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im not doing well..i lost my grandma on july 3rd. i don’t know a life without her. my heart keeps breaking everyday when i search for her, expecting her to be there but she’s not

i desperately want to tell her to please come home soon

#i wish she was here #i wish i can see her again and reach out and hold her hand #i wish things were different #i have so many regrets.. #so many things i wanted to say #so many things i wanted to do for her #i wish i done more #i love you grandma… #i miss you every second of the day #it’s unbearable…

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relationships between people are difficult, aren’t they? -rise kujikawa

especially as an adult---at this point i don’t really have any friends (irl or online) that i talk to anymore and while i’m very emotionally stable now, it still feels bad lol

i wonder if it’s something i’ve done wrong or people just don’t like me anymore...people i used to talk with everyday found new interests and grew distant i try to talk in servers but no one ever responds, i’m just here

my so-called irl friends have excluded me out of things for like 7 years now too---what caused me to post this is that tonight they all got together for a bday party and i’m like---o h i really try my best not to let it bother me because i’m past it and used to it and they’re free to do their own thing but idk---it still stings

whatever...they can all just go and fuck right off

#i want to make new friends #but it's hard to start all over #and i'm not sure where to even start again #Egg talks

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it’s my birthday today !! ☆

#i'm turning 25....i'M OLD ahahaha #Egg talks

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here’s a takuya :)

#Digimon #Digimon Frontier #Takuya Kanbara #Kanbara Takuya #Art #My post

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happy birthday to my baby boy EDO 🎉🎉🎉

#Yugioh #Gx #Yugioh Gx #Edo Phoenix #Judai Yuki #Yuki Judai #Jaden Yuki #Heroshipping #Art #My post

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my first drawing on procreate and it’s tyson !!

#it’s messy aHAHAHA idk how to use procreate 🤣 #but i did say to myself to upload stuff even if it’s messy or unfinished #so here we areee #Beyblade #V Force #Beyblade V Force #Tyson Granger #Takao Kinomiya #Kinomiya Takao #Art #My post

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so a certain figure store (NY) has screwed me out of $400 would anyone consider commissioning me for art....a bust...icon....or something....i’m so crushed by this hefty loss ;AAA;

#Emergency Commissions #? #CRIES #i've been trying to fight tooth and nail to get these funds back but no luck #i'm desperate ;__; #Commissions #Commission #Art Commission #Art Commissions #Art #maybe i have to post a more detailed commish page but my head's a mess atm #Egg talks

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evangelion rebuild is a masterpiece and if you haven’t watched it then what are you waiting for

#please it's so good #every single movie #26 years of eva...that is such a long time #pains my heart to think of the eva fans who never go to see rebuild through to the end #i feel blessed to have seen it in its entirety #wE WATCH FOR THEM !! #Egg talks

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just waiting for the day where genya gets included in more official art and merch 8′(((((((((((((((((

#every time he's missing i'm just #wHERE'S MY BOY #Kny #Kimetsu no Yaiba #Demon Slayer #Genya Shinazugawa #Shinazugawa Genya #Egg talks

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ok but tobio and tooru getting married and then living in argentina tobio picks up spanish and starts calling tooru with ‘mi corazon’ 

#tooru's face goes bright red every single time #Haikyuu #Kageyama Tobio #Tobio Kageyama #Oikawa Tooru #Tooru Oikawa #Kageoi #Oikage #Egg talks

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okay i know genya actually called sanemi as nii-chan instead of nemi but what if in the dub they make him say nemi

#i'm just gonna #burst into tears again #Kny #Demon Slayer #Genya Shinazugawa #Shinazugawa Genya #Sanemi Shinazugawa #Shinazugawa Sanemi #Kimetsu no Yaiba #Egg talks

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he won’t have to worry about his little brother getting killed by Muzan. After the battle, the blushing, mummified Shinazugawa brothers are being spoon-fed by Sumi from the Butterfly Mansion, who happens to share a name with their deceased younger sister. Tengen walks in & laughs at the scene. Genya wants to hide under the sheets. Sanemi makes a mental note to kill Tengen later.

THIS THIS THIS THIS IS ALL I COULD HAVE EVER WANTED tengen would tease the shinazugawa bros so much aHAHAHA

and then genya and sanemi live together with a dog somewhere and GET TO BE BROTHERS AGAIN AND THEY'RE HAPPY AT LAST 😭😭😭😭 sanemi tracing the scar down the middle of genya's face with so much guilt in his eyes and genya just smiles reassuringly "it's okay. i was able to protect you, nii-chan."

#*lays down on the floor* #please i just want them to be happy #don't take genya away from sanemi pleaseeee #it hurts too much #Answered #Anonymous

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Have you seen the Sanemi & Genya animatic on YouTube called “Waste”? It just showed up again on my recommended and reminded me how I still have not accepted ch. 179. To that chapter I say, “Nope, Genya healed thanks to the blood he ingested, but ended up with a scar down the middle of his face. Then Sanemi knocked him unconscious & handed him to the kakushi so that

hi !! omg i'm sorry this is so late i didn't get notified of your ask !! but i just watched it and i WANT TO CR Y oh my god...just seeing them both with the friends they made along the way but deep down they are still so lonely bc they're not with each other my heart is in complete shambles i don't think i'll ever get over ch 179---genya deserved so much more hE AND SANEMI DESERVED A PROPER HUG 😭😭😭 i know in his last moments he knew that sanemi loved him very much but i'm so broken that he didn't get to hear it or see sanemi smile one last time is there a petition to change the outcome of ch 179 pLEASE i've had to read so many fix-it fics to cope and yESSSS ABSOLUTELY YOUR CANON IS MY CANON 🥺🥺🥺

