of course not.

She didn’t send anything for last years holidays later in the year that would’ve made a bit more sense but she sent something for Valentine’s Day??? My friends were super confused as well. I decided to take it to work today and let the guys have them.

They were happy and appreciative. I just told them that I brought cookies for everyone and was leaving them where everyone could get to them.

After a bit into the shift I just started drinking my energy drink and C walks up to me and snaps open his energy drink too and wanted to clink our cans together and cheers with me and said it in Irish. I was kind of surprised by it at first and thought it was neat that he learned it and wanted to be different from when other people say cheers or salut lol.

I started feeling kinda shitty during my lunch break and tried to close my eyes for a bit. When my break was over C was talking to me about what I was working on and was explaining some stuff to me. He noticed I looked a bit off and asked if I was okay. And I told him that I started getting a headache during lunch. He asked if I wanted any Tylenol and I told him that I just took an excedrin he said that was good and also asked if I might be dehydrated. I let out a chuckle and said probably yeah and said that he was going to be on me about drinking enough water. I jokingly said “okay dad” he laughed and said “hey, you make sure I drink water too!”

I was kind of confused because I thought he takes the initiative to drink water at one point or another in the day. If anything I just would praise him for it?? Lol

#C #personal

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me and my undying urge to be someone’s favorite

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Thanks for the tag @flowers-in-hair-you-in-mind !!❤️

I meant to post this sooner but just have been struggling.

This also reminded me off something I did similarly like a year or something ago and I’ll share that here as well since I really liked how it came out at well

Here’s the like for that: https://picrew.me/en/image_maker/644129

Tagging anyone and everyone that’s wants to try it

GIRLS I found a new cute game! Create yourself and your Tc!!

This is me and R 🤧 <3

Tagging: @lovesickbeetle24694 @bauhausluvr @kryptonexorcius @mahogany-cherry-wine @somepeculiarprincess @m-jotss @blossomsworldsworld @lustfulromances + anyone :3

Gooo girls🙆

https://picrew.me/en/image_maker/399481

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12/10-12/11/23

My first tc came to visit me in my dreams last night. The main dream setting was boring. Me waiting for a doctors appointment (??). I was waiting for a long time and suddenly he walks into the waiting room, checks in, I’m taken aback and too nervous to say anything. He glances over at me and lights up and I get up and we walk to each other and we hug each other. I could feel his chin rest on the top of my head. The hug felt like it lasted for a good while. Once we parted, he walked me over to a corner of the room and we leaned towards each other and talked quietly. I don’t remember what we talked about. I think we just caught up. It’s been since high school after all.

I had to go at one point. We said goodbye to each other. I walked out then froze and turned back and went back into the waiting area and knelt down and told him that he could get in contact with me whenever. And smiled softly and said of course. I walked away genuinely happy to talk to him again and looked forward to talking to him more.

Then I woke up seriously sad that it wasn’t really and not going to happen.

I still miss him sometimes. I’m not in love with him, nor was I really back then. It was a kind of crush and I still have a fondness for him.

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I've wished so many times for you to reach out to me. For you to write to me, expressing that you've missed me too. That you've often thought of me, recalling everything we've experienced and endured together. And even today, there's nothing I long for more. I still miss you.

— r.r.

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11/1/2023

C’s birthday was the other day. I texted him on the day wishing him a happy birthday. Nothing too special. Some time went by and he thanked me.

The next day at work we were all just kind of chatting while working on stuff and C mentioned how I was one of the few people that wished him a happy birthday. Some of his close family and friends didn’t text/call him. I told him that yeah I know how that feels, and told him how my friends of over a decade forgot about my birthday too until I said something.

A little later, everyone was going around and asking when everyone’s birthday was and he asked me and I told him. So we’ll see what happens 🤔

#C #personal

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10/6/23

I got to work and C started saying what’s been going on and what we had to get done. With the week I’ve been having it was really hard to retain the information he was telling me. Without realizing, I was making a confused face and he chuckled a little and said “don’t look confused, you know what I’m talking about”. I shook my head letting out a small laugh and told him sorry and that my brain isn’t here yet. He said yeah it’s been a shit show still here. A little later we were joking around a bit and how he doesn’t want to die, he just doesn’t want to be at work. And I shrugged and said idk I do kinda want to die. And he asked if I need a hug. I chuckled and said yeah, been needing one for a long time haha.

He opened his arms to me with a soft smile and we hugged for a good bit. It was such a good hug too 😩. It really helped me out. I thanked him and he said “of course, anytime”.

