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gentle reminder: you are very capable and I’m excited for your future

slightly less gentle reminder: you do have to work for it

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stop believing that you ran out of time to shape yourself into who you want to be! stop believing that its ruined! stop believing you don’t have potential! you are not a fixed being! you have endless opportunities to grow.

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i have No Idea What I Actually Look Like disease

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important things to remember

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My Apple Watch came in the mail today! I was so excited. My dad also helped me moved my Nanny's exercise bike into my junk room today. Now I have no excuse to now workout.

I took some "before" pictures that I was going to post, but when I saw them I couldn't bring myself to. They disgust me.

Tomorrow is my off day so I plan on sitting down and typing out my weight loss plan and goals. Originally I was going to do that this weekend, but I got my 2nd Covid vaccine Friday and was sick all weekend. That shot packed quite the punch.

Thanks so much for all of the follows and likes I've gotten. I really appreciate them. It helps keep me accountable. My question is: Do you want to see what I'm eating everyday?

Comment below your thoughts!

#weight loss journal #weightloss #weightloss journey #applewatch

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Let's talk about eating disorders

I have one. Since I was a teenager, my relationship with food has been all kinds of messed up. When I was younger it was severe severe restriction. Now it's bingeing. It's gotten so bad that not only am I in therapy for it, I take a semi-controversial medication that helps control my eating. I've seen some improvement on it. Enough that I've lost 10lbs since I started taking it. Anyway, I just thought that I should get that piece of information about myself out there. ----------- I went shopping yesterday and didn't completely hate myself when I got home. Yay! There was a small non scale victory yesterday. I was able to fit into a pair of jeans I haven't worn in at least two years. They had buttons! I haven't worn a pair of jeans with buttons in forever. It made me happy. Thank you to everyone who followed me and left comments. I really appreciate the support. Again, please comment and stuff. It's my motivation! xoxo

#weight loss journal #weight loss blog #losing weight #weightloss journey #bed #anamia #lose weight #keto

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Have to remind myself daily

you’re not a failure just because you’re not where you thought you’d be by now

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“Trust me when I tell you: The most beautiful eyes have cried the most. The happiest smile was sad all along. & the coldest person felt the most.”

— The Poetic Boy

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Day 1

My name is Heather and that's me on the right with the sunglasses.

I'm 32 and live in a very rural area of Arkansas.

And I'm fat. Like really fat. 364lbs to be exact. That's okay though because I'm going to change that. Why all of a sudden is this time any different from the other millions of times that I've tried to lose pounds? A few reasons:

1) I have a little cousin who just turned 4 that I've gotten very close to. His dad, my uncle, just took a job in California. Guys, I'm too fat to fit in a plane seat. Besides, how can I play with a little boy when I get winded getting groceries.

2) My health is declining. I have type 2 diabetes, high blood pressure, chronic muscle cramps, and random swelling in my feet, ankles, and legs. I'm 32! I should be out living life! Instead, I'm stuck on the sidelines watching everyone else have the time of their lives.

I'm not delusional. The weight isn't going to just fall off in the time frame that I want it to. This is going to be a very slow and very painful process. It's not easy to lose weight. It's even harder to lose weight when you have a mental disease called Bipolar Disorder.

I've had my disorder under control successfully for 5 years now. The price with having it under control means that I have to take powerful mood stabilizers that the main side effect is weight gain and difficulty losing weight.

My goal for the rest of 2021 is to lose 30lbs. I want to weigh 334 by Jan 1, 2022.

The point of writing this all out publically in a blog is to maybe gain a little bit of support. I'm shit at self-motivation and sticking to things. Maybe having some people (even if it's only 1) hold me accountable with my eating and exercise routine will help me be successful this time around.

So leave me tips, tricks, and ENCOURAGEMENT! Ask questions, I don't bite.

#weightloss #weight loss journey #bipolar disorder #mental health #plus size #weight loss support #keto

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You guys ever get the feeling that skinny people are treated better by anyone and everything on the planet for no fucking reason???

Just me? Ok.

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Never read a truer statement.