#to everyone who wrote a different outcome for ch 179 you are doing god's work THANK YOU #Answered #Anonymous

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Hey, are you still looking for a shiny buddew?

hello !! and yes i am ;W;

#Answered #Anonymous

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hiiii my friends ! egg here, long time no talk ;W; my blog has been barren for so long ahhh i really gotta change that, i needa reblog things again and post art ahahaha but thank you to everyone who still follows me despite my inactivity !! 3.8k followers wowwowow thank you so much qwq this post is getting really long as i’m typing out all my thoughts so i’ll put this under a read more for anyone who is curious enough to hear me ramble ahahaha

i’ve been busy actually ! i went back to college this fall. surprising huh ?? after 5 years of just working, i finally made the decision to go back to school (partly bc i’m sick of this job and burnt out and want something new) i got into a program for a diploma in comp studies and now that i’m nearing the end of the first semester---i’m going to change my program into an associate of arts instead ;W; and my plan is to transfer to uni for a bachelor’s (if i choose to do so if i get my associate’s) i wanted to try comp sci solely bc of the job market and the pay. i know ppl say you shouldn’t get into something just for the money but it’s hard not to, you know? it’s tempting, especially bc where i live it’s so crazy expensive, and i wanted to try my hand at it. i currently live in an apartment with my sis rent free provided by my parents so i’m extremely fortunate and in a good place, but i can’t help but feel guilt. i want to make enough money to make an actual living so that i don’t have to keep depending on them and make them work so hard. this also prompted me to go back to school !  but i think i found out that comp sci is not for me. i do not like to code at all (python is okay but js is hell lol) i only like doing html/css styling ; w ; maybe i can try web development later down the line but algorithmic programing is not for me...what truly makes me happy is drawing and writing. it’s what i’ve done my entire life as hobbies but lately i’ve been so busy with school + work, it takes so much out of me, that i have to pick one, if i want to draw or write to relax. i think i mentioned my art burn out and stress in one of my last posts so i’ve chosen to write each time and i’ve neglected my art for so long now ;ww; i really want to get back into it...i miss it so much. so this is why i think the arts field is where i should be, i think i’d be a lot happier doing this. of course i worry about the future and career aspects...can i get a good job out of this? my cycle of thinking is very vicious, i can’t help but think about how my art isn’t good enough, that there are so many better artists out there on tumblr/tw so why would anyone ever hire me for art when they can pick those ppl instead ?? i really need to get out of my head and just---DO IT instead of all this pointless worrying. how will i know if i never try ?? if it doesn’t work out in the end, at least i tried right ?? but i won’t even know that if i don’t allow myself to start in the first place...i’m always crushing my own chance and opportunity with this way of thinking and it needs to stop TwT i really do so much thinking that i get into a crisis every now and then (as you can tell from some of my posts on the blog ahahaha) but i also think about all the sweet and supportive compliments on my art i’ve gotten from you guys and from my friends/family...it really makes me go ‘can i actually do it?’ my sister and my friend told me i should try to make my own stickers/merch and have my own store and honestly...i’ve been thinking about doing that for years but i’ve never had the courage to try. i fear failure so much. i fear being inadequate and irrelevant in comparison to other artists. my friend said that i shouldn’t worry about that bc there will be people who like my art because people like different art styles, the more the merrier---just like that artist cake meme ahahaha but i still...idk...stop myself from even trying anyways. why do i do that? once again, i should just draw whatever i want and stop caring about what other ppl think !! there’s bound to be someone out there that will enjoy my art qwq time and time again i’ve received such kind anons telling me that ! ;WW; so i’m putting my foot down and i’m really going to try changing my mindset and stop inhibiting myself.  first step: change my college program next step: get myself an ipad then: draw draw draw !! remember it doesn’t have to be a complete drawing, just sketches and doodles will be fine (maybe do commissions...? my sis aND MOM said i should do them, that my art is good enough, and do custom cards so maybe...? ahh but i’ve never ever been commissioned before, ive had friends ask to commission me in the past but those always fell through...so i’m unsure...but we’ll see) so this is where i’m at right now ;W; thank you to everyone who’s read this far ! i’m so sorry for always worrying about the same things wlejnfwlej it’s hardd but i want to be happy doing something i like 

we’ll see what happens in my next life update !! hopefully by then you’ll see much much more art from me~

#Egg talks #...way too much aHAHAHA

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hi, i know this might be a long shot but

does anyone here have a shiny budew or shiny roselia they could spare me? ;w; i mistakenly deleted my sister’s pokemon platinum file and it’s a very special pokemon to her (she’s had it since 2009, her first shiny ever) and i feel so so guilty about it ;AA; i know it won’t be the same but i still want to get her one back in any way i can if anyone has one and can trade me via pokemon xy or pokemon oras, please dm me !! TwwT

#Pokemon #XY #ORAS #Trade #Pokemon Trade #Pokemon XY #Pokemon ORAS #Roselia #Shiny Roselia #Shiny Trade #Budew #Shiny Budew #Egg talks

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The giveaway ends on October 10th!  Good luck, everybody!

#judai yuki and edo phoenix are my fav ygo charas !! #i love judai's sunny personality and he is just so adorable especially before s3 #and edo is so tsun and cuteee #his past makes me so sad and i just wanna hug him ;-; #judai pls hug him in my place #Giveaway