10/24

I had been having a bit of a shitty past few days with bills and issues that my pet has been having. I had another stress inducing call during my lunch. C watched me come back and asked what was up and I gave him a brief overview of what’s been going on and he asked if I wanted a hug again and I said yeah that’d be nice. He closed the distance between us and put his arms around me and I did the same to him and he patted my back a bit again. We hugged for a few moments before letting go and I thanked again he said no problem with an small, easy smile. And we went on with working and continuing our usual antics. Him meowing particularly and me meowing back at him. It always reminds me of R. Although he’s been the only one to have that habit up til now so no wonder lol. Though R would typically meow to a tune of a song, not no much just randomly/periodically. But it has helped with filling that void from R haha.

#C #R #personal

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10/2/2023

It’s been a stressful time at work with changing a lot of stuff over for the past couple weeks. Thankfully we’re almost done. I was working with C on and off as well as another coworker of ours. At one point C and I were constructing something and it was getting supremely frustrating and our coworker wasn’t of much help while we tried different things. When we finally accomplished it I was exasperated and just said that I needed a hug semi-jokingly. C chuckled softly and responded with saying that he’s fine with providing that. I chuckled back and said perhaps when I’m not so sweaty. He was pretty sweaty too after the ordeal and I said maybe later when we cool down and he said the offer’s open (I wound up never getting one because I was still too nervous to ask after that, I might ask on Friday when I go in).

It was just about lunch time soon after and A asked someone if they wanted to go to lunch and they said that they brought their lunch. I was standing next to C and just kind of said that I want to go out to lunch and take a break from the space for a bit. He threw up a quizzical brow and said “but you always bring lunch” and I said I did but at this point I didn’t care and told him about how I went out to lunch a couple times with some of the guys anyways. He shrugged and nodded. A got closer and C piped up to him how I could join him. A leaned around the corner and asked if I wanted to get lunch with him and I replied saying that if he’s cool with it and he said yeah of course. We talked about possible places to go and one of my other supervisors brought up one place and A asked where I wanted to go and I told him that I liked the place I went to before but I never went to the place my other supervisor mentioned and A said let’s go there then (the place I haven’t tried yet).

It was just him and I in his truck and we chatted on the way there and back, as well as while waiting for our food and between eating. He asked me about my plans for the future and about some family stuff since I’ve opened up to him about it before in the past and he asked me about school and I told him I graduated this year and I’m glad to be done. He congratulated me and agreed on me not walking and my reasoning. I told him that R had told me to continue school and I told A that I don’t think I could with the amount of burnout I was getting and how much I was struggling and I’m pretty content with where I’m at now. He talked about his wife and kids and thoughts of moving out of state like him and his wife have been wanting to for some time now. As well as his family struggles as well, so he understands about how frustrated and exhausted I’ve been from everything I’ve been dealing with since I was a kid.

When we got back to the shop, we got out of his truck and he took a smoke break and I thanked him again for letting me tag along and he said of course and anytime.

{There was a moment when we were placing our orders where I wondered if he’d offer to pay for my meal like R did when it was just him and I going somewhere. But alas haha. I also wondered if I should offer to pay for a meal of his, I might at some point down the line.}

I went into the lunch room to wash out my coffee mug and C was sitting at the table eating his lunch. We both said hey to each other and he asked about how lunch was with A (with a twinge of jealousy perhaps 🤔 lol). I told him it was good and the place we went to had good food and it was nice to get out for a bit.

The rest of the shift went good and C and I joked around some more like we have been.

#A #C #personal

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Intro to my comfort people:

R: (early 50s) the main guy my blog has been about up until I graduated college. Has helped me a lot during my time at the college and I still care a lot for. And has helped a lot with my anxiety issues.

A: (mid 40s) a head of a different department from one that I work in. One of the guys I’ve known the longest since I started working there and always enjoy talking with.

C: (mid 30s) my supervisor that I work the most regularly with. Used to know R, they both have the same degree. The 2nd longest guy that I’ve worked with that I’m comfortable with/like. Probably would be my work husband lol

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8/21/23

*BUSTS THROUGH THE TCC DOOR*

HEY R TEXTED ME TONIGHT!!!

Holy shit!

He finally came across that gift bag I gave him during that last month of the semester. I had messaged him on instagram after the semester ended to see if he got it and he said he’s take a look and I never heard back and I didn’t want to keep bothering him about it and I tried to just forget about it and focus on work and other stuff.

And now out of the blue, a few days before the semester starts, R texts me thanking me for the gift! And we chatted for a little bit. I was scared to keep asking him and tried to read if it seemed like I’m getting to be too much or anything and it’s kinda late (for him more so). It was mostly me saying no worries and glad he got it and asking how the move was and asking about his new commute now that he’s pretty far away. I wanted to ask him a lot more but also noticed that he wasn’t really asking me anything either (which I was kind of bummed about) so I didn’t want to drag the conversation on more that it needed to be too much.

