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Reminders for the Anxious/Depressed Creatives

You’re more than what you make.

Your productivity does not determine your value.

It’s okay to do nothing sometimes.

Not everything you do has to result in a product.

Not everything you make has to be important, significant, or even good.

You can make things just for yourself.

You can keep secrets for yourself, whether it’s not posting some of your projects or not sharing your techniques.

You’re allowed to say no.

You’re allowed to rest.

#nice words #writing

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visited a mandarake for the first time in a v e r y long time, found

one (1) shirazu pin someone seemed to have misplaced in the gojo section, and

a tg doujin section shorter than the length of my hand that had a handwritten label and contained exclusively shuuneki & uhhh whatever kuroneki/shironeki is called

🥲 the world truly turns

#i kinda hoped that there would be like a glut of old tg stuff that folks got rid of maybe idk!!!!!! #every time i see “東京” my heart jumps and then it’s tokyo revengers 😔 #but maybe i’ve -wince- outgrown a lot of my old goods/doujin freak ways bc i didn’t even see any sugusato that intrigued me…. 🥲🥲🥲 #and then i got that series about the office guy that falls for the vending machine repairman #bc what i actually wanted was the one about the flute guy and the trumpeter (?) guy but i. forgot the title. and author. and publisher. #mine

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turns out just drawing busts of him is becoming a thing

#hdkskdjs #obsessed with him still #and this #loz

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Angels can't be tempted, can you?

#sos i adore this #good omens

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the goal is to have such an overly refined writing style that people can immediately tell you're a pervert

#monkeypuppet.jpeg #lmao #writing

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the two genders

>at lawson

>i’m gonna get this jjk wafer+random sticker pack at lawson bc why not, i like everyone in s2 pretty much, i can’t lose!

>it’s mei mei

#mine

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>at lawson

>i’m gonna get this jjk wafer+random sticker pack at lawson bc why not, i like everyone in s2 pretty much, i can’t lose!

>it’s mei mei

#but i also got nanamikun so…..ok 🥲 #mine

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Some people have asked me if I can publish my mapmaking tools. So I developed a software. 🙂

Here is the result:

#aw fun #writing

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The relationship between shipping and fanfic is so much more than a binary choice between "niche ship where it's impossible to find anything" and "popular ship where it's impossible to find anything readable". There's also "niche ship that has thousands of fics because it's captured the imagination of an extremely specific kink subculture that you're not into at all", "popular ship whose writing community became established during an early hiatus and never incorporated any subsequent developments, instead diverging into an alternative canon that's unrecognisable to fans of the actual source material", "moderately well-represented ship where literally everything seems to have been written by a single impossibly prolific author whose grammatical quirks drive you up the wall", etc.

#lmao #writing #fandom

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🤐

#mine #my partner asked me why take this picture??? and i said…i can’t quite remember exactly….but i know it’s sad #[insert maya angelou quote]

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breaking out my ic card holder again 😌

#mine #also glad i brought mine bc apparently they stopped selling new ic cards indefinitely due to a semiconductor shortage @__@

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thank you!! 🥰☔️

#replies #mine

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Hi! I want to join that anon and say that I still reread your Touken stories! They're amazing and part of my comfort read ❤️

thank you friend!! i'm happy to know they comfort you 🥰💖

#asks #mine

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i'm AWARE this is a stupid hill to die on, but like. trope vs theme vs cliché vs motif vs archetype MATTERS. it matters to Me and i will die on this hill no matter how much others decide it's pointless. words mean things

#🤔🤔🤔 #writing

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skyward sword was such a crazy insane game to make like ok what if there was a story about a great evil and a goddess. and that goddess locked away that great evil, but she knew it would come back, and it would need to be defeated again. and what if that goddess knew that for this impossible task, she would need a loyal soldier. so she reincarnates. she reincarnates into a human girl, because the best way, the most reliable way, to get a loyal soldier, is love. and a goddess is respected, and idolized, and revered, but a goddess isn't loved. not like a human girl is. so she reincarnates. and she is loved genuinely and wholeheartedly, by her family, by her peers, and most importantly, by her best friend.

and what if there was a story about a boy and a girl. this one boy loves her so much, that when she falls from the sky, crashing to the earth, and into her immortal destiny, he follows her. and she runs, because she has a destiny, because she's finding out she is part of a divine plot, she and the boy are pawns in a goddess' war plans. did she ever love him did he ever love her or were they just being manipulated by the goddess. SHE'S the goddess. was SHE just manipulating him this whole time? "I'm still your zelda" but is she really? does she know it for sure? she doubts it and doubts it and runs and runs and he keeps chasing her. and she locks herself in time to defeat this great evil and he watches her do it. and he fights because he loves her and he defeats the evil and he gets her back and they're happy.

but what if there was a story about a goddess and a great evil. the evil cursed them for the rest of time. their descendants will never be safe there will always be evil to fight and she'll always be running and sacrificing and he'll always be chasing and fighting.

what if there was a story about a goddess and a great evil. what if there was a story about a girl and a boy. what if it was about the innate mortality and humanity of love and the act of loving. ok. at the walls of nintendo hq

#GNASHING TEETH #loz #zelink

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i like queerplatonic zelink not because i think them being strictly romantic is wrong but because i feel like its wildly in character for their levels of dramatics to have a relationship dynamic nobody but them understands

#zelink #loz #💕💕 #they have a special mood

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Happy Fanfic Writer Appreciation Day!

So back in May/June I finished my first playthrough of Persona 5 and fell HARD into the shuake/akeshu ship. This fic was one that I read and immediately messaged the author about doing for this event.

And it turned into probably my favorite book I've made yet. The one I am happiest with overall.

The series (both fics are in the book) is First Step. The main fic is "the first step to find your way is to mark where you have been" by @futuresoon

It's a fantastic post-Royal fic that explores the idea that Akechi's spirit is trapped in a Palace, and Akira has to work through the Palace of Akechi's trauma in order to save him.

Also thank you to @munidraws for letting me use their fanart for the fic.

Process details under here

The typesetting was designed based on both canon elements from the game and motifs from the fic. The fic is set mostly in a labyrinth of black stone walls, so I used that for the chapter openers. And the Chapter titles and text messages in the book use the actual fonts from the game (or ones recreated to be very close by fans).

Text messages are shown in very stylized black and white boxes in the game. I decided I couldn't recreate the shape of the boxes without both a lot of work and taking up a lot of page real estate. So I settled for plain black and white boxes. Shoutout to Manda and Des from Renegade for teaching me how to do these easily in Affinity.

The title page took me....more time than I'm willing to admit. Because of the labyrinth theme and long title I wanted a winding brick path for illustration but it proved really difficult to find anything like what I wanted. So I went through a lot of image manipulation to get something like what I wanted. (Shh, it's not a snake.)

I did my first solid painted edges, with a couple fails until I went and bought some black acrylic ink, which worked like a dream. The endpages are linen textured cardstock.

The case is bound in black bookcloth and marbled fabric made into bookcloth. I used purchased black bookcloth for the author copy and made my own paperless bookcloth with acrylic medium and paste from some thrifted fabric. You can tell the difference in person, but it's subtle. The marble is quilting fabric from Joann's which I also turned into paperless bookcloth and then folded and glued down as a strip.

The spine is titled with heat foil quill in red foil. It's not perfect, but came pretty close for using foil that is not fantastic in quality.

#this is SO gorgeous amazing #persona