It’s still crazy to know he’s no longer in my same city.

Sorry I haven’t been posting much or anything lately. I was tempted to post about this nearly half an hour call I had with one of my supervisors (C) that I’m close to while he was home sick for the week. He had asked me to locate some merchandise that we were having some issues with that I needed to take pictures of and send to him. It would’ve been a bit easier to to end the call and send him the pictures after he helped me locate their weirdly placed barcodes but whatever 😅 he’s always a nice break to talk to when I was getting frustrated with one of my newer coworkers. I don’t remember what we talked about exactly but it was more than just what he wanted me to look for and checking in on each other. I was getting concerned with his coughing asked if he wanted to end the call and I can keep taking pictures and send them to him or put a pause on this search since he also said it’s not super pressing and he said no reassured me that he wanted to keep going. So yeah that was nice and helped me that day.

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BTW I don't think I'm made for this world

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we may not talk, but I still care

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5/25/23

I worked at the college today with my work company. I was thankfully directed to help out R and our friend, as well as, a couple other students that helped out. 

In the morning a couple of the others were teasing R about how he teaches and he turned to me and said, “see, even if you’re not here I still get teased. Not much has changed.” We had a good laugh about it. At a few points R took off his hat and I noticed that he had some gray hair coming in and I was a bit surprised. The whole time I had been there, he hadn’t gotten any. I brought it up later when he took off his hat again saying, “I’m not around for a year and you get gray hair now??” He smiled and took off his hat again and tilted his head down to me and I put a finger up and lightly go over where it was growing in at. He chuckled and said that he blames it was from starting to teach. 

I was hanging out with another of R’s coworkers that I’ve talked to on and off the time I’ve been going to that school. He’s told me about how R frustrates him sometimes but he knows he’s knows his stuff and is a good guy at the end of the day. We talked about comparing this year’s ceremony to last year’s. He has a tone of annoyance from this younger girl that was following R like a lost puppy (and it got on my nerves a bit too) and how I took over the job she was supposed to do because she didn’t want to do it and stay with R the whole time when she was initially going to do an internship with the coworker. A bit later I approached R and as he was about to head back to his spot I put my hand on his arm and he leant over to me and told him something that his coworker wanted him to do while I was just talking to him since we know R gets sidetracked and hyper focused easily. I said it like “as a gentle reminder, you still need to have time to do this” he nodded thanked me for reminding him. A bit later the coworker when to R’s spot with him while I was doing other stuff. So I wonder if R mentioned that I reminded him or if he played it off as though he knows he still needs to do that other stuff if his coworker brought it up. Either way, I just wanted to save him some potential chop busting.

At the end of the day, I was ready to head out and wanted to say goodbye to R and our other friend that I’ve known the whole time too. R was the closest and I let him know I was leaving and he stopped on his heals and turned towards me and put his hand up, I thought to give a high-five. So I gave gave him one slightly because at that point he moved in for a hug and I hugged him back for a few moments before we pulled back and told him goodbye and that I was heading over to say goodbye to our other friend and that I’d like to get together and do something since I’m graduating. He agreed and said that he’s free on the weekends. My other friend gave me a hug too and we talked about getting together once the semester ends and everything calms down. 

So that’s it! I’ll be getting my degree. R is going to be moving a few towns over in June/July. He didn’t say he was quitting or anything so I assume he’s going to make that commute which is crazy alone cuz I know he hates online teaching and would much rather teach in person. I’m sad he’s no longer going to live so close. It was a nice feeling though I rarely ran into him. I’ve been in a weird headspace from everything.

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5/24/23

R came to my work today! 💕 as well as our other friend that works at the school. It was really nice to see them. They seemed happy to see me and we talked for a little bit before we got to work on stuff there. C was there next to me chatting with R as well talking about when they went to that college and the degrees they have now. R touched my back and arm a couple times and it made me happy. He did his typical thing with how he stands close and brushes up against me when I really try to stay out of the way.

They weren’t there for too long. Maybe like a hour and a half, 2 hours. So I was kind of bummed about that. But I walked them out to R’s car afterwards while my supervisor hung back after saying goodbye. I’ll hopefully being seeing them again on Thursday on campus. They asked me if I was walking at graduation and I told them I wasn’t and they were baffled haha. I gave them my reasonings and they were insistent I should walk. C piped up saying that he told me that I should walk. And I told them that well it’s too late now anyways to put my name in anything. And my friend said that I should just run up and grab the booklet anyways lol.

Afterwards my other coworkers were asking me about them and how long I’ve known them. And they were happy I got to spend some time with them and help them while they were there.

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